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Rain polished Wardour Street and turned the green neon raven above the door into a trembling smear. Aurora shouldered into the Nest with two empty delivery bags knocking against her hip, her black hair pasted to her cheeks and the back of her neck. Silas glanced up from a row of whisky glasses. “You’re dripping on my floor.” “It looked thirsty.” “The floor drinks better Scotch than you do.” Rory peeled off her jacket. Water slapped the boards. Three customers occupied the room: a couple bent over one another in the corner, an old man asleep beneath a map of post-war Berlin, and a woman alone at the far end of the bar. Rory noticed the shoes first. Red patent leather, bright as split fruit. Their owner had worn an identical pair through Cardiff in their second year, even after the left heel cracked and began listing towards the pavement. Rory had once repaired it with a wad of chewing gum outside Clwb Ifor Bach. The woman lifted her glass. Her face stopped Rory beside the coat hooks. Carys Vaughan had shaved her head. Not cropped it or clipped it close. Shaved it clean. A pale seam ran from above her right ear towards the crown, crossed by small white marks where stitches had once bitten. The round, laughing face Rory remembered had narrowed. Her old silver nose ring had gone. So had the smudged eyeliner, the purple lipstick, the jumble of cheap necklaces. She wore a charcoal suit cut to the bone and a cream blouse fastened at the throat. Only the shoes remained. Carys lowered the glass without drinking. “Well. Look what London dragged in.” Rory’s wet jacket slid from her fingers. “Caz?” “No, Shirley Bassey. I’ve had a difficult few years.” Silas caught the jacket before it reached the floor. His gaze travelled from Rory to Carys, rested on the scar, then returned to his glasses. “I’ll put the kettle on.” Carys watched his slight limp carry him towards the back counter. “You live here now?” “Upstairs.” “Of course you do.” “What does that mean?” “Nothing.” Carys turned her whisky between her palms. “You always wanted to live above a pub.” “I wanted to live above a bakery. You wanted the pub.” “I wanted to own one. Different class of liver damage.” Rory moved closer. The old instinct to hug her rose and found nowhere to land. Carys had once treated every greeting as a tackle, all elbows and perfume, but now she held herself within the borders of her bar stool. “What happened to your hair?” Carys touched two fingers to the seam. “They cut a hole in my skull. The hair got in the way.” The sleeping man snorted, stirred, then settled deeper into his coat. Behind the bar, the kettle clicked into life. Rory pulled out the next stool. “Why?” “Tumour.” The word struck without ceremony. Rory sat because her knees had loosened. “What kind?” “The kind they take out.” “Carys.” “Benign. Mostly. It had ambitions.” “When?” “Three years ago.” Rory stared at the pale ladder along her scalp. Three years fitted between them with room to spare. “You didn’t tell me.” “I misplaced your number.” “You had the same number for eleven years.” “Yes. Remarkable how phones work.” Rory wiped rain from her mouth with the back of her hand. “You could’ve called.” Carys looked towards the shelves. Bottles shone under low amber bulbs, each holding its own trapped weather. “I did.” Silas set a mug of tea in front of Rory. His silver signet ring gave a soft tap against the handle. “Kitchen’s still open if either of you needs food.” “It isn’t,” Rory muttered. “It could be.” Carys raised her glass towards him. “I’m fine, thank you.” Silas studied Rory for half a breath, then took the empty delivery bags through the door beside the till. Rory wrapped both hands around the mug. “When did you call?” “After the scan. Before the operation. Once afterwards, though I couldn’t make much sense by then. They had me on a pharmacy’s worth of pills.” “You didn’t leave messages.” “One.” “I never got it.” “You did.” The rain ticked against the front windows. A bus passed outside, filling the glass with red light before leaving the room dimmer than before. Rory stared into her tea. A skin had formed across the top. “What did you say?” “Not much. Your voicemail only gave me a minute.” “Caz.” “I told you they’d found something. I asked you to come home.” Rory remembered a Cardiff number flashing on her phone while Evan stood in the kitchen doorway. She had watched it ring out on the duvet. Later, he had taken the phone to order dinner. By morning, the call log had vanished. Another memory followed: Evan’s thumb moving over her screen while he claimed to check the weather; the telephone striking the wall after she asked for it back; the neat blue bruise under her sleeve at lectures. Carys had seen that bruise. Rory lifted the mug. Her crescent scar showed white on her left wrist beside newer, fainter marks. “I didn’t hear it.” “You deleted it without listening?” “No.” “Then he did.” Carys’s mouth tightened around the last word. She had always called Evan by name