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The door opened onto Lucien Moreau, rain shining on the shoulders of his charcoal coat. For one beat, Rory forgot how to breathe. Then every sensible thought came back at once, sharp as pins. “What are you doing here?” His gaze traveled over her face, stopping briefly at her mouth before returning to her eyes. One amber, one black. The same unnerving mismatch she remembered far too well. “Good evening to you, too.” “It was, until just now.” Behind her, the bar’s muffled music thudded through the floorboards. Rory kept one hand on the door and the other curled around the edge of her sleeve, thumb brushing the small crescent scar on her wrist. She’d been halfway through taking off her delivery jacket when the knock came. Her hair was still damp from the ride over, black strands sticking to her cheek. Lucien glanced at the hand on the door. “May I come in?” “No.” He accepted the answer without moving. Rain slid from the brim of his hair and traced a clean line down his temple. His platinum hair was slicked back as always, though the weather had loosened a few strands. The ivory handle of his cane gleamed under the corridor light. Rory ought to have shut the door. It would have been simple. A clean click. Three turns of the deadbolts, one after another, until he became someone else’s problem. Instead she said, “You can say what you came to say from there.” “Very well.” He drew a breath. “I came to apologize.” She almost laughed. It came out as a dry little sound, nothing like amusement. “You could have sent a message.” “I could have.” “You could have sent an email. A carrier pigeon. One of your many mysterious associates.” “I could have done any of those things.” “Yet here you are.” “Yes.” The word sat between them. Lucien never wasted words when a silence could be made to do the work, but she wasn’t going to help him with that now. He looked tired. Not in the ordinary way, not the kind she got after a double shift and a night spent worrying about bills. His posture remained exact, his coat buttoned, his face arranged with practiced composure. But there was a drawn edge around his mouth that hadn’t been there the last time she saw him. The last time he had kissed her like he’d been starving, then told her it meant nothing that could survive daylight. She had believed him. Not because she was stupid. Because she’d wanted to. “Rory,” he said. “Don’t.” His jaw tightened. “You once told me not to come back unless I had something honest to say.” She’d said it in the street outside his office, with her throat raw and her hands shaking from rage. She’d meant it as a goodbye. “And?” she asked. “And I have something honest to say.” “Then get on with it.” “I was afraid.” A gust of rain swept into the corridor behind him. The old building smelled of wet stone, beer from downstairs, and the spicy food drifting up from the takeaway across the road. Rory could hear a laugh from the bar, a glass set down hard. Ordinary sounds. She held to them. “You’ve come all this way to tell me you were afraid?” “To tell you what I did with that fear.” He shifted his grip on the cane. “I decided for you. I decided that keeping you at a distance was kinder than telling you what I wanted and letting you choose the risk yourself.” “And you thought you were being noble.” “I thought I was being safe.” “For me?” “For myself, if I’m honest.” The answer caught her off guard. It was the first thing he’d said that didn’t sound polished in advance. She studied him, searching for the neat lie hidden under the confession. “You kissed me.” “Yes.” “And the next morning you looked me in the eye and said it was a mistake.” “I did.” “Was it?” “No.” Rory felt the word land somewhere low in her chest. She hated that it still mattered. Hated that one syllable from him could unpick the seams she’d spent weeks sewing shut. “Why now?” “Because I’m tired of letting my worst instincts speak for me.” He paused. “And because I don’t want you to think I regretted you.” Her grip tightened on the door. “You don’t get to rewrite it now that you’ve decided you can stand the consequences.” “I know.” “Do you? Because you left me standing there with your hand still on my waist, telling me not to mistake desire for anything else.” His face changed, just slightly. A flinch that he didn’t manage to hide. “I remember.” “Good. I’d hate for you to have misplaced the details.” “I remember every one.” The corridor light hummed overhead. Rory had the ridiculous thought that he looked like he belonged in a different building entirely: some quiet hotel with polished floors and a doorman, not the narrow landing above Silas’s bar, where the plaster peeled in one corner and someone had left an empty milk bottle beside the stairs. Then again, Lucien could make a place look like it had been waiting for him. She hated that, too. “Is that all?” she asked. “No.” He glanced down, then back up. “But I won’t ask you to hear the rest if you don’t want to.” It was almost worse than if he’d pushed. She could have shut the door on arrogance. She knew what to do with it. This careful restraint offered her room to decide, and the room itself felt dangerous. “What else?” “I want to see you again.” “That’s not honest. That’s a request.” “Yes.” His voice softened. “It is.” “You want to see me because you miss me, because you feel guilty, or because you’ve decided I’m finally worth the trouble?” “Because I miss you.” He held her gaze. “And because I want to know you as you are, not as the person I could persuade myself to keep at a distance. The guilt is deserved. It isn’t the reason I’m here.” “You’re very good at sounding sincere.” “I have spent years becoming good at sounding many things.” “And what are you, right now?” “Afraid,” he said. “And trying not to use it as an excuse.” That answer made her look away. She took in her own flat: the narrow hall, the stack of unopened post on the table, the delivery bag slumped by the radiator. Her helmet sat beside it. There was a faint smell of coffee