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The rain had been falling since four, the kind of London rain that didn't commit to downpour but instead hung in the air like a grudge. Aurora pushed through the door of The Raven's Nest with a delivery bag still slung over one shoulder, her hair plastered to her neck, and the particular expression of someone who had been shouted at in Cantonese for twenty minutes about a wrong address in Bloomsbury. The warmth hit her like a wall. Silas was behind the bar, polishing a glass with the methodical patience of a man who had once dismantled a sniper rifle in a hotel room in Vienna. He didn't look up. He never did when she came in looking like a drowned cat. He simply reached beneath the counter and produced a towel. "You're dripping on my floor." "Your floor has seen worse." She caught the towel and pressed it against her face, breathing in the familiar smell of bleach and old wood. The bar was quieter than usual for a Thursday. A couple in the corner nursing what looked like their third round of the same pint. An older man at the end of the bar reading a paperback with the spine cracked so far back it resembled a broken wing. The green neon from the sign outside painted everything in a faint, sickly emerald, and the walls — covered in their usual collage of yellowed maps and black-and-white photographs — seemed to pulse with it. She dropped the delivery bag behind the bar and was halfway to the stairs when the door opened again. The cold swept in. So did a scent she hadn't smelled in years — something floral, expensive, wrong for a place like this. She turned. The woman standing in the doorway was tall, angular, wearing a camel coat that cost more than three months' rent. Her blonde hair was cut sharp at the jaw, sleek and polished, and her cheekbones looked like they'd been carved by someone with a grudge against softness. She held a phone in one hand and an umbrella in the other, and she stood in the entrance like she was waiting for someone to tell her it was safe to breathe the air. "Rory?" The voice. That was what cracked it. Underneath the elocution, underneath the vowels that had been sanded down and repainted in something vaguely Home Counties, the voice was the same. Bright. A little too loud. The voice of someone who used to sing Cosc Cosc Bóthar na nGall at the top of her lungs on the walk home from the pub in Cathays. "Eva." Eva's face did something complicated. A smile started and then stalled, as if it had hit traffic. She folded her umbrella with a precise, mechanical motion and walked toward the bar, her heels clicking against the floor in a way that made Silas finally look up. "Rory. My God. How long has it been?" "Four years." Aurora draped the towel over her shoulder. "Give or take." "Four years and three months." Eva set her umbrella against the bar and slid onto a stool with the ease of someone who had sat on a hundred bar stools in a hundred bars and knew exactly how to arrange herself on one. "I counted." Silas appeared in front of them. He set down a coaster with his initials engraved on it — a touch of vanity she'd always found endearing — and waited. "Gin and tonic. Hendricks if you have it." "We have it." "And whatever she's having." Eva gestured toward Aurora with a tilt of her chin. "On me." "She's not drinking," Silas said, already turning to the gin. "I didn't know that was your decision to make." "It's not. But she's not drinking." Eva's eyebrows rose. She studied Silas with the appraising look of someone accustomed to reading rooms and finding them wanting. "And you are?" "The landlord." "Silas." Aurora said it before the silence could curdle. "He owns the place. I live upstairs." Eva's gaze traveled from Silas to Aurora and back again, and something in her expression shifted — a flicker of concern, quickly suppressed, filed away under whatever internal system she used to catalogue the behaviour of people she once knew. She accepted the gin and tonic, took a sip, and set it down with a precise click. "You look well." "You look expensive." Eva laughed. It was the right laugh — the one Aurora remembered — but it came out a half-second too late, like a subtitle on a foreign film. "I should hope so. I'm a partner now. At Halligan & Croft. Corporate litigation." "The firm with the offices in that glass building near Liverpool Street." "The very same." "You always wanted the glass building." "I always wanted a lot of things." Eva turned her glass a quarter rotation. The ice caught the neon light. "Most of them I got." Silas set a cup of tea in front of Aurora — strong, dark, no sugar, the way she took it when she came in soaked