AI The third deadbolt stuck, as it always did, and Rory cursed under her breath as she wrestled with it. Ptolemy wound between her ankles, protesting the delay in his dinner with a series of aggrieved meows that echoed through the cramped hallway. She'd just gotten back from a double shift at the Golden Empress, her bike basket still overflowing with takeout menus she'd forgotten to distribute, and the last thing she wanted was to fight with Eva's infernal door.
Then the knocking started.
Three sharp raps, deliberate and measured. The kind of knock that expected to be answered.
Rory's hand froze on the lock. Eva was in Bath until Thursday, some archives conference she'd been babbling about for weeks. And no one else knew Rory was staying here. She'd made sure of that.
The knocking came again, slower this time. Patient.
She glanced down the narrow stairwell behind her. The curry house below was closed for renovations, which meant no help from the owners. Her phone was somewhere in her messenger bag, buried under flyers. The deadbolts were good, but the door itself was old wood, and the frame had been warped since the Blitz.
Another knock. Then silence.
Rory let out a breath , squared her shoulders, and opened the door.
Lucien Moreau stood in the dim hallway like he'd been sculpted from shadow and cigarette smoke, one hand resting on the silver head of his ivory-handled cane. The overhead bulb flickered , casting his platinum hair in harsh light one moment and amber darkness the next. His suit was charcoal today, impeccably tailored, the fabric catching the light in ways that probably cost more than three months of her rent.
His eyes caught hers. One amber, one black, both inscrutable.
"Rory."
Her name in his mouth was a familiar wound. That voice, low and honeyed with its French inflection, had kept her awake more nights than she cared to admit. She'd spent three months trying to forget it, and here he was, saying her name like no time had passed at all.
"Lucien." She didn't move from the doorway. "How did you find me?"
"You're staying with Eva. Her flatmate dropped out last month. You needed somewhere that Evan wouldn't know to look." He smiled, a thin expression that didn't reach his eyes. "I pay attention."
"I noticed." She gripped the doorframe. "What do you want?"
"May I come in?"
"No."
He tilted his head, studying her with those mismatched eyes. The black one always unsettled people, she knew. They'd talked about it once, late at night when the walls between them had been thinner. He'd confessed that his mother used to call it his window to Avaros, the realm his father came from. Rory had traced the line where his iris bled from amber to black with her fingertip and told him it was beautiful.
She'd been a fool.
"Rory." Something shifted in his voice. Not contrition, exactly. He was too proud for that. But something close to it, worn at the edges. "I know how I left things was—"
"Incorrect?" She stepped back as Ptolemy made a break for the door, scooping the tabby up before he could escape. "Cowardly? Cruel?"
"All of those, yes." He didn't look away. "I was protecting you."
"I didn't ask for protection." The words came out sharper than she'd intended, and Ptolemy squirmed in her arms. "I asked for honesty. You gave me a week of silence followed by a two-sentence note shoved through my letterbox. 'Circumstances have changed. Do not contact me.' Real poetry, Lucien. Very moving."
He flinched. She saw it, the tiny tightening around his mouth, and some petty part of her soul delighted in it.
"Your circumstances have changed as well," he said quietly. "You left him."
The air between them thickened. Three months ago, she'd been with Evan, trapped in a cage made of jealousy and controlling hands and the slow erosion of every thing she'd once been. Three months ago, she'd let Lucien walk away because she'd been too afraid, too tangled up, too weak to chase something she actually wanted.
Now she was free. And he was standing in Eva's hallway with his tailored suit and his hidden blade and his beautiful, ruined face.
"How did you know about Evan?"
"Does it matter?"
"It matters to me."
He exhaled, a sharp sound through his nose. "Yu-Fei mentioned it. She worries about you, you know. Talks about you constantly. You could have told me yourself."
"Why?" Rory shifted Ptolemy to her other hip. "So you could offer more protection? Push me away again the moment things got complicated?"
"Things were already complicated." His voice hardened. "Evan wasn't just controlling, Rory. He was connected. To people who would have used you against me without a second thought . People who still would, if they knew what you meant to me."
"What I meant to you." She laughed, but it came out broken. "You never even said. Not once. We spent three months dancing around each other, and you never—"
"I was terrified."
The words dropped into the space between them like stones into still water. Lucien Moreau, who faced down demons and criminals and things that crawled out of the dark corners of London without flinching, had been terrified . Of her. Of what he felt for her.
Ptolemy meowed impatiently, and Rory set him down. He immediately wound around Lucien's polished shoes, apparently forgiving her for the delay in his dinner if it meant a new person to investigate.
"Come in," she said, stepping back. "But I'm not promising anything."
He crossed the threshold like a man entering holy ground, his gaze sweeping across the chaos of Eva's living room. Books on every surface, scrolls unrolled across the coffee table, research notes pinned to the walls. The supernatural underworld's most extensive unofficial library, Eva called it. Lucien's expression softened with something like admiration.
