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The door opened, and the world tilted. He was wearing no jacket. That was the first thing she noticed, and it was absurd that it was the first thing, because Lucien Moreau without a jacket was not a person she had any business cataloguing. He wore a white shirt, sleeves rolled to the elbows, the top two buttons undone, and a glass of something amber in his left hand. His hair was loose — not the slicked-back severity he wore in public, but fallen across his forehead in a way that made him look younger, less like the man who brokered secrets in the dark and more like the man who had once, eight months ago, stood too close to her in the rain and not kissed her. He didn't say anything at first. He just looked at her. Rory had prepared a speech. She'd written it on the Tube, rewritten it in her head during the walk from the station, discarded it entirely on the stairs of his building. The speech had been clever. The speech had been controlled. The speech had not accounted for the way his collarbones looked above that open collar, or the way the hallway light caught one amber eye and one black, or the way he was looking at her now as though she were a problem he had been waiting to solve. "I know," she said. "I shouldn't have come." He stepped back. Not an invitation, exactly. Not a refusal either. Just a widening of space, the way a man widens space when he is deciding whether to let something dangerous into his home. She stepped in. The flat smelled of sandalwood and old paper. She remembered that smell. She had spent three months learning it, the way you learn a person when you are half in love with them and half terrified of what that means — the exact notes of his cologne, the way he folded his shirts, the soft click of his cane on the floorboards when he walked her to the door at the end of a long evening and did not ask her to stay. He closed the door behind her. She heard the three locks engage, one after another, precise as a sentence he was choosing not to speak. "Eight months," he said. His voice was the same. That was the cruelest part. The low, unhurried French warmth of it, the slight smile he put into questions, as though everything were a small private joke the rest of the world wasn't privy to. He set his glass down on the narrow table by the door. "You are counting." "Of course I'm counting." "You shouldn't be." She turned on him then, because she had come all this way and she was not going to let him make her small. "Don't do that. Don't tell me what I should and shouldn't feel. You don't get to do that anymore, Lucien. You gave that up." Something moved in his face. A flicker in the black eye, a tightening at the corner of his mouth. He had the most beautiful mouth she had ever seen on a man, and she hated that she still thought that, hated that her body still responded to him like a tuning fork struck in a quiet room, that her pulse had not got the memo her pride had been drafting for the better part of a year. "You are right," he said. "I gave that up." "Then stop pretending you didn't mean to." The words hung between them. She heard them, and she heard what was underneath them — all the things she had not said in eight months, all the messages she had drafted and deleted, all the nights she had lain awake in the flat above Silas' bar and stared at the ceiling and told herself that he had made the right choice, that she was better off, that the way he had looked at her that last night — the way his hand had come up to her face and then stopped, his fingers a breath from her cheek, his eyes saying everything his mouth refused to — was not a wound she was allowed to name. "You said I was a complication," she said, quieter now. "You said it in that voice you use when you're trying to sound reasonable, that voice that makes me want to put my fist through something. You said, *Aurora, you deserve someone whose world is not a danger to you.* You said, *This is not a life for you.* As if you had the right. As if I hadn't already been living in a world that tried to break me, and I'd survived it, and I was asking — I was asking for the chance to survive this too." Lucien was very still. He stood with his weight on the bad leg, the one the cane was really for, though he rarely let anyone see him use it as anything but a prop. Tonight the cane was leaning against the wall by the door, out of reach. He had been drinking alone. He had been drinking alone, and he had answered the door without it, which meant he had heard her footsteps on the stairs and known who it was before he turned the lock. "You came to my door," he said. "At half eleven. In the rain." She glanced down. Her jacket was dark with it. Her hair was dripping onto the floorboards. She had not noticed. "I finished a delivery," she said. "For Yu-Fei. And I was walking home. And I wasn't, actually — I wasn't going to come. I was two streets past your building when I turned around." "Why?" "Because I'm tired of pretending I don't need to turn around." The silence that followed was the loudest thing she had ever heard. It filled the flat, pressed against the walls, made the small space feel enormous. The rain ticked at the window. Somewhere below, a car hissed past on wet asphalt. The city went on being the city, indifferent to the fact that Aurora Carter was standing in the hallway of a half-demon's flat, shaking, and not entirely from the cold. Lucien moved first. He crossed the distance between them in two steps, and his hand came up to her face — the same hand, the same almost-touch, the same breath of space between his fingertips and her skin that he had left eight months ago on the doorstep of Eva's flat after a case that had nearly killed them both. She had stood there. She had waited. He had said goodnight, and turned, and walked away, and she had stood in the cold for a long time afterward, trying to understand what had just happened to her. "Don't," she whispered, even as she leaned into him. His fingers brushed her jaw. Just that. Just the lightest possible pressure, the kind of touch that could be denied, could be called an accident, could be filed under concern for a friend who had come in out of the rain. His thumb traced the line of her cheekbone. His eyes searched her face. "You are soaked," he said, very softly. "I know." "You will catch cold." "I've survived worse." Something in his expression cracked. Not a smile — Lucien did not smile like other men. It was a shift, a softening, a small surrender of some fortification he had been holding in place for eight months. She saw it. She had been looking for it. She had been surviving on the memory of how he had looked at her that last night, and now he was looking at her again, and it was worse and better than she remembered, because the wanting in it had not diminished. If anything, it had grown patient. It had grown careful. "I should not have said what I said," he murmured. "I have regretted it every day." "Then why did you mean it?" He leaned his forehead down to hers. She felt the warmth of him, the sandalwood, the faint burn of whatever he had been drinking. His hand slid into her wet hair, cradling the back of her skull. She could feel his pulse through his fingers, faster than his voice would have led her to believe. "I did not mean it," he said. "I wanted to. I told myself I was protecting you. I told myself I was being noble. I was being a coward, Aurora. I was a coward, and I am sorry, and I have been sorry for eight months, and I did not know how to come to your door and say it." She made a sound that was not quite a laugh and not quite a sob. "You could have just *knocked*, Lucien. I'm three streets away. You knew where I lived." "Yes." His thumb moved against her temple. "I knew. I stood outside your building twice. I could not make myself climb the stairs." She pulled back just enough to look at him. The two eyes — amber and black — regarded her with an honesty she had not earned and he had not offered, until now. The rain was still falling. Her clothes were still soaked. Somewhere in the city, a clock struck midnight, and the sound drifted up through the floorboards like a long, slow exhale. "Stay," she said. It was not a question. It was not a demand. It was the smallest, most frightened word she had ever spoken, and she hated that she had to be the one to say it, and she would say it again, a hundred times, if it meant he would finally stop standing on the other side of her door. Lucien kissed her forehead. Then her closed eyes. Then the corner of her mouth, where the word had just been. "I am not going anywhere," he said. "Not this time. Not again." And he took her hand — gently, as though she were made of something precious and breakable, though she had told him a hundred times that she was neither — and led her deeper into the flat, away from the door, away from the cold, into the warm lamplight and the smell of sandalwood and the long, slow beginning of whatever came next.