and furious — and retreated to the far end of the bar without a word. She wrapped her hands around it. The heat seeped into her fingers. "I looked for you," Eva said. "After you left Cardiff. I called. Texted. I even drove to your parents' house in Pontcanna. Your father told me you'd gone to London and that I shouldn't come back." "He told me the same thing." "About me?" "About Cardiff." Eva absorbed that. She took another sip of her drink, and Aurora watched her throat move, watched the way she held the glass — not by the stem but cupped in her palm, the way she used to hold a mug of instant coffee in the kitchen of their shared flat, back when the heating didn't work and they wore gloves indoors and Eva was studying for the LPC and Rory was studying for nothing because she'd already stopped believing in the law. "Do you ever think about it?" Eva's voice had dropped. Not to a whisper — Eva didn't whisper — but to something lower, more deliberate. "About what happened." "Which part?" "All of it. Evan. The flat. The night you left." Aurora set down the tea. The cup struck the saucer harder than she intended, and the sound rang out in the quiet bar like a small, flat gunshot. "I think about it the way you think about a car crash. You remember the sound. You remember the colour of the dashboard. Then you put it in a box and you don't open the box because nothing good comes out of it." "That's very tidy." "It's very necessary." Eva nodded. She studied her own hand — the manicured nails, the thin gold band on her ring finger that Aurora hadn't noticed until now. "I'm getting married. In June. To a man named Thomas. He's in finance. He runs." "Runs?" "Marathons. Ultramarathons. Last year he did one in the Sahara. A hundred and fifty kilometres in six days." Eva paused. "He's very disciplined." "You don't sound in love. You sound like you're reading his CV." "Maybe that's what love looks like when you're thirty." "It didn't look like that when we were twenty-two." "No." Eva's fingers tightened around her glass. "No, it didn't." The rain intensified outside, hammering against the windows in sheets. The couple in the corner had left without Aurora noticing, and the old man with the paperback was gone too, leaving his stool pushed out at an angle like a small monument to absence. The bar had emptied around them the way bars do — gradually, then all at once. "Do you remember that night in Bute Park?" Eva's voice had changed again. Softer. The elocution was slipping, the vowels loosening, and underneath them Aurora could hear the old Cardiff lilt, the one Eva had spent years and thousands of pounds in elocution lessons to bury. "When we lay in the grass and you said you wanted to live in a lighthouse?" "I said I wanted to live in a lighthouse and write detective novels." "You said you wanted to live in a lighthouse, write detective novels, and never speak to another lawyer as long as you lived." "I'm delivering noodles. I think I kept my promise." "That's not—" Eva stopped. She pressed her lips together, and for a moment her composure buckled, the polished surface denting under the weight of something she'd carried from a long way off. "Rory, I came here to find you. I didn't come in by accident. I've been looking for you for two months. I asked around. Someone at the Welsh Society said you were in Soho. I went to four bars before someone mentioned this place." "Why?" "Because I need to say something and I can't say it over the phone and I can't say it in a text and I can't not say it, so I got on a train and I came." Aurora felt something tighten in her chest. Not her heart — lower, deeper, in the place where old grief lived like a tenant who refused to be evicted. She looked at Eva and saw her at nineteen, standing in the kitchen of their flat with flour on her nose and egg in her hair, laughing so hard she couldn't breathe, and behind that she saw Eva at twenty-four, standing in a hospital corridor with mascara running down her face, holding Aurora's coat and saying nothing because there was nothing to say. "The night I left Cardiff." Eva's voice was barely audible now. "I was the one who told Evan where you were." The bar seemed to contract. The walls drew in. The green light thickened. "I told him you were at the station. He said he just wanted to talk. He said—" Eva's hand was shaking. The ice in her glass rattled like teeth. "He said he wouldn't hurt you. And I believed him, Rory. I looked at him and I believed him because he was crying and because I didn't want to believe that someone I knew could do what he did." Aurora didn't move. The tea sat in front of her, steam rising in thin, trembling columns. Her