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The green neon tube above the door bled a sickly wash across the floorboards. Rain drummed against the frosted glass of The Raven’s Nest. Rory traced the crescent mark on her left wrist with her thumb. The wood of the bar top bore decades of pint rings and cigarette burns. Silas moved behind the counter, his left leg catching on the step stool before he corrected his weight. He polished a tumbler with a linen cloth, hazel eyes tracking the room without turning his head. The silver band on his right hand caught the low light. Old maps curled at the edges on the walls. Black and white photographs captured strangers frozen in post-war suits and stiff smiles. The air smelled of stale stout, lemon polish, and damp wool. The hinge groaned. A draught cut through the room. Boots scuffed the threshold. Rory kept her chin down, watching the condensation slide off her glass. A familiar scent hit first. Vanilla and cheap rain tobacco. The kind they used to share behind the bike sheds in Cardiff. Rory lifted her gaze. The woman shaking out a soaked trench coat bore little resemblance to the girl who had dragged Rory onto the London train three years prior. Her hair, once a wild copper mane, lay chopped close to the skull, bleached to the colour of bone. Dark hollows carved themselves beneath her cheekbones. A silver chain bit into her collarbone. She scanned the room, shoulders tight, fingers drumming a frantic rhythm against her thigh. Her boots carried dried mud caked into the treads. Her hands looked rough, nails bitten to the quick, skin cracked at the knuckles. Their eyes locked. Eva’s drumming stopped. Her mouth opened, then snapped shut. She stepped forward, boots heavy on the floor. You look like a ghost. Rory set her glass down. The ice clinked against the rim. You cut your hair. Eva dragged a stool out. The legs scraped against the wood. She sat, kept her coat on, and signalled Silas with two fingers. He nodded, poured a measure of whisky, and slid it across the bar. The glass stopped an inch from her knuckles. Three years does that to you. Turns you into something else. Or strips you back to what you always were. Rory watched the amber liquid tremble as Eva lifted it. The tremor vanished the moment the glass touched her lips. She swallowed, winced, and set it down hard. You stopped answering your phone. Six months in. I thought you moved to Manchester. Or fell into the Thames. Eva picked at a loose thread on her cuff. The fabric frayed under her nail. Manchester costs too much. The Thames smells worse than Cardiff in July. I kept moving. Different postcodes. Different locks on the doors. You know how it goes. I know how it goes when you run. I do it for a living now. Delivering noodles across Soho while you play hide and seek. A dry sound escaped Eva’s throat. Not quite a laugh. She turned the whisky glass in a slow circle. You always had a talent for making survival sound like a punchline. How’s the flat above this place? Does the floor shake when the tube goes under? Every twenty minutes. I stopped noticing after the first week. Silas keeps the heating on. The walls have maps older than my father’s law degree. It works. Silas shifted his weight, the signet ring tapping against a bottle cap. He wiped the counter, left a clean streak between them, and retreated to the far end. The jazz record in the corner hissed through a trumpet solo. Dust motes danced in the neon spill. Eva leaned forward. The light caught the sharp line of her jaw. You kept the scar covered back then. Long sleeves in August. You hid everything. Now you sit in a stranger’s pub with your wrists bare. London fixed you. London buried the girl who took his shouting. I dug her out when I realised she was suffocating me. You told me to leave. You bought the ticket. Then you vanished. Eva’s knuckles whitened around the glass. She stared at the condensation pooling on the bar. I bought the ticket because I watched him put his hand through your kitchen door. I watched you sweep up the glass and apologise for bleeding on the linoleum. I couldn’t watch it again. So I ran first. Coward’s privilege. The words hung in the smoke and damp wool. Rory’s thumb stopped moving over her wrist. She picked up her drink, let the cold seep into her palm, and set it back down untouched. You left a note on my pillow. Two lines. Call when you’re safe. I called. The number disconnected. Phones get tracked. People get found. I shed the old skin. Changed the name on the tenancy. Cut the hair. Burned the photographs. You think I wanted to leave you drowning in that flat with him? I thought if I disappeared, he’d lose the scent. He always hated me more anyway. Rory traced the rim of her glass. The jazz trumpet faded into a double bass line. Rain lashed the window pane. He didn’t lose the scent. He just got bored. Packed his bags and moved to Bristol. I found out from his sister. You burned your life for a ghost that wasn’t chasing you. Eva’s shoulders dropped. The tension leaked out, replaced by a hollow slump. She dragged a hand over her cropped hair, fingers catching on the rough texture. I sleep on a mattress in a room with no windows. I work nights at a warehouse in Dagenham. I jump when a door slams. I tell myself it’s penance. It just feels like rot. Rory reached across the bar. Her fingers hovered over Eva’s wrist, then withdrew. She curled her hand into a fist and rested it on the wood. You told me to be brave. You stood on the platform at Cardiff Central and told me the city would eat me alive if I didn’t bite back. I bit back. I got a job. I got a roof. I stopped flinching at raised voices. You built the ladder and refused to climb it. Eva knocked back the rest of the whisky. She slammed the glass down, the sound cracking through the low murmur of the pub. Silas didn’t look up. He just adjusted a row of bottles, his movements