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The green neon above the door of The Raven's Nest had been flickering for three weeks, and Silas had stopped noticing. He noticed the woman in the doorway instead, because she stood there too long, letting the January air in behind her, the way people did when they were reading a room they hadn't planned to enter. "Shut it or come in," Silas said, without looking up from the glass he was drying. She came in. Camel coat, good boots, hair scraped back so tightly it pulled at her temples. She took the stool at the far end where the bar bent toward the wall, under the photograph of the Danube in 1974, and she didn't take the coat off. "Whisky. Whatever's open." He poured it. She paid in cash, which he liked, and she drank half of it in one go, which he didn't. Aurora came down the back stairs at seven with wet hair and a plastic bag of takeaway containers she'd cadged off Yu-Fei, and she was three steps into the room before she stopped moving altogether. "Eva." The woman turned on the stool. For a second nothing happened in her face at all, and then something did — a small collapse, quickly repaired. "Rory." "You're in London." "I'm in London." Eva turned the glass a quarter-circle on the bar. "I'm at the Sanderson till Thursday. I got out of a dinner and I walked and this place had a sign on." "That's the story?" "That's the story." Rory set the bag down on a table she didn't intend to sit at. She looked at Silas, who had developed an urgent interest in the till, and then she crossed the room and took the stool beside Eva's, and the smell of her was wrong. Eva used to smell like the cheap coconut stuff from the chemist on Cowbridge Road. Now she smelled like the inside of a car showroom. "Four years," Rory said. "Three and a half." "Four in March." "You'd know." Eva finished the whisky and set the glass down and nudged it forward an inch, and Silas filled it without being asked, which he did for exactly nobody, and Rory clocked that too. "You didn't answer your phone." "I changed my number." "You didn't answer the emails either." "I read them." Eva said it flatly, like reporting the weather in a place she no longer lived. "All of them. I read the one about your dad. I sat in a taxi on the Westway and read it four times and then I went into a meeting about warehouse leases in Rotterdam." Rory's hand went to her left wrist. Old habit, the little crescent scar, the thumb pressing it. Eva watched her do it and looked away. "You could have written back." "And said what?" "Anything. Sorry. That's shit. Anything, Eva." "I know how to write that email. That's the thing. I write six of them a week. Condolences, congratulations, regret to inform. I've got a template." She laughed, one syllable, no warmth in it. "I couldn't send you a template." "So you sent nothing." "So I sent nothing." Silas moved down the bar and busied himself with a crate of tonic, far enough to be polite, close enough to hear, because that had been his job for thirty years and retirement was a legal status, not a personality. Rory took her coat off. It felt aggressive, doing it, staking a claim on the room. "You told me to come to London." "I did." "You said, get on the train, I'll meet you at Paddington, we'll sort you out. And you did. You met me at Paddington with a Tesco bag with three bananas in it and you let me sleep on that awful sofa in Bethnal Green for five weeks." "The sofa had a spring that went into your hip." "It went into my kidney. I told you it was my kidney and you said I didn't know where my kidneys were." "You didn't," Eva said, and there it was — the ghost of the girl who used to nick her brother's cider and drink it on the sea wall at Penarth. It surfaced and went under again. "You still don't." "Then you got the job in Zurich." "Then I got the job in Zurich." "And that was it." "That wasn't it." Eva's jaw set. "That was a Tuesday. Nobody decides anything on a Tuesday. You just — the days keep coming and you keep not doing the thing, and after enough days the not-doing is the thing you did." Rory turned her glass. Silas had put one in front of her at some point without her noticing, which was the trick of him. "You look expensive," she said. "Thanks." "It wasn't a compliment." "I know. I'll take it anyway." Eva pulled her sleeve down over her watch, an unconscious tug, and Rory saw the gesture and understood the watch was worth more than everything she owned. "You're delivering food." "Who told you that?" "Your mother. I rang her at Christmas." The room narrowed. Rory set the glass down very carefully, the way you set down something you'd otherwise throw. "You rang my mother." "Every year." "You rang my mother every year for four years and you never rang me." "Yes." "Why?" "Because she doesn't know me." Eva said it to the bottles on the back wall. "Jennifer thinks I'm the nice girl from up the road who got on. Twenty minutes, how's the weather, isn't Rory brave, and then I hang up and I've had my hit and nobody's asked me anything real. You'd have asked me something real." "Like what?" "Like whether I'm happy." Rory waited. "Don't," Eva said. "I didn't say anything." "You did that thing with your face. The barrister's daughter thing. You just leave a silence and stand in it until someone else falls over." "Are you happy?" "I'm effective," Eva said. "I'm extremely effective. I have a flat in Zug with underfloor heating and a woman who comes on Thursdays and I have not cooked a meal in two years. I flew to Singapore in October and back the same week and I couldn't have told you what season it was in either place." She drank. "I'm not unhappy. That's the part nobody warns you about. It's not unhappy. It's just quiet. It's very, very quiet." Silas set the crate down with a soft clink and went through to the cellar, and the door swung shut behind him, and the bar was only the two of them and the flicker of green coming through the glass in stutters. "Evan found me," Rory said. Eva's head came up. "Last April. Outside the restaurant. He'd been waiting maybe an hour, in the rain, no coat, and he'd done the thing where he's soft, where he's got the little voice on, and he said he only wanted five minutes." "Rory—" "I gave him five minutes." Rory's thumb pressed the crescent scar again, hard, white. "I stood in the doorway with my bag of noodles going cold and I gave him five minutes and then I said no and I went inside and Silas — " she nodded at the cellar door " — Silas went out and had a word, and I don't know what the word was, and I've never asked. And that was the worst night of my life since Cardiff, and I sat on those stairs at two in the morning and I got my phone out and there was nobody. You were the person I'd have rung. There isn't anyone else for that. There's only ever one person who knew you before, and you get one, and you were mine, and I sat there with the phone in my hand and I couldn't even remember the last four digits." Eva didn't move. Her hand stayed flat on the bar, fingers spread, as though she were holding it down. "I'd have come," she said. "You weren't there." "I'd have got on a plane." "You weren't there, Eva. That's not an accusation, it's just — it's the fact. I've stopped being angry about it. I got angry for about a year and then it went off, like milk, and what's left is this." She gestured at the two feet of bar between them. "This is what's left. You smell like a Mercedes and I don't know your birthday any more." "The fourteenth." "I know it's the fourteenth. I don't know if you still hate it." Rory looked at her properly then, at the pulled-back hair, the beautiful coat she hadn't taken off in half an hour. "You used to make us do something stupid every year. You made me get on the Ferris wheel and I cried." "You screamed." "I screamed and then I cried." "You threw up in the car park." Eva's mouth did something complicated. "I've had a work dinner for the last three." "On your birthday." "They don't know it's my birthday." She reached up finally and pulled the elastic out of her hair, and it fell down in a way that took ten years off her and put something else on instead. "God. That's better." "It looked painful." "It's meant to. It reads as competent." Eva pushed the empty glass away. "I've got a car at half eleven. Rotterdam again, at seven." "Right." "That's not an excuse. I'm telling you because you'll find out I had a car and you'll think I lied about wanting to stay." Rory nodded slowly. Outside, the neon caught, held, and went out; caught again. "Sit till half eleven, then," she said.