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The green neon above the door buzzed like a dying wasp, and Rory thought, not for the first time, that Silas ought to fix it. She pushed through into the warmth of The Raven's Nest, shaking November off her coat, her delivery bag slung empty over one shoulder. Tuesday nights at the Nest had a particular quiet to them, a hush where the regulars nursed their drinks slowly and the old maps on the walls seemed to sag under the accumulated weight of cigarette smoke from decades when you could still smoke indoors. She was halfway to the bar, already angling for the stool Silas kept clear for her, when a voice she had not heard in six years said her name. "Aurora?" It was the full name that stopped her. Nobody in London used it. To Silas she was Rory. To Yu-Fei she was *xiǎo mèi*. Even her mother, on the phone, tended to soften it into something two-syllabled and affectionate. Aurora belonged to a different country and a different girl. She turned. The woman at the corner table was holding a glass of red wine and looking at her with an expression Rory couldn't immediately place — something between delight and apology. She was blonde now, a warm honey color that caught the low lamplight, and she wore a camel coat over a silk blouse the color of bone. Rory had to run her through several filters before the name arrived. "Tessa." "Oh my God." Tessa set down the wine and stood, and there was a half-second of suspended uncertainty — embrace, handshake, nothing — before Tessa stepped around the table and hugged her. She smelled expensive, something with bergamot and cedar. In university she had smelled of the same apple shampoo as everyone else in their halls. "Sit, sit." Tessa gestured at the opposite chair. "Christ, Rory. How long has it been?" "Since the wedding." Rory sat, setting the empty delivery bag at her feet. She was conscious, suddenly, of her trainers, of the grease stain on her cuff, of the fact that she had been sweating ten minutes ago climbing the stairs of a walk-up in Fitzrovia with three bags of chow mein. "So — six years, about." "Six years." Tessa laughed, a short bright sound. "God. You look exactly the same." "You don't." It came out too quickly, and Tessa flinched, just barely, before recovering with a smile. "The hair. I know. It was Marcus's idea, originally. I kept thinking I'd grow it out, and then I just — didn't." Marcus. Rory had seen him exactly once, at the wedding, a tall merchant banker with a laugh that filled a marquee. He had shaken her hand and asked if she was the lawyer one or the writer one, and Tessa had laughed and said neither, and Rory had smiled and said nothing. "Are you meeting someone?" Rory asked. "A client. He cancelled. I thought I'd have a drink anyway before heading back to Guildford." Tessa turned the wine glass by its stem. "I didn't know this place existed. Came in because of the sign." "It's a good sign." "It's a terrible sign." They smiled at each other. For a moment it was almost easy. Then Tessa said, "I heard about Evan." The name landed in the room the way a dropped plate lands. Rory did not look toward the bar, where Silas had appeared in her peripheral vision and was now, very deliberately, polishing a glass that did not need polishing. "What did you hear?" "That you left. That it was — bad." "It was bad." "I should have rung." "You were in Singapore." "I was in Singapore for six months, Rory. I've been back for two years." Tessa's voice had gone quiet. "I told myself you'd reach out if you wanted to. Which is — I know. I know what that is." Rory looked down at her hands. The small crescent scar on her left wrist caught the light, the one Tessa had been there for, age nine, a broken milk bottle in the Ellis kitchen and Jennifer's hands steady with the antiseptic while Tessa had cried harder than Rory had. *You'll have it forever,* Tessa had said, awed, as though the scar were a kind of jewelry. "I didn't want anyone to see me then," Rory said. "So. It works both ways." "Does it?" "No. Not really." Tessa let out a breath. "I used to think we'd be the ones who kept in touch. Do you remember that? After Cardiff. We said it wouldn't happen to us." "Everybody says that." "I know. That's the awful bit. I used to think we were the exception." Rory thought about the small economies of silence that had accumulated between them — unread messages, birthdays acknowledged then forgotten, a dinner twice postponed and then let quietly die. She thought about how, in the weeks after she'd left Cardiff, she had wanted to call Tessa and had instead called Eva, because Eva had always been the loud one, the one whose opinions had edges, and Tessa's sympathy would have required Rory to account for herself. She had not been able to account for herself. She had barely been able to hold a fork. "You look well, though," Tessa said. "You do. You have colour in your face." "I deliver food on a bike." "Are you— is that—" Tessa hesitated, and Rory watched the struggle, the careful diplomacy. "Is that what you're doing now?" "Part-time. I live upstairs." She nodded toward the back of the bar, toward the narrow door beside the bookshelf that she knew better than Tessa ever would. "The owner's a friend." "Pre-Law Aurora Carter, top of our cohort, lives above a bar in Soho." Tessa shook her head, smiling, but the smile didn't reach her eyes. "I don't know whether to be jealous or horrified." "Both is fine." "I married a man who talks about wine the way other men talk about football," Tessa said. "We bought a house with a garden. I haven't read a novel in eighteen months. When I try to remember what I wanted, when I was twenty — I can picture the *feeling* of it. I can't picture the thing." Rory was quiet. At the bar, Silas moved a bottle from one shelf to another with the delicacy of a man pretending not to listen. "I'm sorry," Rory said, finally. "I'm sorry I didn't ring." "I'm sorry I didn't either." Neither of them moved to leave. Tessa picked up her wine. Rory signaled Silas, two fingers raised, and he tilted his head in acknowledgment and reached for the good whisky, the one he kept for her on nights she came home looking like a girl who had lost something and couldn't name it. Outside, the green neon kept on buzzing, faithful as an insect.