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The chain snapped taut and the door stopped at three inches, and through the gap she could see one eye — amber, catching the stairwell bulb — and the shoulder of a charcoal suit dark with rain. "Rory." She didn't move. Ptolemy came off the arm of the sofa, trotted across the books stacked on the floor, and pushed his flat face into the gap, tail up like a flag. "Traitor," she said, to the cat. "I've come at an inconvenient time." "You don't know what time it is." "It's eleven forty. You're in bare feet and your hair's wet and you've been crying, or you've been at the sink. I'd guess the sink." He said it without cruelty, the way he said everything — as if the information were simply there, available, and he had never learned to pretend it wasn't. "May I come in, or shall I say what I have to say through three inches of Hackney steel?" She looked at him a moment longer. Then she shut the door, slid the chain, and opened it all the way. He stepped in and took up most of the room. That was the trouble with Eva's flat; it was a corridor that had ambitions. Books stacked hip-high along every wall, scrolls furled in a copper pot, three separate kettles because Eva could never remember which one she'd broken. Lucien turned his hat — no hat. His coat. He turned, and looked for somewhere to put himself, and there was nowhere. "Don't touch the paper on the table," Rory said. "It's drying." He lifted his hands, palms out, and settled for standing with his cane hooked over one forearm. Rain ran off the ivory handle and made a small dark comma on the floorboards. "Say it, then," she said. "Someone's been asking after you. Not me." He watched her face, and whatever he found there made him add, more quietly, "A man named Voss. He has money and bad manners and an interest in the eastern line. He's been working the delivery routes. He knows the restaurant. He knows the bar you live above." "Yu-Fei's had a man in already asking about a girl with black hair and a Welsh accent and no references." "Then you're ahead of me. Good." He almost smiled. "That's tiresome of you." "You could have sent a text." "I could have." He looked at the window, at the rain, at the cat now seated firmly on his shoe. "I've had your number in my hand nine times this week. I don't imagine you'd have answered." "No," she agreed. "I wouldn't have." The kettle clicked off in the corner. Neither of them moved. "You've got a nerve," she said, and heard her own voice go flat and cold, the Cardiff in it coming up like silt. "Eight weeks, Lucien. Eight weeks and you turn up on a Tuesday in the rain with a warning, as if that's a thing people do. As if we're people who —" She stopped. Started again, quieter. "You took money to watch me." "Yes." "Don't." She held up a hand. "Don't do that. Don't say yes like it costs you something." "It costs me a great deal." He said it evenly. "That's why I said it plainly. You'd have hated a defence." "I'd have liked an explanation." "I know." The amber eye and the black one, both steady on her. "And I've written it out four times and burned all four, because every version made it sound reasonable, and it wasn't. So I'll only say the part that's true: I took the contract before I knew your name, and when I knew your name I kept it, because the alternative was that another man took it, and another man would have found you." "So you decided." "I decided." "Without me." "Without you." He shifted the cane. Ptolemy made a complaint and resettled. "You'd been in London four months and you were frightened of a man in Cardiff and you slept with the light on. I know — you told me. And then a stranger took your movements down in a notebook and filed them, and it was me holding the pen, and you didn't get a say in that either. I've thought about it every day since you walked out of my office. Not as a man defending himself. As a man who was wrong." Rory went to the counter and put her hands flat on it, and looked at the grain of it, and breathed. She had walked out of his office in Soho on a Thursday with the file open on his desk. Her name, her shift patterns, a note about the scar on her left wrist — *crescent, old, left wrist* — in his slanting, deliberate hand. She had thought: I could forgive the money. She had thought: I could forgive almost anything except how calm he was. Six days later a box came to Yu-Fei's kitchen with her scarf in it, the one she'd left on his chair, folded, no note, and she had put it in a drawer and not worn it since. "Why the scarf?" she said, still looking at the counter. "Because you'd want it. Because it was yours." A pause. "Because I'm not good at