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The rain hadn't let up since four o'clock. Rory came through the door of The Raven's Nest shaking water from her jacket sleeves, the delivery bag still slung across her chest, and the warmth of the bar hit her like a hand pressed flat against her sternum. Monday nights were quiet. Silas had music on — something low and jazzy bleeding from the speakers he'd wired behind the bar himself, though the right one had been crackling for weeks. The green neon sign outside threw its color through the window glass and pooled on the floor in a sickly emerald wash that she'd long stopped noticing. She set the delivery bag on its hook behind the bar, nodded at Silas — who raised a glass in acknowledgment without breaking his conversation with a regular — and made for the stairs. A shower. Tea. Maybe toast if she could be bothered. The evening had the texture of something already over. Then she saw him. He was sitting alone at the corner table beneath the old map of Cardiff Bay, the one with the foxed edges and the tide notations in pencil. He had a pint half-finished in front of him and was reading a paperback with the kind of focused absorption that meant he wasn't really reading at all. His hair was longer than she remembered — shaggy, curling behind his ears, gone prematurely grey at the temples in a way that made him look older than twenty-six. He'd lost weight. Not the healthy kind. The kind that hollows the cheeks and makes the wrists look like they belong to someone else. He wore a navy peacoat over a wrinkled dress shirt, no tie, the collar loosened, and there was a smudge of something on his left cuff — ink, maybe, or grease — that he either hadn't noticed or didn't care about. Tomás Herrera. Tomas. Who used to eat kebabs at two in the morning on the steps of the law library and argue about tort reform with his mouth full. Who used to walk her home after late seminars and never once tried anything, which she'd found both reassuring and, in a small guilty way she never examined too closely, faintly disappointing. Who had sent her three texts after she left Cardiff — the last one reading simply: *Rory, just tell me you're safe* — and to whom she had never replied. She could still take the stairs. He hadn't seen her. His eyes were fixed on that page he wasn't reading, and the bar was dark enough, the corner table far enough from the door, that she could slip away and spend the rest of the evening pretending she'd imagined it. She didn't. She pulled out the chair across from him and sat down. Tomas looked up. His eyes — brown, warm, the same eyes — went wide, then narrow, then something complicated that passed across his face like weather. He closed the paperback with his thumb holding the page. "Rory." "That's me." A silence followed that had weight and texture, like a third person sitting between them. Tomas set the book down. He opened his mouth, closed it. Tried again. "How long have you been in London?" "Three years." She pulled the delivery bag off her shoulder and set it on the floor beside her chair. "Almost three. Since January, anyway." "January." He repeated the word as though it were a clue he was trying to fit into a larger puzzle. "I've been here since August. Clerking at a firm in Holborn. I didn't know you were — I mean, I looked. After. I asked Eva, but she wouldn't tell me anything." "She wouldn't." Rory folded her hands on the table. Her left wrist rested just inside her sleeve, the small crescent scar hidden. "That wasn't her secret to share." "Right." Tomas rubbed the back of his neck. "Right. Of course." Silas appeared beside them with a cloth over his shoulder and a pint glass in his hand. He set it down in front of Rory without being asked — she always had the same thing, a half-pint of whatever dark ale he had on — and gave Tomas a look that was brief and assessing. The kind of look that catalogued everything: the weight loss, the tension in the jaw, the way his fingers were white around the edge of the table. "Friend of yours, Rory?" "Old friend," she said. "From university." "Mm." Silas adjusted the cloth on his shoulder. "Kitchen's open till ten if you want anything." He limped back toward the bar, his signet ring catching the light as he reached for a glass. Tomas watched him go. "He always that subtle?" "You don't want to know how subtle he can be." Rory took a sip of her ale. It was good — something malty Silas had got in from a brewery in Bermondsey. "So. Holborn. You finished your training contract?" "Last September. Qualified in March. Commercial litigation, mostly." He said it flatly, the way someone reports a train arrival time. "It's fine. It pays." "You always said you'd do criminal law." "I said a lot of things." Another silence. The jazz track changed to something slower, a trumpet holding a single note like a question. "You look different," Tomas said. He said it carefully, the way you'd handle something you suspected might break. "Not bad different. Just — you carry yourself differently. In Cardiff you used to hunch. Like you were trying to take up less space." "I was." "And now?" "Now I deliver noodles and live above a bar in Soho." She let that sit. "So. The dream lives on." He almost smiled. It surfaced and vanished, a fish breaking water. "You left Pre-Law. You left everything. Your dad's chambers, the internship he set up — " "I know what I left." "Do you know why?" The question landed on the table between them like a dropped glass. Rory felt something tighten behind her ribs. She could feel the crescent scar through her sleeve, a phantom itch, and she pressed her wrist against her thigh. "Evan," she