left hand had gone to her wrist — to the crescent scar, the small white moon she'd carried since she was seven — and her thumb traced it the way it always did when the past reached up and grabbed her. "You knew what he was." "I knew what he'd done before. I didn't know—" Eva's voice broke clean in half. She pressed the heel of her hand against her eye. "I didn't know he'd do that. I didn't know he'd find you before the train. I thought he'd just talk to you. I thought—" "You thought wrong." "I know." The words sat between them on the bar like a body neither of them wanted to claim. Silas, at the far end, had stopped polishing. He stood very still with a glass in one hand and a cloth in the other, and though he wasn't looking at them, Aurora knew he was listening to every syllable with the trained attention of a man who had spent decades learning to hear what people meant beneath what they said. "Why now." Aurora's voice was flat. Not angry — she had moved past anger into something colder, something with edges. "Four years. Why now." "Because I'm getting married in June and I can't stand up in a church and make promises to someone when I broke the biggest promise I ever made." Eva's hand found the ring and twisted it. "I can't live with it anymore, Rory. I've tried. I've gone to therapy. I've meditated. I've thrown myself into work until I forgot my own postcode. And every single night, at about two in the morning, I see your face. In the station. After." Aurora closed her eyes. The image was still there — the tiled floor of Cardiff Central, the taste of blood in her mouth, the sound of the 19:07 to London Paddington pulling in while she lay behind a bench with her coat over her head and Evan's footprint on her ribs. She'd caught that train. She'd sat in the quiet carriage with her hood up and her arms wrapped around herself and she hadn't spoken to another human being for six hours, and when she'd gotten off at Paddington she'd walked to a Tesco and bought a bottle of water and a packet of paracetamol and called Eva from a payphone because her phone was broken, and Eva had answered and said oh God, Rory, oh God, and that had been the last time they'd spoken. "The wedding's in Bath," Eva said. "In a cathedral. Thomas arranged it. He likes things to be done properly." She paused. "I'd like you to come." "You're joking." "I'm not." "You just told me you're the reason I spent three weeks in a hospital bed and you're inviting me to your wedding." "I'm telling you I'm sorry and I'm asking you to let me prove it." Aurora opened her eyes. Eva was looking at her with an expression she'd never seen on her friend's face before — not the bright confidence, not the sharp ambition, not the practiced charm, but something raw and unfinished, like a room that had been stripped bare and not yet refurnished. The camel coat suddenly looked less like armour and more like a costume. The expensive hair, the manicured nails, the ring — all of it was scaffolding, and behind it Eva was still the girl who burned toast and sang too loud and made one catastrophic mistake that she'd been running from ever since. Silas appeared at Aurora's elbow. He set down a fresh cup of tea — she hadn't noticed the first one had gone cold — and retreated again without a word. She picked it up. The warmth filled her hands. "I deliver noodles for a living, Eva. I live above a bar in Soho. I'm not the person you remember." "Neither am I." "No. You're worse. You're the person you remember and you're pretending to be someone else on top of it, and that's a lot of weight for one person to carry around a cathedral." Eva's mouth twitched. Not quite a smile. The ghost of one, the memory of the muscles required. "Is that a yes?" Aurora took a sip of tea. It was perfect — strong and dark and exactly right, because Silas never got it wrong, because Silas understood that small acts of precision were the only thing standing between a person and the void. She set it down and looked at Eva and felt the years between them stretch out like a wire, taut and humming, and she thought about lighthouses and detective novels and the particular sound of a train pulling into a station when you're lying on the floor wondering if you'll be able to stand up in time. "It's a maybe. And it's a maybe that costs you a lot more than a gin and tonic." Eva reached across the bar. Her hand stopped short of Aurora's — hovered there, trembling, a question mark made of skin and bone — and then withdrew. She picked up her drink and finished it in one long swallow and set the empty glass down with the careful finality of someone closing a chapter they weren't sure they'd ever reopen.