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The green neon buzzed like a trapped fly, and Aurora had stopped hearing it weeks ago. She was wiping down the far end of the bar because Silas had asked her to, and because it was Tuesday, and Tuesdays in Soho meant three regulars and a man in the corner who read paperbacks and drank halves of bitter for four hours. Then the door opened and let in a slice of wet street noise. "We're open till one," she said without looking up. "Good. I've been walking since Piccadilly." The voice went into her spine before her brain caught up. She set the cloth down. He'd got taller, which was absurd — nobody got taller after twenty-two — but he stood differently, that was it, shoulders back where they used to curve inward like a question. Camel coat, damp at the collar. Hair cropped close. The lanky boy who'd smoked out of her bedroom window in Cardiff and cried at a Welsh rugby match had been replaced by someone who looked like he owned property. "Dylan Reece," she said. "Rory Carter." He didn't smile. He looked at her the way you look at a photograph you'd forgotten you kept. "You're behind a bar." "You're in one." He came the length of the room and stopped, hands on the wood, and neither of them moved to embrace. Six years sat down on the stool between them. "Whisky," he said. "Whatever's decent and not sentimental." She poured him a Springbank because it was there and because he wouldn't know the difference. He turned the glass a quarter-turn before he drank, a new gesture, a learned one. "You look well," she said. "I look expensive. It's not the same thing." He drank. "You look like you haven't slept since 2019." "I deliver noodles four days a week." He laughed — one short bark, genuine, and for a second the old face came up through the new one like a body in water. "You what?" "Golden Empress. Wardour Street. Yu-Fei pays cash and doesn't ask questions." "Rory. You were going to be a barrister." "My father was going to be a barrister. He managed it. One per family seemed fair." "That's a line," Dylan said. "You've said that before. To other people." "Twice tonight." He set the glass down. Behind them the paperback man turned a page, and the radiator clanked, and Aurora found she wanted very badly for someone to order something complicated. "So what brings you," she said. "You didn't wander in off Old Compton Street by accident." "I did, actually." He reached into his coat, produced a folded card, laid it on the bar and slid it towards her with two fingers. Thick stock. Gold lettering. "Conference at the Sofitel. Compliance and regulatory frameworks. I'm speaking on Thursday about the aggregation of risk." "Are you good at it?" "I'm superb at it. It's very like lying, but with footnotes." He tapped the card. "I got out of the hotel because if I'd stayed I'd have drunk with a man called Gerald who tells the same story about Lehman Brothers. And then I saw a green sign and thought, that's a proper bar, the kind that doesn't have a mixologist." He looked up at the walls, the maps, the sepia strangers in their frames. "And then I saw you and thought I'd had a stroke." "You could have kept walking." "I thought about it," he said. The honesty of it landed harder than anything else he'd said. She picked up the cloth again, put it down again. "Eva said you'd gone to Singapore." "Eva said. Right. Eva." He turned the glass. "Hong Kong first. Then Singapore. Now Zurich, which is Singapore with better chocolate and worse people." He paused. "Eva still speaks to you, then." "She's the reason I'm in London." "She's the reason you didn't call." "Dylan." "No, that's fine. That's — I'm not litigating it." He drank the rest and pushed the glass forward an inch, and she filled it without being asked, and that at least was the same as it had ever been. "I rang your mother once. Two years ago. Jennifer. She was very kind and very Welsh about it and told me nothing at all for eleven minutes." "She's good at that." "She said you were 'finding your feet.'" He looked around the room. "Is this the feet?" "Careful." "I'm not being cruel. I'm being — " He stopped. Rubbed his thumb along the edge of the bar. "I don't know what I'm being. I had a whole speech. I've had it since about 2020. It was much better than this." "Say it anyway." "It doesn't work in the room. That's the thing about speeches." He looked at her properly then, and the expensive face fell off him entirely. "You just stopped, Rory. That's the whole speech, actually, that's the sum of it. One February you were in my kitchen eating my cereal and telling me Evan was fine, he was fine, he'd had a bad week, and then you were gone and my texts were going into a hole in the ground. And I thought, right, she'll surface. And then I got a job offer and thought, well, she'll surface and I'll be in Hong Kong and she'll laugh about that. And then it was three years and I'd stopped checking." "You didn't stop checking." "No," he said. "I didn't stop checking." Aurora put both hands flat on the wood. There was a burn mark near her left thumb from a cigarette some year before she'd worked there. "I couldn't call anyone from that flat," she said. "He read my phone in bed. He'd hold it up in the dark and read it out loud in this voice, this cheerful voice, like he was doing a bit. And afterwards there'd be a discussion about it and the discussion would last until four in the morning." She kept her eyes on the burn mark. "So I stopped writing anything down. Anywhere. To anyone. And by the time I could, it had been long enough that calling you would have meant explaining, and I couldn't — " She stopped. "There wasn't a version where I rang you and it was small." Dylan didn't say anything for a while. The paperback man got up, put coins on his table like a man from another century, and let the wet street back in on his way out. "I'd have come," Dylan said. "I know." "I'd have got in the car." "I know. That's why I didn't ring." "That's — " He pressed the heel of his hand against his eye, briefly, and took it away. "That's a monstrous thing to say to somebody." "Yes." "You let me be a person you were protecting instead of a person who helped." "Yes." "Christ, Rory." "I've had six years to find a nicer way to phrase it," she said. "There isn't one." He laughed again, wetly, and shook his head at the whisky. "I bought a flat in Zurich with a spare room. I don't know anyone in Zurich. My mother's dead, my sister's in Perth. I bought a spare room in a city where nobody I love will ever need to sleep." He looked up. "And I stood in it in March and I thought about you. Which is embarrassing, and I'd deny it in front of witnesses." Behind Aurora, at the back of the room, the bookshelf gave its small dry click — Silas coming out, or going in; she didn't turn to check. She reached under the bar, took a second glass, and poured herself one, which she never did. "To the spare room," she said. "That's grim." "It's the best I've got." She raised it anyway. "I'm sorry, Dylan. That's the whole speech. I've had it since about 2020 and it doesn't work in the room either."