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The door opened, and Lucien Moreau stood on the landing with his ivory-handled cane in one hand and no invitation in the other. Rory kept one hand on the latch. The old crescent scar on her wrist showed beneath her sleeve. “You told me not to come here.” “I told you not to come back with the same excuse.” His mismatched eyes held hers: one amber, one black. His platinum hair lay slicked back from his brow, every strand in place. The neatness of him made her want to tug his collar loose. “I have a different answer,” he said. “That’s a start.” “I’d rather give it to you inside.” “You’d rather many things.” The bass from Silas’ bar rattled through the floorboards. A burst of laughter rose from below, then faded. Lucien didn’t move toward the threshold. Rory stepped back and opened the door wider. “Inside. If you’re going to make a mess of this, I don’t want Silas charging admission.” Lucien crossed the threshold. She shut the door and turned the three deadbolts. His gaze followed each one. “Still keeping the world out?” “Only the people who know where I live.” His mouth tightened. She had meant him to feel that. The flat above the bar held its usual clutter: a delivery bag slumped beside the table, two mugs in the sink, a stack of mail she’d shoved away from the kettle. Lucien’s gaze touched each thing, then returned to her face. “You can put your cane by the chair,” she said. “If you want to stand there holding it like a court exhibit, that’s your choice.” He set it beside the chair but remained on his feet. “You came to apologize,” Rory said. “Go on.” “I came to apologize for paying Silas to watch your door.” The plainness of it scraped harder than a defence would have. “You paid him to watch me.” “Yes.” “After I told you to leave Evan alone.” “Yes.” “And when I found out, you said you’d done what was necessary.” “I did.” Rory folded her arms. “You’ve got a gift for making a bad thing sound worse.” “I know.” “You don’t get to make that into a confession and expect it to count as remorse.” “I don’t expect anything from you.” “Good.” Lucien lowered his gaze to the cane’s ivory handle. His thumb moved over its carved ridges. He looked as composed as ever, but his grip left the knuckles pale. “You asked why I did it,” he said. “I told you I wanted to keep you safe. That was true, but it wasn’t the whole truth.” “What was the rest?” “I wanted to be useful. I wanted to believe that if I knew where you were and who approached you, I could control what happened next.” He lifted his eyes. “You told me no. I treated that as an obstacle instead of an answer.” Rory’s arms loosened. Not much. Enough for her hands to fall against her sides. “That’s the part that hurt,” she said. “Not the money. Not even the lies. You heard me and decided your fear mattered more.” “Yes.” “You don’t get to agree with me like that makes the past tidier.” “I’m not asking you to.” “What are you asking?” Lucien took a breath, then held still. “For you to know I understand what I did. Then I’ll leave when you ask.” She studied his face. The amber eye caught the light from the kitchen; the black one seemed to keep it. She’d once liked the way he watched her, as if every sharp turn of her thoughts drew him closer. Then she’d learned he watched her when she hadn’t asked him to. “You could have sent a letter.” “I could have.” “You could have asked whether I wanted to see you.” “I should have.” “And yet you’re on my landing.” “Yes.” “Still making choices for me?” “No.” He placed both hands on the top of his cane. “I made one for myself. I came here. You can tell me to go.” The bar below them thumped through another song. Rory moved to the kettle, not because she wanted tea but because standing still gave him too much of the room. “You always did know how to make silence feel like a negotiation.” “I learned from the best.” “Flattery won’t help.” “It wasn’t flattery.” She filled the kettle. “Then don’t do it.” “I won’t.” The tap sputtered, then ran clear. Rory set the kettle down. Behind her, Lucien stayed by the chair. He hadn’t taken off his coat. A clean strip of white cuff showed beneath the charcoal sleeve; she remembered his hands against her waist, the night he’d kissed her in the narrow passage outside his office. She remembered the next morning too. His empty chair. The note from Silas, folded into her delivery bag, that showed exactly what Lucien had paid him to report. “You kissed me,” she said. Lucien’s fingers tightened around the cane. “Yes.” “Was that part of keeping me safe?” “No.” “Was it because I’d told you about Evan and you thought I needed someone?” “No.” “You answered quickly.” “I’ve had time to learn the answer.” Rory turned from the kettle. “Then give it to me.” “I wanted you before I knew what had happened in Cardiff. I wanted you when you corrected my translation and told me I’d missed the obvious meaning because I liked the sound of my own voice.” “You had missed it.” “I know. You were right.” “I was right about the translation. I wasn’t right about you.” “You were right that I’d turned wanting you into another excuse to decide what you could handle.” She looked at him, searching for the varnish, the clever turn that would make his admission easier to swallow. He offered none. “That kiss made me feel seen,” she said. “Then I found out you’d been keeping watch. I couldn’t tell whether you’d wanted me or the feeling of being needed.” “I wanted you.” His voice stayed level, but he had stopped rubbing his thumb along the cane. “And I was afraid of what that meant. So I reached for the thing I knew how to use: control.” “Convenient.” “Yes.” “Cruel.” “Yes.” “You could do more than agree.” “I could lie. You’ve had enough of that.” She looked down at her wrist. Her thumb found the small scar, tracing its pale curve. “When I sent your key back, you didn’t come after me.” “You asked me not to.” “You’ve ignored me before.” “I had no right to make you repeat yourself.” The kettle clicked off. Rory poured water into one of the mugs. The other stayed in the sink. She set her cup on the counter without drinking. “Why now?” she asked. “Because I kept telling myself I was sorry you’d found out. I wasn’t honest enough to say I was sorry I’d done it.” He glanced at the floor, then met her eyes again. “I don’t want to use your forgiveness as proof that I’ve changed. I want to stop hiding behind the version of the story that makes me look better.” “That’s what you practised on the way over?” “Yes.” “Did you practise what you’d say if I told you I never wanted to see you again?” “I did.” “And?” “I’d leave.” The answer landed between them with no flourish. Rory lifted her mug, took a sip, and set it down again. “You’re very good at giving me the answer I ask for.” “I’m trying to give you the truth.” “Those aren’t always the same thing.” “No. They aren’t.” His eyes shifted to the space between them. It was barely three steps, but the air seemed crowded with every conversation they’d cut short. “I missed you,” he said. Rory’s fingers closed around the mug. “That isn’t an apology.” “No.” “It doesn’t undo anything.” “No.” “Then why say it?” “Because it’s true, and you asked me to stop dressing things up.” She let out a breath through her nose. The corner of his mouth moved, almost a smile, then fell away when she didn’t meet it. “I missed you too,” she said. “That doesn’t mean I trust you.” “I understand.” “Don’t tell me what I mean.” “I don’t.” Rory crossed the small space between them. Lucien’s gaze stayed on her face, not her hands, as she stopped in front of him. “Can I touch you?” he asked. Her pulse struck once against her throat. She could have turned away. She could have sent him back down the stairs and listened to the bar cover the sound of the door closing. Instead, she lifted her hand and set it against his lapel. “One hand,” she said. “And no cleverness.” His fingers settled at her waist, light enough that she could step out of them. Rory left her palm on his chest. Beneath the fine cloth, his heart beat hard against her hand. “You’re tense,” she said. “I’m standing in your flat while you decide whether to trust me with a single touch.” “That’s not an answer.” “It’s the only one I have.” Her thumb brushed the edge of his lapel. Lucien held her gaze, and for once he didn’t fill the quiet with a promise or an explanation. “What would you do,” she asked, “if I told you I wanted to kiss you and still didn’t forgive you?” His hand stayed at her waist. “I’d kiss you only if you asked me to.”