precise and unhurried. I built the ladder out of matchsticks. It caught fire the moment I put my weight on it. You think I don’t see it? You think I don’t look at you and see the person I was supposed to become? You got out. I just got lost. The green light pulsed through the window, washing over Eva’s face in rhythmic waves. The hollows under her eyes deepened. She pulled a crumpled packet of cigarettes from her coat, shook one loose, and realised the pub had no ashtrays. She tucked it behind her ear instead. I kept your birthday card. The one you sent before the number died. I read it when the walls felt too close. You wrote about the river. About how water carves stone if you give it enough time. I waited for the carving. I just got erosion. Rory’s jaw tightened. She picked up her glass, drained it, and felt the burn slide down her throat. She set it down, aligned it perfectly with the edge of a beer mat, and met Eva’s gaze. Erosion leaves canyons. You don’t get to call it damage and walk away. You dragged me out of Cardiff. You don’t get to sit in the dark and pretend you did me a favour while you starve yourself. Look at me. Eva lifted her head. Her eyes, once bright and sharp, carried a dull film. They flickered, then held. I look at you. I see the girl who used to hide law textbooks under her bed so her father wouldn’t lecture her at dinner. I see the woman who delivers takeout in the rain and sleeps soundly above a spy’s pub. I see everything I dropped to make sure you kept walking. You dropped nothing. You ran. You left me holding the pieces and called it sacrifice. The words landed heavy. Eva’s breath hitched. She pressed her palms flat against the bar, knuckles straining, and pushed herself upright. The stool scraped again. She didn’t step back. She leaned in, close enough for Rory to catch the stale whisky and rain on her breath. I left because I was breaking. I left because every time he raised his voice, I felt my own ribs crack. I couldn’t carry you and myself. I chose you. I always chose you. Even when it meant cutting the rope. Rory’s fingers uncurled. She laid her hand flat on the bar, the crescent scar pale against the dark wood. She didn’t pull away. She didn’t reach out. She just let the silence stretch, thick and suffocating, until the jazz record clicked into the next track. You cut the rope and forgot to tell me you were falling. Three years, Eva. Three years of dead ends and disconnected lines. You don’t get to walk in here with a shaved head and a warehouse job and expect the water to stop carving. Eva’s throat worked. She swallowed hard, blinked once, and straightened her coat. The silver chain caught the neon again. She dug into her pocket, pulled out a battered Oyster card, and set it on the bar. Next to it, she placed a single brass key, teeth worn smooth. I kept a spare. To the storage unit in Brixton. All the boxes from the old flat. Your books. Your mother’s good china. The things I couldn’t carry when I bolted. I paid the rent on it every month. Starved some weeks to keep the direct debit alive. It’s yours. It was always yours. Rory stared at the key. The brass gleamed dully under the pub lights. She traced the edge of the Oyster card with her fingertip, feeling the ridges of the plastic. You starved to keep a storage locker. You could have called. You could have knocked on this door. Silas would have let you in. He lets everyone in eventually. Eva shook her head. A sharp, final motion. She stepped back, boots finding the floorboards with deliberate weight. I couldn’t face you. Not like this. Not when you won and I lost. I just needed you to know I didn’t drop it all. I kept the pieces safe. Even when I couldn’t keep myself. The rain eased to a steady drizzle. The green neon buzzed, a low electric hum that vibrated through the bar top. Silas stopped polishing. He rested his hands on the counter, signet ring still, hazel eyes fixed on the space between them. He said nothing. He didn’t need to. Rory picked up the brass key. The metal felt cold, heavy, real. She closed her fingers around it, the teeth biting into her palm, and looked up. You don’t get to decide who won. You don’t get to decide what losing looks like. Sit down. Drink the rest of your whisky. Tell me about Dagenham. Tell me about the warehouse. Tell me why you smell like rain and cheap tobacco instead of that vanilla perfume you used to steal from Boots. Eva’s shoulders trembled. Just once. She gripped the edge of the bar, knuckles bleaching white, and lowered herself back onto the stool. The wood creaked under her weight. She didn’t reach for the glass. She just stared at her hands, at the frayed cuffs, at the life etched into her skin. The vanilla ran out. I stopped buying it. Started smoking roll-ups because they cost less and kept my hands busy. The warehouse moves freight. Pallets of canned goods. Forklifts screaming all night. I like the noise. It drowns out the quiet. The quiet is where I hear him. The quiet is where I hear you calling a number that doesn’t exist. Rory signalled Silas. Two fingers. He poured another measure, slid it over, and retreated to the shadows near the bookshelf. The hidden door stayed shut. The maps on the walls yellowed at the edges. The photographs captured strangers frozen in time. Drink it. Then we walk to Brixton. You carry one box. I carry the rest. We figure out the rest when the sun comes up. Eva wrapped her hands around the glass. The tremor returned, faint but present. She lifted it, met Rory’s eyes over the rim, and took a slow sip. The burn made her cough. She didn’t look away. I don’t know how to come back. I don’t know how to be the person you remember. That girl died on the train platform. I’m just what scraped itself off the tracks. Rory leaned forward, elbows on the bar, voice low and steady. Then stop digging graves for people who are still breathing. Drink. We’ve got boxes to move.