and the orange soap she used when she could find it cheap. Nothing about the place was arranged for company. Nothing about her was arranged for him. “Come in,” she said, before she could change her mind. “But leave the cane where I can see it.” A small crease appeared between his brows. Then he dipped his head. “Of course.” She stepped back. Lucien entered without brushing against her, though the hall was so narrow he must have measured the space. He set his cane against the wall in plain sight and removed his coat. Beneath it, his suit was immaculate. Of course it was. The rain had made no real impression on him, only darkened the fabric at his shoulders. Rory shut the door, then worked the deadbolt. One turn. Two. Three. The familiar clicks steadied her. Lucien watched her hands. “You’ve added another lock.” “I’ve added three.” “Good.” She turned. “Don’t praise me for securing my own front door.” “I wasn’t.” “You were about to.” “I was thinking that you should feel safe here.” “That’s still not yours to manage.” “No.” He looked down at his hands. “It isn’t.” She went to the kitchen nook and took the kettle from the counter. “Tea?” “If you’re making it.” “I wasn’t.” “Then no.” The almost-smile at the edge of his mouth vanished before it fully arrived. Rory filled the kettle anyway. Her hands needed something to do, and she didn’t want him thinking his refusal had changed the offer. “Sugar?” she asked. “No.” “Milk?” “No.” She set his mug on the small table and dropped a teabag into her own. The kettle rumbled. Neither of them spoke until it clicked off. “I should have told you about my father,” Lucien said. Rory poured the water. Steam rose between them. “You should have told me a lot of things.” “Yes.” “What, specifically?” “That my family had begun making inquiries about you. That I believed they might use you to reach me.” She turned with the kettle in her hand. “And you thought telling me that would make me safer?” “No.” He accepted the mug she held out. “I thought if I gave you no reason to trust me, you would stay away from me.” “So you chose to hurt me first.” “Yes.” “Christ, Lucien.” “I know.” She set her mug down. “You don’t get to protect me by making my choices for me. You understand that?” “I do.” “Do you understand it when it’s inconvenient?” His fingers tightened around the handle of the mug. “I am trying to.” “That’s not an answer.” “It is the only honest one I have.” Rory leaned back against the counter. Her heart beat too fast, an old body’s trick, mistaking a difficult conversation for a threat. “I don’t need a fixer. I don’t need someone deciding which risks I can take.” “I know.” “I need someone who tells me the truth and lets me decide what to do with it.” “I know.” “And I’m not going to make it easy for you just because you’ve finally admitted you were wrong.” “I wouldn’t ask you to.” “Good.” He took a sip of tea. Something in his face suggested it was too hot, but he gave no sign. “I don’t expect you to forgive me tonight.” “Tonight?” Rory lifted an eyebrow. “Optimistic.” “I was hoping for the opportunity to earn it over time.” The words were too clean. Too much like a line he might have used on anyone. But his mismatched eyes stayed on her, and there was no practiced charm in them now. Just the difficult act of waiting. “What if I don’t want you around?” “Then I’ll leave.” “And if I do?” “Then I’ll stay as long as you want me to.” She looked at him, at the fine lines rain had left on his collar, at the familiar shape of his mouth. She remembered his hand against her cheek. The warmth of him in the dark. The way he’d drawn away first, as though desire were a door he had to slam before it let anything worse in. “You still don’t get to kiss me because you’re sorry.” “I understand.” “You don’t get to make a grand promise and expect me to melt.” “I would never expect you to melt.” “Good. I’m very hard to melt.” “I’ve noticed.” That nearly did it. A laugh pressed at the back of her throat, dangerous because it felt like the old ease. She swallowed it down. “What are you asking for, then?” she said. “One conversation?” “One conversation. Then, if you permit it, another.” “And if I say no after this one?” “Then I go.” She examined him for a long moment. “You’ll have to tell me when you’re scared.” “Yes.” “You’ll have to stop deciding what I can handle.” “Yes.” “And you’ll have to accept that I might still be angry tomorrow.” “I expect you will be.” “Possibly next week, too.” “I’ll make an effort not to take it personally.” “You’d better.” The warmth of the tea seeped into her palms. She stayed where she was. He stayed where she’d left him, across the little table, cane against the wall, not reaching for her. That mattered. More than she wanted it to. Rory picked up her mug. “You can have your conversation.” His shoulders loosened by the smallest degree. “Thank you.” “Don’t thank me. You haven’t earned anything yet.” “No,” he said. “I haven’t.” She took a sip. The tea was too strong; she’d left the bag in too long. Lucien watched her over the rim of his mug, and the old pull between them stirred, not gone, not forgiven, only awake. Rory set her tea down. “Start with what you want from me. No polished version.” He lowered his cup. For the first time since she’d opened the door, he looked uncertain enough to be entirely human. “I want to be near you,” he said. “And I want to know whether there’s any part of you that still wants me near.” Rory’s stomach tightened. The simple honesty left nowhere to hide. “There is,” she said. “That doesn’t mean I trust you.” “I know.” “It doesn’t mean I’m ready.” “I know.” “And it definitely doesn’t mean you can kiss me.” Lucien’s gaze dropped to her mouth, then returned to her eyes. He made no move. “Then I won’t,” he said. The restraint in it was not a grand gesture. It was not forgiveness, nor a promise that the past had stopped hurting. It was only a choice made in front of her, with the door locked behind him and the way out still clear. For tonight, Rory decided, that was enough to let him stay.