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The green neon above the door had begun to flicker again, stuttering its Morse against the wet pavement of Brewer Street. Silas had meant to fix it in September. It was February now, and the sign buzzed and died and resurrected itself every forty seconds, and each time it did he glanced up from the till as though the light were a patient whose pulse he was checking. The bar held its usual Thursday crowd: two students sharing a bowl of chips by the window, an accountant who drank the same bottle of Rioja every week and read the racing pages, and a woman at the far end of the counter asleep over a gin. Rain pressed itself against the glass. The old maps on the walls curled at their corners, Prague and Lisbon and Istanbul softening like faces in a faded photograph. At nine the door opened and let in the cold, and with the cold came a man in a camel coat that must have cost two months of Silas's rent. The man stood inside the threshold and shook the rain from his collar with an economy of movement Silas recognised before he recognised the face. Men who had lived carefully kept certain habits. You swept the room without appearing to. You noted the exits. You chose a seat with your back to the wall. Then the man looked up, and Silas put down the glass he was drying. "Marcus." "Si." Marcus Halloran smiled, and the smile was the wrongest thing about him. It had been practised, lacquered, worn in. "You haven't fixed your sign." "It flickers when it pleases. Like most things I own." Silas came out from behind the bar, favouring his left leg, and they stood a yard apart in the amber light, each waiting for the other to close the distance first. They settled on a handshake that became, halfway, an embrace, brief and hard. Marcus shrugged off his coat and folded it over a stool at the corner table, the one beneath the map of the Balkans. His hair had gone white. His hands, when he extended them palm-up in a gesture that meant *look at what the years have done*, were the hands of a man who had not worked with them in some time — soft, manicured, a thick gold watch riding one wrist. "You're thinner," Marcus said. "You're not." "Fourteen years of wine lists. What'll you give me?" "Whatever the bottle nearest my hand happens to be." Silas poured two measures of the Laphroaig without asking, carried them over, and sat with the worn scrape of a man whose knee reported the weather. "You found me easily enough." "You were never hard to find, Si. You were only ever hard to reach." Marcus turned the glass once in his fingers. "It's the same bar. The same bar as the photograph you sent, what, ten years ago? Twelve?" "Eleven. You never wrote back." "No." A beat. "I meant to." The neon buzzed outside and the room's shadows twitched. Silas drank. The whisky had the taste of tar and the sea, and for a moment neither of them spoke, and the silence had a shape to it that both men recognised from long practice: the silence that followed a name neither would say first. "Prague," Silas said, because someone had to. "Prague." Marcus's practised smile came back, thinner now. "You walk with a limp." "I walk. That's the version of events I keep." "I didn't know. For two years I didn't know whether you were—" He stopped. His eyes went to the racing pages the accountant had abandoned on the counter. "I looked. There were channels. They told me you'd been debriefed and pensioned and that was all anyone would say. I told myself that meant you were well." "It meant I was quiet." "Yes. I know what it meant. I know it now." Marcus drank, all of it, in one swallow, and set the glass down with a click that made the sleeping woman at the bar stir and settle again. "Pour me another, will you? I've got fourteen years of not saying this and I'd like to get through it before last orders." Silas refilled both glasses. When he sat again he chose the chair that let him stretch his bad leg along the floor, and Marcus watched him do it with the careful blindness of a man cataloguing damage he felt responsible for. "You're in banking," Silas said. "Consulting." The word landed like a coin on a table. "Which is to say I advise banks on which governments will still be standing in five years. I took everything we used to do and I sell it, Si. At five thousand a day. I have a house in Surrey with a gravel drive long enough to need a ride-on mower, and a wife who rides, and a son who thinks I sell insurance because the truth sounds made up when he says it back to me." "And do you sleep?" The question came out flat, the way Silas asked questions when the answer mattered. "I sleep like a baby." Marcus turned the glass again. "Waking every two hours and crying." For the first time something true crossed his face, and underneath the lacquer Silas caught a glimpse of the man he had shared a safe house with in Brno, twenty-six years old and teaching him to cheat at poker, laughing so hard at his own sleight of hand that he gave the trick away every time. "There's a version of tonight I rehearsed," Marcus said, "where I tell you about the house and the boy and we pretend that's the conversation. And there's the version where I ask you why you never contacted me, and you tell me the truth, and I have to sit in it." "You've had the whisky. Ask." "Why did you never—" "Because you got out clean." Silas leaned forward, elbows on the table, the silver ring on his right hand catching the light. "And I made a decision, in a hospital in Vienna with my knee in three pieces and a doctor who didn't speak English, that the best thing I could do for Marcus Halloran was let him believe the whole life was behind him. You had a chance to become this." He gestured at the coat, the watch, the careful smile. "I didn't want to be the voice on the telephone reminding you what the price of the ticket was." "And if I wanted to be reminded?" "You didn't. Nobody does, not really. You want it the way you want a war memorial — somewhere to stand once a year, in good weather." Marcus looked at him for a long moment. "You blame me. For Prague." "No." "Si." "I blamed you for about eighteen months. Then I blamed the handler, then the intel, then myself, and by the time I'd finished the rotation I was running a bar in Soho and the whole thing had the flavour of something that happened to other people. That's what no one tells you, Marcus. Time doesn't heal it. Time just files it further back in the drawer, and you have to reach past everything newer to find it, and one day you stop reaching." The accountant folded his newspaper and left. The students went shortly after, laughing into the rain. Silas watched them go and thought of the young woman who lived above the shop, who had arrived eighteen months ago with one suitcase and a jaw set against the world, and how he recognised the look because he'd worn it. Some people fled towards things. Most people fled away. Marcus had gone quiet. He was staring at the map above them, at the faded borders of a country that no longer existed by that name. "I drive past a turning on the M25 sometimes," he said at last, "that would take me to the airfield where they flew us out. I've never taken it. I slow down. Every time, I slow down, and then my wife asks if I'm lost, and I say no, and I speed up again." He finished the second whisky more slowly than the first. "That's my memorial, Si. A motorway junction I don't take." "You could take it." "I could." He didn't move. "The terrible thing about becoming someone else is that the person you were doesn't die. He just stops being consulted. And he's still in there, twenty-six years old and laughing in Brno, and he doesn't understand why I never call." Silas reached for the bottle and found it low. He divided what remained between them, an uneven pour, giving Marcus the larger share out of some instinct older than arithmetic. Outside, the neon gave a long buzz and went dark entirely. The bar settled into its own lamplight, and neither man got up to fix anything. "I should have written," Marcus said. "You should have." "I can't tell you why I didn't." "You just did. For an hour." The woman at the bar woke, paid in coins, and left, and Silas began to gather glasses without standing, stacking them within reach the way he did at the end of every night. Marcus watched him work — the limp folded into the chair, the grey in the auburn beard, the ring on the right hand that had been there since Brno. "You're still wearing that thing." "It reminds me who I was when I had a choice about it." "And who were you?" Silas set the last glass down. "Someone who believed getting out clean was the same as getting out." He met his friend's eyes across the table, fourteen years folded into the space between them. "Sit a while longer. The rain's not going anywhere, and neither, it turns out, are we." Marcus looked at the door, at the dark where the green light used to be, and then he loosened his tie — the first unguarded thing he had done all evening — and sat back in his chair beneath the map of vanished borders, and stayed.