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The green neon above The Raven’s Nest bled across the wet pavement, turning the rainwater at the kerb the colour of old glass. Rory shook out her umbrella at the door and leaned it against the stand. Her delivery bag had left a red groove across her shoulder. She pulled the strap free, flexed her hand, then noticed the man at the far end of the bar. He had his back to her. His coat hung from the chair beside him, still beaded with rain. A tumbler stood before his right hand, untouched. The hair at his temples had gone silver, and his shoulders had narrowed beneath his shirt. Rory stopped. Silas looked up from polishing a glass. “You know him?” “I used to.” The man turned at the sound of her voice. For a moment, neither of them moved. Rory’s mind supplied a dozen details she hadn’t asked for: a narrow kitchen in Cardiff, a yellow football shirt, the smell of wet wool after school. A boy laughing with a split lip because he’d fallen off his bike and refused to cry. “Rory,” he said. “Tom.” His smile appeared, then faltered. He stood. The gesture seemed to cost him more than it should have. “You’re in London.” “I am.” “I heard you’d gone.” “I did.” “You look—” “Don’t.” He closed his mouth. His gaze settled on her face as if he were checking an old photograph against the person in front of him. Rory had let her hair grow to her shoulders. She had a scar on her left wrist, pale and crescent-shaped, and a new habit of keeping her hands where she could see them. Tom glanced at the scar. “You still have that.” “I still have a wrist.” A breath left him that might have been a laugh. He lowered himself into his chair. Silas set the glass down. “You want your usual?” “Tea, if you’ve got it.” “This is a bar.” “You’ve got tea.” “I’ve got tea,” Silas agreed, and went through the door behind the counter. Rory took the stool two seats from Tom. She left the empty space between them. “Didn’t think I’d see you here,” Tom said. “Neither did I.” “Silas knows you?” “I live upstairs.” Tom looked towards the ceiling. “You live above a bar?” “Don’t make it sound like a tragedy.” “I wasn’t.” “You were.” He rubbed one thumb along the edge of his glass. “You always did hear the sentence before I’d finished it.” “And you always hoped I’d hear a different one.” His hand went still. Silas returned with a mug and set it before Rory. He gave Tom a brief look, not quite a warning, then went back to the other end of the bar. Rory wrapped both hands around the mug. It warmed her palms. She didn’t drink. “What are you doing in Soho?” she asked. “Work.” “What kind?” “Accounts.” “You hated accounts.” “I hated the job I had at twenty.” “You told me spreadsheets were where ambition went to die.” “They can be useful when you stop needing ambition to keep you alive.” The answer landed between them with no easy place to put it. Rory glanced at his coat, then his hands. The nails were trimmed close. There was a pale line around his left ring finger. “You’re married,” she said. “Was.” “I’m sorry.” “Don’t be. We were good at the beginning.” He lifted his glass, then set it down again. “We had a daughter.” Rory’s grip tightened around the mug. “Had?” “She’s alive. She lives with her mum in Bristol. I see her every other weekend.” “Tom.” “I know how that sounded.” “Do you?” He looked towards the rain-smeared window. “Her name’s Alice. She’s ten. She draws on every scrap of paper she can find, including bills. The school calls it a strength.” Rory watched the muscles at his jaw. “You could have told me.” “I could have told you a lot of things.” “Such as?” “That I left Cardiff. That I got married. That my father died.” Her mug touched the bar with a small ceramic click. “When?” “Six years ago.” “I didn’t know.” “I know.” “You could have found me.” “I did.” The bar seemed to draw in around the words. At the far end, a man turned a page in his newspaper. Silas placed a clean glass on a shelf and kept his eyes on his work. Rory looked at Tom. “You found me?” “I sent a letter to your parents’ house.” “Why?” “I wanted to tell you about Dad. I wanted to ask if you’d come to the funeral.” “You had my address?” “Your mum gave it to me.” “And you wrote to Cardiff.” “It was the last address I had.” “That’s not the same as trying.” His mouth tightened. “No. It isn’t.” “What did you write?” “That he’d gone in his sleep. That he’d asked about you in the hospital. That I thought you should know.” Rory’s throat shifted, but she kept her voice level. “And when the letter came back?” “I didn’t know it had.” “You didn’t call my parents?” “I did. Your mum told me you’d gone.” “When?” “A year later.” The mug warmed her fingers, though the rest of her felt cold. “And then?” “I found an email address. I wrote again.” “Which one?” “The one you used at university.” “That account closed years before I left Cardiff.” “I know that now.” “You could have asked Eva.” “I didn’t know where she was.” “You knew where I was until I left.” He looked down. His thumb traced the pale groove on his ring finger. “I thought you wanted no part of us.” “You thought that because I stopped calling after you told me to stay quiet.” “I didn’t tell you to stay quiet.” “You said I should let it go.” “I said I didn’t know what to do.” “You said the whole town would turn against him if I made a scene.” “I was twenty-two.” “So was I.” The words came out sharper than she intended. Rory saw his shoulders draw inward. She knew that old posture too: Tom preparing to bear blame before someone else could hand it to him. Once, it had made her soften. Now it only reminded her of how