said. Just the name. Nothing else. It sat in the air like smoke. Tomas's jaw tightened. He'd known about Evan. Not everything — not the specifics, not the gradations of control that started with comments about her clothes and ended with a grip on her arm that left a bruise shaped like a thumbprint — but enough. He'd been the one to find her that night in the library carrel, crying so hard she couldn't breathe, and he'd sat with her for an hour without saying a word, just there, a warm solid presence while she shook apart. And she'd never told him what it was about. And he'd never asked. "I'm sorry," he said. "I should have — " "Don't." She kept her voice level. "You couldn't have known. I didn't want you to know." "I wanted to help you." "I know. That's why I didn't tell you. You would have done something, and he would have — " She stopped. Breathed. "It doesn't matter now. I'm here. He's not." Tomas turned his pint glass in a slow circle on the table. Condensation left a ring on the wood. "Eva told me that much. That you'd gotten out. That you were safe. She just wouldn't say where." "Eva's a vault." "She always liked you more than me." A ghost of the old humor, the old ease, flickered across his face. "I used to be so jealous of that." "You hid it well." "I'm a lawyer now. Hiding things is literally my job." They both almost laughed. Almost. The sound died before it reached their mouths. Rory studied him. The grey at his temples. The loosened collar. The paperback — she could see the spine now, a battered copy of *Graham Greene's The End of the Affair*, which had been his favorite book in university, which he'd pressed on her once and which she'd read in a single night and never returned. She still had it. It was in a box under her bed. "You're not happy," she said. Not a question. Tomas looked at her. Really looked at her, for the first time since she'd sat down. "No." "Holborn?" "Holborn. The firm. The hours. The partners who treat junior clerks like furniture." He took a drink of his pint. "My mum asks me every Sunday if I'm eating enough. I lie." "You look like you're telling the truth about that, at least." "Rory." "I'm not going to tell you it gets better, because I'm still figuring that out myself." She leaned back in her chair. "I deliver food for a living, Tomas. I ride a bicycle in the rain. I come home smelling like garlic and sesame oil. I'm not exactly a success story." "But you're here." "I'm here." "Free." Something moved through her — not quite warmth, not quite pain. Something adjacent to both. "Yeah," she said. "Free." He nodded slowly. He picked up the paperback and turned it over in his hands, a gesture so familiar it made her chest ache. He used to do this in the library — handle books like they were living things, turning them over, reading the back copy as though it might contain something the front hadn't. "I looked for you," he said. "After. I called your dad's chambers. He wouldn't tell me anything either. He just said you were safe and that I should stop calling." "That sounds like my dad." "He was angry. I could hear it." "He's always angry. It's his resting state." She paused. "He's not a bad person. He just — he processes fear as anger. He was scared for me. Still is, probably." "Are you?" She considered this. The bar hummed around them — low conversation, the clink of glasses, the trumpet on the speakers resolving into something major. Through the window the neon sign buzzed its green light into the wet street. "Sometimes," she said. "Less than I used to be." Tomas reached across the table. His hand stopped short of hers, hovered there, then withdrew. "I missed you." "I missed you too." "You could have texted back." "I know." "Three texts, Rory. I counted." "I know." She looked at him. "I wasn't ready. I wasn't — I couldn't be the person you remembered. I needed to figure out who I was without all of it. Without the law, without Cardiff, without him. Without you." The last word hung there. She hadn't meant to say it, or she had, or some part of her had. Tomas's expression didn't change, but something behind his eyes shifted, a door opening onto a room he'd kept locked. "I waited," he said quietly. "I don't know what I was waiting for. But I kept my number the same. I kept — I don't know. I kept everything the same." "That's not true," she said gently. "You're in London now. You changed your city." "I was looking for you." He said it like a confession. "The firm, the move — I told myself it was career. It wasn't. I transferred because I thought if I was in the same city, if I just — if I walked enough streets, went into enough bars — " "Tomas." "I know. I know how it sounds." "It sounds like something I would do." She held his gaze. "Which is why you should stop. You can't find a person by looking for them. They have to be found by accident. Or not at all." He exhaled. It was a long, slow breath, like someone setting something heavy down. "Then I'm glad for the accident." "Buy me another pint and I might forgive you for the stalking." He laughed. A real laugh, startled out of him, and for a moment the years collapsed and he was twenty-two again on the library steps, sauce on his chin, gesturing wildly about something in a casebook, and she was Rory, just Rory, not yet broken, not yet rebuilt, not yet this person with steady hands and careful eyes who delivered noodles and lived above a bar. Then the moment passed, and they were here. Two people in a dim room with old maps on the walls, nursing drinks they hadn't finished, trying to build a bridge across three years of silence with words that kept falling short. It was enough. For now, it was enough.