before, sometimes with a theatrical groan, sometimes through clenched teeth. Now she gave him only a pronoun, a scrap too small to preserve. “I think so.” “You think so.” “He checked my phone.” “I know.” Rory’s fingers locked around the mug. “What do you mean, you know?” “I saw him.” “When?” “Your birthday. The last one you spent in Cardiff. You left your phone on the table when you went to the loo. He read your messages, deleted two and put it back.” “And you said nothing.” “I made a joke about it.” “You made a joke.” “I was twenty-two and drunk.” “You were always drunk.” Carys flinched. It barely moved her face, but Rory saw it in the hand around the whisky glass. “Yes.” The answer arrived clean, without defence. Rory took a breath that hurt near the ribs, where old pain had stored its address. “You knew what he was doing.” “I knew pieces.” Carys pushed the whisky away. “I saw him hold your wrist too hard. I saw you stop wearing sleeveless tops. I saw you ask permission with your eyes before you ordered another drink. I knew pieces, and I arranged them into a picture I could stand to look at.” “You told me he was protective.” “I told myself that first.” “You said I brought out the worst in him.” Carys’s gaze dropped. “Yes.” The couple in the corner rose, gathering scarves and shopping bags. Their laughter died when they reached the bar. Silas appeared from the back and took their payment. He kept his body angled away from Rory, granting privacy without pretending not to listen. The door opened. Rain smell swept through the room. The couple left beneath one umbrella, shoulder pressed to shoulder. Carys rubbed the side of her head. “They warned me I might lose words after the operation. Names. Colours. Ordinary things. I’d look at a spoon and know what it did, know where it went in the drawer, but the word wouldn’t come. For six months, I called everything ‘that little bastard’.” Despite herself, Rory let out a short laugh. “That wasn’t the tumour. You’ve always done that.” Carys’s smile appeared, thin and startled, then folded away. “I remembered you. Every day. Couldn’t name a kettle, but I remembered the green coat you wore until the lining came apart. I remembered you crying over that constitutional law exam when you got seventy-eight. I remembered the chewing gum in my shoe.” “You walked on that for two weeks.” “It held.” “It collected gravel. You sounded like a maraca.” Carys looked down at the red shoes. “I bought these after rehab.” Rory glanced at the untouched whisky. “That’s not whisky?” “Cold tea. Your barman has a sense of theatre.” Across the room, Silas polished the same glass for a third time. Rory leaned back. Carys in hospital. Carys unable to name a spoon. Carys in a room with plastic chairs, counting days without alcohol. All of it had happened beyond Rory’s sight while years collected in silent rows. “You went to rehab?” “After the surgery. Apparently vodka doesn’t improve post-operative seizures.” “You had seizures?” “Two. One in Tesco. Knocked over a pyramid of tinned peaches. Made the local paper.” “Why are you in London?” “A hearing at the Royal Courts.” “You’re still practising?” “Again. Part-time.” Carys ran a thumb along the crease of her trousers. “Employment law now. Fewer men in wigs explaining my own argument back to me.” “You hated employment law.” “I hated work.” “You wanted to defend murderers.” “I wanted to wear dramatic coats and terrify policemen. Murderers came with the package.” Rory tasted the tea. It had gone bitter from steeping too long. “And now?” “Now I help cleaners recover stolen wages.” “That sounds like you.” “It didn’t, once.” The remark settled between them. Rory looked towards an old photograph near the till: Prague in winter, rooftops pressed beneath snow. Silas had never explained who took it. He kept the past framed but unnamed. Carys turned her empty glass by its base. “Eva told me you left him.” Rory’s eyes snapped back. “You spoke to Eva?” “Last Christmas. I found her through a professional networking site, which felt like stalking in a sensible blouse.” “She never told me.” “I asked her not to.” “Why?” “Because you’d made it clear.” “I hadn’t made anything clear. I disappeared.” “Yes.” “That’s not the same thing.” “It felt the same from Cardiff.” Rory pushed the mug away. Tea sloshed over the rim and spread into a brown ring. “I left with one holdall. I slept on Eva’s floor for four months. Every unknown number made me sick. I changed my phone, my email, my routes to work. I wasn’t choosing who deserved a Christmas card.” “I know that now.” “You could’ve found me.” “I could have.” “You found Eva.” “Five years later.” “And once you did?” Carys lifted her chin. The scar caught the bar light, a pale river across bare skin. “I was ashamed.” Rory gave a dry laugh. “You? What did you have to be ashamed of?” “I left you there.” “You didn’t make me stay.” “No. I only helped make staying look normal.” The words stripped the room of its soft edges. Even the maps seemed severe: borders, coastlines, roads