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The door opened against Lucien’s shoe. Rory stopped with one hand on the chain. The other held a chipped mug of tea she had forgotten to drink. Three deadbolts stood open behind her, their metal tongues catching the hall light. Lucien lowered his ivory-handled cane from the threshold. Rain shone on the shoulders of his charcoal coat. His platinum hair still held its careful sweep, though a dark strand had escaped near his temple. “Before you shut that,” he said, “I brought the book you left in my car.” Rory glanced at the book tucked beneath his arm. “That’s a poor reason to come through three locks.” “It was the first reason I could offer without making you close the door.” “Then you should have picked a better one.” Ptolemy wound around Rory’s ankles and pressed his striped head against the cane. Lucien looked down at him. “Your cat has no sense of self-preservation.” “He’s Eva’s cat. He has excellent judgement.” Ptolemy sniffed Lucien’s shoe, then walked away. Rory unclipped the chain. She had intended to take the book and send Lucien back down the stairs. Instead, she stepped aside by a few inches. “Don’t make me regret this.” “I wouldn’t presume.” He entered. His gaze moved across the narrow hall, the stacked books, the scrolls spread over the kitchen table, and the pencilled notes that had colonised every clear surface. The curry house below sent up a warm smell of cumin and frying onions. Eva’s flat always seemed to hold more paper than air. Rory shut the door and fastened all three deadbolts. Lucien held out the book. Their fingers brushed when she took it. The contact lasted less than a second; Rory felt it in her wrist all the same, just above the small crescent scar. “You came all this way to return a book?” she asked. “I came because you stopped answering.” “I stopped answering because I’d already heard what you had to say.” His face remained composed, but one hand tightened around the cane. “You heard what I chose to tell you.” “And you chose to tell me nothing.” “I thought the distinction might matter.” “It mattered when you stood in my kitchen and looked me in the eye while you lied.” A beat passed between them. From somewhere in the flat, a page slipped from a stack and drifted to the floor. Lucien set his cane against the wall. “I did not lie about the danger.” “You told me the threat had passed.” “It had.” “You told me you’d handled it.” “I had.” “You neglected to mention that you’d offered the broker my name in exchange.” His amber eye held hers; the other, black and glossy, seemed to catch no light at all. “I offered him a name he already knew.” “That doesn’t make it yours to trade.” “No.” He drew a breath through his nose. “It doesn’t.” The plain admission knocked the next line from her mouth. Rory crossed to the table and placed the book among Eva’s notes. She kept her back to him while she moved a teacup out of the way. “Did you think I’d thank you for deciding what risks I could take?” “No.” “Did you think I’d forgive you because you did it for my protection?” “No.” “Then what did you think?” “I thought you’d be safer if you hated me.” Rory turned around. “That’s not an answer. It’s a pretty excuse.” “It wasn’t pretty.” “No, it was selfish.” “Yes.” The word landed without defence. Lucien’s shoulders had lost their precise line. He looked tired now, or perhaps Rory had stopped letting herself mistake stillness for ease. She folded her arms. “You could have trusted me with the truth.” “I know.” “You could have given me a choice.” “I know.” “You could have stayed after you kissed me.” His gaze dropped to her mouth, then returned to her eyes. “I know.” Rory’s arms fell to her sides. Heat rose under her collar, unwelcome and familiar. She wanted to be furious without remembering the pressure of his hand at her waist, the pause he’d given her before his mouth touched hers, the way he had looked at her afterwards—as if he’d already begun saying goodbye. “You don’t get to make that sound easy,” she said. “I’m not asking you to make it easy.” “Then why are you here?” Lucien glanced toward the rain-blurred window. A bus passed on Brick Lane, its lights dragging across the glass. “Because I have spent a month rehearsing explanations,” he said. “Every one of them made me sound more reasonable than I was. I came to give you the one that didn’t.” Rory waited. “I was frightened,” he said. “Not of the broker. Of what would happen if you saw me choose you over my work, my judgement, every careful boundary I’d built. I told myself I could keep you safe by keeping you out. Then I watched you walk away, and I understood I’d