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Rain had worked through the shoulders of Rory’s jacket by the time she reached The Raven’s Nest. The green neon above the entrance laid a trembling stripe across the pavement. She ducked beneath it, pushed open the door with her hip, and carried the smell of rain, ginger and hot oil into the bar. Silas stood behind the counter polishing a glass that already shone. His grey-streaked auburn beard hid the movement of his mouth, but not the disapproval around his eyes. “Yu-Fei says the bag comes back empty.” “Yu-Fei has confused me with a bin.” Rory set the insulated delivery bag on a stool. Her damp black hair clung to her jaw. “He gave me enough for three people.” “He’s seen your idea of lunch.” Silas took the bag and limped towards the kitchen hatch, his silver signet ring knocking once against the counter. Beyond him, old maps covered the walls between black-and-white photographs: bombed streets, unnamed dockworkers, a suspension bridge crowded with men in bowler hats. Only four customers remained. Two men argued over a crossword near the door. At the far end of the bar, a woman in a charcoal suit sat with her phone face down and a glass of white wine untouched beside it. Her hair had been cut in a precise line at her jaw. A cream blouse showed at her cuffs. In front of her lay eight narrow strips of beer mat, arranged by length. Rory knew the arrangement before she knew the face. At Cardiff, Carys Bowen had shredded beermats through seminars, protests and one disastrous dinner with Rory’s father. She had done it while defending council housing, while denouncing the price of graduation gowns, while deciding whether to end a relationship by text. If the world intended to fall apart, Carys had insisted, it could do so in descending order. The woman looked up. “Aurora?” The name brought back lecture theatres, her father’s handwriting, official envelopes. Rory’s hand closed around the delivery bag’s strap. “It’s Rory.” Carys rose from the stool. The Cardiff lift had gone from her voice, planed down to something smooth and transferable. “I know. I wasn’t sure which one you’d kept.” She came round the stool. Rory shifted the bag to her other hand. By the time she had set it down, Carys had stopped, one palm resting on the bar. “Your hair,” Carys said. “It grew.” “So did yours. Before, I mean. It used to be longer.” “I cut it years ago.” Carys nodded. “That’s the thing, isn’t it? Everything I’m noticing is old news.” Silas returned with a carton of noodles, rice and a pair of chopsticks. He put them in front of Rory, placed a second glass of water within reach, and gave no sign that he had heard anything. “Sit with me?” Carys asked. “I live here.” Carys glanced at the ceiling. “In the bar?” “Upstairs.” “Oh.” She absorbed this with a small press of her lips. “That wasn’t an answer.” Rory took the stool beside her. The carton warmed her palms through the thin cardboard. Up close, Carys’s suit had a faint sheen, and a tiny gold pin fastened her collar. At nineteen she had owned two boiler suits, one of them paint-spattered, and had cut her own fringe with kitchen scissors whenever an argument required a change of appearance. “You’re working?” Rory asked. “Not any more. Client drinks off Wardour Street. The others went somewhere with a DJ.” Carys turned her wine glass by the stem. “I told them I had a train.” “Do you?” “Not until eleven.” Rory opened the carton. “What sort of clients?” “Property, mostly. Development. Refinancing. The occasional dispute about who owns a strip of land neither party can stand on.” “You wanted to save people from property.” “I wanted to do housing law.” “You wanted to set property on fire.” “That was one afternoon. I’d read a very good pamphlet.” Rory looked at the gold pin. “And now?” “Now I have a pension.” Carys’s mouth tightened. “And an ergonomic chair. You’d hate the chair. It supports every decision I make.” Rory ate a mouthful of noodles. Yu-Fei had packed in extra chilli. Heat gathered behind her eyes, useful and deniable. Carys rolled the longest strip of beer mat between her fingers. “Eva told me you were in London.” Rory set down the chopsticks. “She wouldn’t tell me where,” Carys continued. “She said you were safe. I asked her to repeat it, because safe can mean all sorts of things when someone’s trying not to give you an address.” “I told her not to.” “I know.” Carys’s thumb bent the cardboard. “That was the bit I couldn’t forgive.” The two men by the door erupted over the crossword. One accused the other of putting French words wherever he ran out of English. Silas moved a bowl of peanuts away from their elbows. Rory’s thumb found the small crescent scar on her left wrist. She pressed it once, then covered it with her sleeve. Carys watched the movement. “You used to interrupt people.” “You make it sound like a public service.” “You used to walk into rooms as if someone had briefed you on them. Even when you were terrified. Especially then.” “That took energy.” “I liked it.” Rory picked up her water. “So did I.” Carys’s hand stopped. For the first time, the polish slipped; she looked younger without looking young. “I came to your flat once,” she said. “In Cathays. You’d missed two weeks of seminars. Evan answered the door and told me you were asleep.” “I wasn’t.” The wine glass gave a small click as Carys released it. “I heard you in the hall,” Rory said. “You called him a coward.” “I’d had two drinks.” “You called him a coward with excellent diction.” Carys gave a breath that might have become a laugh if either of them had