this." "At what?" "Apologising. Being a man who —" He stopped himself, which she had never heard him do. "Forget it." She turned round. He was closer than she expected, or the flat was smaller than she remembered. The rain had got into his hair and slicked a strand of it loose from the rest, and there was a small line between his brows she hadn't seen before, and she hated that she noticed, and she hated more that noticing it undid about a third of her anger and made the rest of it hotter. "You should go," she said. "I know." "The stairwell's got a broken light." "I noticed." "Eva's back Sunday. If you want to talk to me properly, do it somewhere with more than one room." Something changed in his face — the smallest loosening, a door opening a crack. "You'd allow that." "I'd allow that." She picked up the kettle, more for something to do with her hands. "Tea?" "I'd kill for tea." "Eva's got nothing but oolong and one bag of builders' that's been in the cupboard since March." "The oolong, then." He set the cane against the wall and shrugged out of his coat. "Provided it's hot and there's no ceremony about it." She found a cup — a chipped one, she wasn't going to give him the good cup, that was a principle — and poured. When she turned back to hand it to him he was close enough that she could smell the rain in the wool of his coat where it hung on the back of the chair, and something underneath it, cedar and smoke, and her chest went tight with the sheer stupidity of wanting. Their fingers brushed on the cup. Neither of them let go for a moment longer than necessary. His hand was warm; the cup was hot; the flat smelled of wet cat and old books and the curry house three floors down, and somewhere out on Brick Lane a night bus dragged past with a sound like a sigh. "You didn't answer my text," she said. "In July. When I asked whether it had been real at all, any of it, or whether I was a line in a notebook." "I know." "Why not?" He looked at her. In the low light the black eye was almost the same as the amber one — just a darkness with something moving in it. "Because I couldn't send you one word," he said. "And you deserved more than one word. And the more I wrote, the more I understood that nothing I could put in a message would be enough, and so I wrote nothing, which was the worst of the three." He wrapped his hands round the cup. "I'm a fixer, Rory. I solve other people's problems for money. It turns out I'm useless at my own." She laughed — one short breath of it, entirely against her will. "Terrible apology," she said. "Be honest. Second half was good." "First half was better. The first half didn't try to be charming." "Noted." He drank. "It's terrible tea." "It's Eva's tea." "Then I'll blame Eva." He looked round the flat properly for the first time — the tower of books by the window, the scrolls, the desk heaped with Eva's crabbed marginalia. "You're staying here while she's away." "Feeding the cat. Watering the — well." She gestured vaguely at the dead spider plant. "It's a long story." "Your flat's above the bar." "It is." "You could have stayed there." He let that sit. "You came here instead. Where there's a sofa, and a cat, and the door's got three bolts." "Who says I came here to hide?" "Nobody. I'm asking." He set the cup down. "That's all I'm doing tonight, Rory. Asking. I'll take the answer on Sunday, or in a month, or never, and I'll still have come up these stairs and told you about Voss, because you needed to know it and I needed to be the one to say it." He picked his cane off the wall. "But I'd like to ask one thing before I go, and you can throw me down the stairs for it." Her mouth was dry. "Ask." "When you saw the file," he said. "Before the anger. In that first second. What was it?" She could have lied. It was right there, in the roundness of the word *nothing*, and two months of practice behind it. "Hurt," she said instead. "It was hurt." He nodded slowly, as if she'd handed him something heavy and he was taking the weight of it carefully. "Thank you," he said. "That's more than I earned." At the door he put on his coat. She unhooked the chain and slid the top bolt and left the bottom one where it was. He noticed, and had the decency not to say so, and the amber eye found hers in the three inches of gap one last time. "Sunday," he said. "Somewhere with more than one room." "The pub on Hanbury Street. Seven." "I'll be there at six." "Of course you will," she said, and shut the door on him, and stood with her forehead against the wood listening to his cane go down the stairs, tap, tap, tap, under the broken light and out into the rain. Ptolemy wound once round her ankles and sat down on her foot.