leading out. Carys picked at a nick in the bar. “The night of your birthday, after you went home with him, I followed you as far as Salisbury Road. I watched him drag you by the arm.” Rory’s breath stopped. “You followed us?” “I crossed the street. I had my phone out. I thought I’d call the police.” Carys pressed her thumbnail harder into the wood. “Then you kissed him. Right there under the cashpoint. You kissed him, and I decided I’d misunderstood.” “He made me apologise.” “I know.” “No, you don’t.” Rory’s voice cut across the bar. The sleeping man woke, blinked at them, then reached for his untouched pint. “You don’t know what happened when the front door shut.” “No.” Carys met her eyes. “I don’t.” Silas placed a folded cloth beside the spilled tea and withdrew. Rory wiped the ring in hard circles until the wood squeaked. Carys caught one edge of the cloth. “You’ll take the varnish off.” “Let go.” Carys released it. Rory stared at her hand. It looked older than she remembered, the knuckles ridged, the nails short and unpainted. In university, Carys had drawn tiny eyes on each thumbnail during lectures. Rory used to catch them watching from the margins of her notes. “You should have called the police,” Rory murmured. “Yes.” “I would’ve lied to them.” “I know.” “I would’ve hated you.” “I know that too.” “You might not have changed anything.” Carys swallowed. “I’ve lived on that word. Might. It’s roomy. You can hide whole years inside it.” Rory folded the damp cloth into quarters. “What happened to you, Caz?” Carys touched the scar again, then seemed to realise she had done it and lowered her hand. “A surgeon removed a lump the size of a plum. I stopped drinking. Mam died. I got divorced.” “You got married?” “For fourteen months.” “To whom?” “Bethan Price.” “Purple Bethan?” “She stopped dyeing it purple.” “Christ. Everyone’s hair.” Carys laughed, and this time the sound filled her face. For a moment Rory saw the woman from Cardiff: red shoes on a sticky floor, shouting the wrong lyrics, pulling strangers into photographs. Then the laugh snagged. Carys pressed her lips together. “She looked after me through the operation. I repaid her by becoming unbearable.” “You were unbearable before.” “Not with paperwork.” Rory smoothed the folded cloth beneath her palm. “Why didn’t it last?” “Once I got well, she discovered she didn’t like me healthy. I discovered I didn’t know who I was unless somebody needed to carry me home.” Carys glanced at Rory’s delivery jacket hanging by the door. “You?” “No marriage.” “I didn’t ask about marriage.” “I know.” Rory looked at Silas. He stood beneath the shelves with his sleeves rolled to his forearms, examining a bottle label as if it contained coded instructions. “I deliver food. Help here when he needs it.” “And the law?” “In a box under my bed.” “You were good.” “I was miserable.” “You were good at being miserable too.” Rory’s mouth pulled to one side. “Still am.” Carys studied her. Not the quick glance people used when they wanted proof of survival, but a patient inventory: wet hair, delivery uniform, scar, shoulders no longer bent towards an expected blow. “You stand differently.” “So do you.” “I had part of my balance cut out.” “I had mine put back.” Neither smiled. Carys reached into her jacket and placed a business card on the bar. Heavy cream stock. Carys Vaughan, Solicitor. Beneath it, a London number and a Cardiff address. Rory didn’t touch it. “I’m not asking you to forgive me.” “Good.” “I’m not asking for anything.” “That’s rarely true when someone puts down a business card.” “Fine. I’m asking you not to throw it away until I’ve left.” Rory looked at the card. “How long are you in London?” “Train at nine forty.” “That wasn’t my question.” Carys followed Rory’s gaze to the rain-striped window. “Four hours.” “And you came here.” “Eva mentioned the green sign.” “You asked her where I lived.” “I asked where you worked.” “I work at the Golden Empress.” “She gave poor intelligence.” Silas’s eyebrow rose at the shelves. Rory picked up the card. Carys’s name sat in sharp black type, solid and formal, stripped of the girl who had written Caz across lecture notes in purple pen. Rory turned it over. On the back, Carys had drawn a tiny eye. “You still do that.” “My hands remember things my head dropped.” Rory traced the ink without touching it. Then she slid the card into the dry inner pocket of her delivery jacket. Carys watched the pocket close. “I’m starving.” “The kitchen’s shut.” Silas set two menus on the bar. “It appears to have reopened.” Rory looked at him. “You haven’t got a cook.” “I have you.” “I deliver food. I don’t create it.” Carys took a menu. “She once set fire to pasta.” “The tea towel caught.” “The pasta caught after.” Rory pulled the second menu towards herself. “You can have a cheese toastie.” “Do you still burn those?” “Only for people I remember.” Carys rested both forearms on the bar. The untouched cold tea sat between her hands while Rory went round to the kitchen hatch and reached for the bread.