allowed it. “He sent me a message from your phone afterwards. It said I was manufacturing a crisis because I couldn’t stand you being happy.” Rory remembered the phone on the kitchen worktop, Evan’s thumb moving across the screen. She had watched from the doorway and thought, with a clarity that had frightened her more than the message itself, that Carys would believe it because it sounded almost like her. “I was angry with you,” Carys said. “It was such a clean feeling. I kept it for ages.” “You couldn’t have known.” “I could have known I didn’t know.” Carys looked down at the ruined beer mat. “Instead I decided you’d chosen him. Then, after you left, I decided you’d chosen a life without me. It took an embarrassingly long time to understand those weren’t the only options.” Rory pushed rice around the carton with one chopstick. “There wasn’t a life. There was Eva’s spare room and a suitcase I didn’t unpack for five weeks. I kept my shoes on indoors.” Carys waited. “I saw your photograph,” Rory said. “Your first day at the firm. You had a desk with your name on it and a plant.” “A succulent.” “You looked finished.” “Finished?” “As if you’d become the person we were waiting for. I was going through Eva’s kitchen cupboards looking for a mug that didn’t make me think of him.” Rory’s mouth twisted. “He didn’t own mugs. I knew that. Didn’t help.” “The plant died.” Rory glanced at her. “Within a month,” Carys said. “I overwatered it. Apparently that’s possible. I kept the corpse on my desk because throwing it away felt like admitting something.” “What?” “That I’d bought a plant to prove I could sustain a life beyond answering emails.” This time Rory laughed. It caught her by surprise, a short sound with no elegance in it. Carys smiled at the bar rather than at her. “What happened to the housing clinic?” Rory asked. “I still do two Fridays a month.” “You could have led with that.” “You’d have liked me too soon.” “I might not have.” “You always did.” Carys separated two strips of cardboard that had stuck together. “Even when I was unbearable.” “You were occasionally unbearable.” “I once staged a sit-in at your birthday dinner.” “You objected to the set menu.” “It was an exclusionary pricing structure.” “It was twenty-two pounds for three courses.” “And bread wasn’t included.” Rory nudged the rice towards her. Carys took the chopsticks Silas had left beside the water glass and held them as if preparing to tune an instrument. “My firm acted against a tenants’ association last month,” she said. “An injunction. My photograph went in the staff bulletin because I’d done some part of it efficiently. There were pastries at the announcement.” Rory said nothing. “At nineteen, I’d have hated me for that.” “At nineteen, you hated everyone.” “It wasn’t the rigorous moral system I thought it was.” Carys managed to trap a single grain of rice between the chopsticks. “Still. She’d have had a point.” “She’d also have wanted to know your salary.” Carys named a figure. Rory whistled. “Exactly. The revolution would have paused for a payslip.” Carys’s smile disappeared as she examined the strips before her. “I thought I had more time to become someone before anyone checked.” “Who checked?” “My parents. The firm. People from Cardiff.” She lifted her eyes. “Me.” Rory’s father still asked whether she had gone back to university. Brendan Carter framed the question as if London were an extended lapse in concentration, something a sensible daughter would eventually correct. Her mother sent recipes Rory had no kitchen space to attempt. Neither of them mentioned Evan. Their silence on that subject had acquired the patience of furniture. “My father thinks I’m taking a year out,” Rory said. “It’s been longer than that.” “He can count. He doesn’t like the answer.” Carys nodded. She had met Brendan once. He had spent lunch asking her questions and correcting the legal premises in her answers. Afterwards, Carys had called him a cross-examination in a V-neck. “I’m sorry,” she said now. Rory looked at the photographs behind the bar. The dockworkers stood with their hands in their pockets, unconcerned by the decades accumulating behind the glass. “I know,” she said. It wasn’t forgiveness. Carys seemed to understand that, because she didn’t reach for Rory’s hand or offer another version of the sentence. Silas came to collect an empty glass. His signet ring flashed beneath the bar light. He glanced at the rice, then at Carys’s struggle with the chopsticks. “Fork?” he asked. “No, thank you.” He moved on without comment, his limp more pronounced as he reached the end of the counter. Carys checked her watch. It was a plain thing with a brown leather strap, at odds with the rest of her. “My train’s at eleven,” she said. “There’s a later one.” “There is.” Rory waited. She could hear Yu-Fei telling her not to interrogate customers, Silas telling her that a door worked best when you left people room to open it. Carys put her watch face down against the bar. “Are you being polite?” “Not before midnight.” Carys took off her jacket. Beneath it, the cream blouse had creased across the back. She folded the jacket over her stool, sat again, and pulled the rice towards her. “Not the prawns,” she said. “You don’t like prawns?” “I love them. That’s why you used to eat all of mine.” Rory opened the second carton. Yu-Fei had buried three fat prawns beneath the noodles. She hooked one out with her chopsticks and placed it on the clean lid between them. Carys looked at it, then returned to arranging her strips of beer mat. This time she made no attempt to put them in order.