"She's thorough, your friend," he said, running a finger along a stack of journals. "I've been looking for half of these for years."
"Steal anything and I'll let Ptolemy use your suit as a scratching post."
"Wouldn't dream of it." He turned to face her, and the overhead light chose that moment to steady, illuminating the lines of exhaustion around his eyes, the slight dishevelment of his hair. Lucien Moreau, untouchable fixer and information broker, looked like he hadn't slept in days. "I'm not here for the books, Rory."
"No. You're here because you heard I was finally free, and you want to—what? Pick up where we left off? Pretend you didn't destroy whatever this was between us with a note and a week of silence?"
"I'm here," he said, each word measured, "because I spent three months trying to convince myself that walking away was the right thing to do. Because every piece of information I gathered, every problem I solved, every favor I called in, I thought about telling you. About how your mind would take it apart and put it back together in ways I hadn't considered." He stepped closer, and she caught the faint scent of sandalwood and cigarette smoke that clung to him, a scent that had been erased from her memory until this moment brought it rushing back. "Because I missed you. Absurdly, obsessively, to the point where my work suffered."
"Lucien—"
"I told myself I could let you go. That you'd be safer, happier, away from the darkness I operate in. That the life you had, however imperfect, was better than the one I could offer." His voice cracked on the last word, and Rory felt something inside her chest crack along with it. "But then Yu-Fei told me you'd left him, and you were here, alone, and I couldn't—I couldn't stay away. Not anymore."
She should push him back. Protect herself the way he'd failed to do gently . But her hands were shaking , and her throat was tight, and every inch of distance between them felt like an accusation.
"You broke my heart," she whispered. "In a two-sentence note, like I was nothing."
"You were every thing." His voice was raw. "That was the problem. You were every thing, and I was a coward."
Ptolemy jumped onto the windowsill, scattering a stack of papers, and neither of them looked. The light flickered again, amber and shadow chasing each other across Lucien's face, and Rory thought about all the ways this could go wrong. The way it had gone wrong before. The danger that clung to him like the smoke that clung to his clothes.
But she also thought about the way he'd looked at her when she'd solved a problem he'd been wrestling with for weeks. The way he'd brought her tea without being asked , the exact way she liked it. The way he'd listened, truly listened, like her words carried weight and meaning and matter.
She thought about how she'd never stopped looking for him in crowds.
"I'm not the same person I was three months ago," she said. "I've changed. I'm stronger now."
"I know." Something flickered in his expression, hope and grief tangled together. "I watched you rebuild yourself from a distance. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen."
"I'm not saying I forgive you."
"I wouldn't ask you to. Not yet."
"But I'm saying—" She stopped, swallowed, forced herself to meet his eyes. Both of them. The amber and the black. "I'm saying that if you walk away again, that's it. No more notes. No more chances. I won't wait for you, Lucien. I've spent too much of my life waiting for men who couldn't decide if I was worth the risk."
"I decided months ago," he said. "I was simply too much of a fool to act on it correctly."
"Then show me. Not with words." She stepped back, putting distance between them again, because if she didn't, she'd do something stupid like kiss him, and she wasn't ready for that. Not yet. Maybe not ever. "Show me you meant it. That you're not going to disappear the moment things get hard again."
He nodded slowly , like a man receiving a sentence he deserved. "What do you need?"
Rory glanced around the cluttered flat, at the research she'd been helping Eva organize, at the life she was trying to build from the wreckage of the old one. Then she looked back at Lucien, standing in his perfect suit with his imperfect face, carrying more weight than any person should have to bear.
"Dinner," she said. "Tomorrow. Somewhere public. And you're going to tell me every thing. No more secrets, no more protecting me from the truth. I want to know what I'm getting into, if I'm getting into anything at all."
The corner of his mouth twitched. Not quite a smile, but close. "I know a place."
"I'm sure you do." She moved toward the door, an unmistakable signal. "Seven o'clock. Don't be late."
He let himself out, pausing at the threshold to look back at her one last time. The light caught his eyes, both of them, and for just a moment, Rory saw the demon in him. The ancient, dangerous thing he'd inherited from a father he'd never met. But she also saw the man. The one who'd been terrified of loving her and had walked away because of it.
"Rory," he said softly .
"What?"
"Thank you. For not closing the door completely ."
She didn't answer. But she also didn't close it until she heard his footsteps fade away into the London night, and even then, she left the deadbolts unlatched. Just in case.
Ptolemy wound around her ankles again, demanding attention, and Rory bent to scratch behind his ears. Her hands were still trembling. Her heart was still racing. Somewhere in the mess of this evening, she'd opened a door she wasn't sure she could close.
But as she moved through the flat, feeding the cat and straightening the papers he'd scattered, she found herself thinking about tomorrow. About what Lucien might say. About what she might say back.
And for the first time in months, the thought of the future didn't terrify her.