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The green neon above the door bled a watery light across the wet pavement, and inside The Raven's Nest the usual Wednesday crowd was thin enough that Rory could hear the ice settle in her glass. She sat at the far end of the bar with her jacket still on, the Golden Empress delivery bag crumpled on the stool beside her. Her fingers smelled of garlic and sesame oil. She'd done six runs in the rain and her shoes were soaked through and she wanted nothing more complicated than the whisky Silas had already poured without being asked. He stood at the other end of the bar, polishing a glass with a cloth that had seen better decades, his silver signet ring catching the low light each time his hand turned. The old maps on the walls looked like they were breathing in the amber glow. A couple in the corner booth whispered to each other over a candle that had melted into an unrecognizable shape, and a man near the window read a paperback with the cover torn off. The door opened. Rory didn't look up. Doors opened. Then the woman at the entrance said something to Silas—just her drink order—and the sound of the voice hit some buried frequency in Rory's chest, some note she hadn't heard in years but recognized the way you recognize your own heartbeat after holding your breath. She turned on her stool. The woman standing at the bar wore a charcoal coat with sharp shoulders and a silk blouse the color of plums. Her hair was different. It had been wild once, a mess of dark curls she used to pin up with a biro during lectures, and now it was cut into a blunt bob, blown straight, severe. She was thinner. The softness that had lived in her face at twenty—in her jaw, her cheeks—had been carved away, and what remained was the architecture of someone who slept too little and drank her coffee black. She wore a watch that looked like it cost more than Rory's rent. Gemma Holt. She hadn't seen Rory yet. She was looking at her phone, thumbing through something, her mouth set in a line that belonged to a person twice her age. Silas placed a gin and tonic on the bar and she picked it up with her left hand, and that's when Rory noticed there was no ring. There had been one last time—an engagement ring, emerald cut, the kind of ring that catches every light in a room and demands comment. Rory had seen it in a photo Eva forwarded years ago, and she'd stared at it for too long and felt something she couldn't name and then deleted the conversation. "Gemma." The woman's hand stopped halfway to her mouth. The glass paused. Her eyes tracked the length of the bar to where Rory sat, and for one unguarded second her face did something complicated and raw, like wet paper crumpling—and then it smoothed. She was good at that now, clearly. "Aurora Carter." She said the full name. Nobody called her Aurora. Only her mother, and only when she was angry. "Nobody's called me that since Cardiff." "Well. We're not in Cardiff." They looked at each other across twelve feet of scarred wood, four years of silence, and whatever wreckage lay between those two distances. Silas, with the practiced instinct of a man who'd spent decades reading rooms far more dangerous than this one, drifted to the far end of the bar and began restocking bottles that didn't need restocking. Gemma picked up her glass and walked over. She didn't sit on the stool with the delivery bag. She stood beside it and looked at it, at the golden dragon logo printed on the side, at the grease stain near the zipper. "You're a courier?" "Delivery person. There's a restaurant on Gerrard Street. Yu-Fei Cheung's Golden Empress." "You deliver Chinese food." "That's what a delivery person does, Gem." Gemma pulled out the stool on the other side and sat. She crossed her legs and set her drink on the bar with a precise movement, centered on the coaster. Everything about her was precise now. Calibrated. The girl who'd once danced barefoot on the Cardiff Uni library steps during a fire drill, who'd eaten cold pizza for breakfast and laughed so loud the neighbors complained—that girl had been filed down into this sharp, quiet woman who centered her glass on the coaster. "I thought you'd gone into law," Gemma said. "You thought wrong." "Your father must be—" "My father is my father. He's fine. How'd you end up in London?" Gemma took a measured sip. "Clifford Chance. Corporate division. I transferred from their Cardiff office eighteen months ago." "Clifford Chance." Rory let the name sit. One of the biggest law firms in the world. "So you did it." "I did something." There was a silence that had weight to it, like saturated wool. Rory traced the crescent-shaped scar on her left wrist—old habit, the skin there smooth and slightly raised, a geography she knew by touch. She caught Gemma watching the motion and stopped. "I looked for you," Gemma said. "After you left. I called. I went to your flat. Your mother wouldn't tell me anything. She just kept saying you needed space." She turned her glass a quarter turn on the coaster. "Eva wouldn't tell me either. Your best friend and your other best friend both shut me out. That was fun." "I shut everyone out." "Not Eva." "Eva was different." "Right." The word came out thin and flat like a coin dropped on concrete. "Eva was different." Rory drank. The whisky was warm and plain and it gave her a reason not to speak for three seconds, which was exactly three seconds she needed. "It wasn't about you, Gemma." "No. It was about Evan." The name landed on the bar between them like something dropped from a height. Rory felt her jaw tighten, a reflex, involuntary, the body remembering what the mind had spent years learning to manage. She kept her eyes on the old black-and-white photograph on the wall opposite—some unnamed street in some unnamed city, people blurred mid-stride, caught between where they'd been and where they were going. "What do you know about Evan?" Gemma's composure shifted. Not much. A