often she’d done the work of forgiving him before he’d asked. He spoke into the silence. “I’m not here to defend that.” “Then why are you here?” “I came to see a client. I needed a drink.” He glanced at the room around them. “I didn’t know this was your place.” “It isn’t.” “You live here.” “Those aren’t the same thing.” “No.” Rory took a sip of tea. It had gone strong and bitter. She drank anyway. “Are you all right?” he asked. “That’s a large question for a small table.” “I’m asking.” “You don’t get to ask it like we spoke last week.” “No. I suppose I don’t.” His eyes had gone to her hands again. She placed them flat on the bar. “Do you remember when we used to sit on the wall by the river?” she asked. “Near the old bridge.” “You said you’d leave Cardiff before thirty.” “I did.” “You said you’d come back for me.” “I did say that.” “You said lots of things.” “I know.” “You told me we’d go somewhere neither of us knew anybody. Start clean.” “I meant it then.” “That’s what people say when they want the past to be kinder than it was.” Tom flinched. A small movement, gone as soon as it arrived. Silas passed behind Rory carrying a bottle. “Need anything?” “No,” she said. Tom shook his head. Silas set the bottle on a shelf and moved away. Rory watched him limp, the left leg stiff at the knee. He had never asked her to explain herself before she was ready. That was one reason the flat upstairs felt like hers. Tom followed her gaze. “He looks like he’s keeping half the room under watch.” “He is.” “Is he your boss?” “Sometimes.” “And the other times?” “None of your business.” A tired smile tugged at Tom’s mouth. “There she is.” Rory set down her mug. “Don’t turn me into a memory you like better.” “I’m not.” “You are. You’re looking for the girl who sat on that wall and thought wanting something made it likely.” “I don’t think that.” “Then tell me what you see.” He studied her. His eyes were still the same brown, though the skin around them had loosened. “I see someone who’s learned to leave before anyone can ask her to stay.” Rory’s fingers curled beneath the bar. “That’s what you see?” “That’s what I see.” “You don’t know what you’re looking at.” “No,” he said. “I don’t.” There was no defence in it. No quick turn towards his own hurt. Rory had expected one and disliked him for not offering it. “What happened to you?” she asked. “After you left?” “Since the last time I saw you.” He rubbed his palm against his trousers. “I got a job at the council. I met Moira at a Christmas party. We married. We had Alice. I worked late, came home tired, told myself I was doing what a good husband did. Then Moira got tired of being the only person in the house who noticed anything.” “That sounds familiar.” “It should.” The words sat between them, plain and unadorned. “I wasn’t good to her,” he continued. “Not in the way your ex was to you. I know that’s not the same. But I went quiet when she needed me to speak. I let her carry too much. When she left, I told myself she’d given up on us. Took me a while to see what she’d been asking me to do.” Rory’s gaze dropped to the mug. A bead of water had run from its base and left a dark crescent on the wood. “Did you change?” she asked. “I’m trying to.” She looked up. “I go to the school plays,” he said. “I answer when Alice calls. I do the laundry at my place, even when she’s not there. It’s not noble. It’s just late.” “Late can still matter.” He nodded once. “I hope so.” The room’s low murmur filled the pause. Outside, a bus rolled past, washing the window in white light. Tom’s face appeared in the glass beside Rory’s: the boy and the man, neither of them quite separate. “Do you blame me?” he asked. Rory could have said no. It would have cost little and made the conversation smoother. She could have said yes, which would have sounded clean, and clean was rarely true. “I blame the version of you who decided silence was the safest thing to give me,” she said. “I blame myself for waiting for you to become someone else.” He swallowed. “I’m sorry.” “I know.” “That’s all?” “What do you want, Tom? A pardon? A promise we’ll pick up where we left off?” “No.” “Good.” “I wanted you to know I remember what I did.” “You remember it now.” “I remembered it then. I just—” “Don’t explain.” He stopped. His fingers closed around the tumbler, but he didn’t lift it. Rory pushed her tea away. “I have a delivery to finish.” “Of course.” She reached for the strap of her bag. Her wrist turned, exposing the small scar. Tom’s gaze followed it. “That was the garden gate, wasn’t it?” “Back door. I was carrying the football.” “You blamed me.” “You’d kicked it through the kitchen window.” “I said I’d pay for it.” “You had no money.” “I was going to get some.” “You were going to ask your mum.” “I was still going to pay.” Rory almost smiled. “You were a terrible liar.” “So were you.” She stood. The space between their stools seemed wider now, though neither had moved. “Rory.” Tom stood as well, careful with his knees. “Could I call you?” She slid the delivery bag over her shoulder. “You can write.” “Would you read it?” “That depends on what you write.” He nodded, taking the answer without reaching for more. “Fair.” She went towards the door. At the threshold she paused, not because she had changed her mind but because the rain had thickened outside, silvering the pavement beneath the green sign. Behind her, Tom remained by the bar. “Tell Alice to keep drawing on the bills,” Rory said. “The school’s right. It’s a strength.” “I will.” She stepped into the rain. The door swung shut behind her, and the neon broke across the wet street at her feet.