kept myself safe instead.” Rory searched his face for the neat little turn, the clever phrase meant to steer her where he wanted her. She found none. That didn’t mean she trusted him. It did mean she had no easy answer. “Your boundaries weren’t the problem,” she said. “You made decisions for me, then called it protection.” “I won’t do that again.” “You can’t promise you’ll never get scared.” “No. I can promise I’ll tell you when I am.” The kettle clicked as it cooled. Rory looked down at the mug she still held. The tea had gone dark and cold. “I’m not ready to pretend this is fixed.” “I didn’t come for pretend.” “You can’t take back what you did.” “I know.” She set the mug on the table, careful not to crush the corner of an open scroll. “You say that a lot.” “Because you keep giving me things I can’t dispute.” A laugh escaped her, sharp at the edges. It changed his expression. A trace of warmth crossed his face before he tucked it away. Rory hated how much she’d missed that. She hated that she could still read the small movements around his eyes, that she knew when he hid pain behind a polished voice. She hated the part of herself that wanted to ask whether he had missed her too. “Did you miss me?” The question left before she could make it safer. Lucien’s hand shifted on the cane. “Every day.” “That’s not enough.” “No.” “You can’t just arrive here with a book and a confession and expect me to open the door.” “You did open it.” “I was holding the chain.” His mouth softened. “You were.” Ptolemy hopped onto a chair and pawed at a loose ribbon on the table. Rory caught the ribbon before he pulled a stack of notes onto the floor. Lucien moved to help, then stopped when she looked up. “Don’t,” she said. He held still. “I don’t want you guessing what I’ll allow. Ask.” His gaze stayed on her. “May I help with the papers?” “Not those. You’ll put Eva’s notes in the wrong order.” “May I make tea?” Rory glanced at the cold mug. “That one, yes.” He went to the kitchen. She watched him find the kettle without asking, then pause over the cupboards until she nodded towards the one above the sink. He took down two mugs. “You remember where she keeps everything,” Rory said. “Eva gave me a lecture when I put the sugar beside the tea.” “That sounds like her.” “She also threatened to put me on the stairs if I touched the cat’s food.” “She meant it.” “I gathered.” He filled the kettle. For a few seconds, the small domestic sounds crowded the space between them: water running, ceramic tapping against ceramic, the gas flame catching under the hob. Rory could have made a joke. She could have asked about the broker, the deal, the new danger he hadn’t come to mention. Instead she watched his hands. “You still wear the ring,” he said. Rory looked down. A thin silver band sat on her right hand, its surface scratched from years of use. “It’s not yours.” “I know.” “It belonged to my grandmother.” “I remember.” “Then why mention it?” “Because I noticed it was gone the last time we spoke.” “You notice too much.” “Not enough, it seems.” The kettle began to rumble. Lucien poured the water, then held a mug out to her. Rory took it. Their fingers met again, warmer this time. Neither pulled away at once. “What did you want when you kissed me?” she asked. He didn’t glance aside. “To be with you.” “Only for that minute?” “No.” “But you left.” “I thought leaving would hurt less than staying and asking you to trust a man who’d already betrayed you.” “That choice wasn’t yours to make either.” “No.” Rory set the tea on the table. She stepped closer, not enough to touch him, but near enough to catch the clean scent of rain and cedar on his coat. “I can’t give you trust because you’ve decided to be honest tonight.” “I know.” “I can’t promise I’ll forgive you.” “I know.” “And if you kiss me, I might still be angry afterwards.” “I would expect nothing less.” “That isn’t permission.” His gaze held hers. “Then I’ll wait for you to give it.” For a moment, Rory heard the rumour of the city through the window and the low scrape of Ptolemy’s claws on the chair. Lucien stood with his hands at his sides, leaving the choice with her for once. She reached for his lapel and gripped the rain-dark cloth. “Ask me,” she said. “May I kiss you?” Rory lifted her chin. “Yes.” He bent towards her slowly enough for her to change her mind. She closed the distance herself, caught the warmth of his mouth, and felt his hand hover near her waist before she drew it there. His fingers settled against her side with care, not possession. The kiss held a question neither of them answered. Rory kept hold of his lapel, and when she drew back, she didn’t let go.