crack in the plaster. "I know what Eva told me. Eventually. About two years after you'd gone." She paused. "I know enough." "Eva told you." "She thought I deserved to know why you disappeared." Rory set her glass down. "And what did you do with that information, Gem? What did knowing accomplish?" "I spent about a week not sleeping. Then I spent about a month going back through every memory of the three of us—you, me, him—looking for the things I missed." Gemma's voice had gone low and stripped, the courtroom poise dissolving into something older and less defended. "The dinner at that Thai place when he grabbed your wrist under the table. The way you stopped coming out on Fridays. How you started wearing long sleeves in July. I catalogued every one. Like a bloody case file." The bar seemed to contract around them. The couple in the corner had left without Rory noticing. The man with his paperback turned a page. Silas moved through the back, and the sound of a crate being set down reached them from somewhere behind the wall. "You couldn't have known," Rory said. "That's what people say when they don't want to have the real conversation." "What's the real conversation?" Gemma looked at her. Straight on, no deflection, and for a moment the woman from Clifford Chance fell away and Rory saw the girl she'd known—the one who'd held her hair back after too many pints at the student union, the one who'd stayed up until four in the morning helping her rewrite a torts essay, the one who'd once told her, gravely and without irony, that she'd fight a bear for her. "The real conversation is that I saw things. Small things. And I told myself they were nothing because it was easier to believe they were nothing. Because believing they were something meant I had to do something, and I didn't want to be wrong, and I didn't want the awkwardness, and I didn't—" She stopped. Swallowed. "I chose my own comfort over your safety. And I have carried that around like a stone in my chest for four years." The words hung in the air of The Raven's Nest, somewhere among the old maps and the amber light and the smell of aged wood and spilled beer that no amount of mopping ever fully removed. Rory looked at her old friend. She looked at the sharp haircut and the expensive watch and the precise posture and the dark smudges under her eyes that no concealer quite covered. She looked at the bare left hand where the emerald-cut ring no longer lived. "Is that why you became this?" Rory gestured vaguely at all of Gemma—the coat, the blouse, the armor of it. Gemma's mouth twitched. Not quite a smile. "I became this because it's easier to work eighty-hour weeks than sit with yourself." "That's not an answer." "It's the only one I've got." Rory picked up the delivery bag and moved it to the floor. She patted the stool. Gemma stared at the empty seat for a moment. Then she moved to it, and they sat side by side, facing the bar, the way they used to sit on the wall outside the university library with their feet dangling and nowhere particular to be. "The ring's gone," Rory said. "Tom's gone. The ring followed." "I'm sorry." "Don't be. It was the right call. He was—" Gemma caught herself. "He was fine. He was perfectly fine. That was the problem. There was nothing wrong with him except that I couldn't feel anything, and it turned out he couldn't either, and we were two people performing a relationship like a school play." She ran her finger around the rim of her glass. "I think I forgot how to feel things somewhere around year two at the firm. Occupational hazard." Silas appeared from the back, moving with his quiet authority and his slight limp, and placed a fresh whisky in front of Rory without comment. He glanced at Gemma's glass, still half full, and moved on. He had a gift for knowing when to be furniture. "Do you like it here?" Gemma asked. She looked around the bar—the peeling maps, the cracked leather stools, the neon green leaking through the front window. "This place." "I live upstairs." "You live above a bar in Soho." "It's not as grim as you're making it sound. Silas—the owner—he's good. He gave me the flat when I couldn't afford first month's rent anywhere else." Rory turned the glass in her hands. "It's small and the pipes bang at three in the morning and the floorboards feel like they're narrating my every move. But it's mine. No one else's name on the lease. No one else's key." Gemma absorbed this. Something moved behind her eyes—understanding settling into a place that had been holding a question. "I should have called," Gemma said. "After Eva told me. I should have picked up the phone and I should have called you and said I was sorry and asked if you were okay." "Why didn't you?" "Because by then two years had passed and I'd convinced myself you didn't want to hear from me. That too much time had gone by. That the silence had become its own answer." "Silence isn't an answer. Silence is just silence." "I know that now." They sat. The paperback man closed his book and left. The candle in the corner booth guttered and went out, sending a thin thread of smoke toward the ceiling. Silas wiped down the empty tables in no particular hurry. "I missed you," Gemma said. She said it the way you'd state a fact about the weather or the distance between two cities—plainly, without ornament, daring the other person to question its truth. Rory touched the scar on her wrist again, then stopped. She looked at Gemma—really looked—and saw the fatigue, and the guilt, and the loneliness that no corner office at Clifford Chance could insulate against. She saw the ghost of the girl who'd fight a bear. She saw that neither of them had become what they'd intended, and that both of them had survived anyway, and that survival was not the same thing as arrival. "I'm getting another drink," Rory said. "You want another drink?" Gemma set her empty glass on the coaster. "Yes." Rory waved at Silas, who was already reaching for the bottles.