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The rain had polished Soho black and shining by the time Rory came down from her flat. She paused beneath the green neon raven above the door, fishing in her pocket for the keys she did not need. The sign buzzed weakly through the wet air. One wing of the bird flickered, vanished, returned. Across the pavement, rainwater collected in the gutter around a crushed cigarette packet and carried it, slowly, toward the drain. Inside, the Raven’s Nest smelled of damp wool, old wood, and the citrus cleaner Silas used when he wanted the place to seem less like a confession booth. Maps crowded the walls: Europe in faded colour, the coastlines of places Rory had never been, borders that had shifted and been redrawn by people who probably thought lines could hold. Silas stood behind the bar, polishing a tumbler with a cloth that had long ago surrendered any hope of cleanliness. His grey-streaked hair was combed back, his beard neat, his signet ring catching the low amber light as he turned the glass. “You’re late,” he said. “I live upstairs.” “Exactly. No Tube delays, no weather, no plausible excuse.” “The stairs were hostile.” His mouth moved beneath his beard. It was not quite a smile, but Silas’s smiles rarely were. “Tea?” “Please.” He set the glass down, reached for the kettle. His left leg gave its faint hitch as he turned, a movement so ingrained it seemed less like a limp than punctuation. Rory climbed onto the last empty stool at the bar and shrugged out of her jacket. Her hair had darkened with rain at the ends. She tucked it behind one ear, rubbed the small crescent scar on her left wrist with her thumb, and watched the room. It was early enough that the regulars had not yet settled into their usual corners. A man in a camel coat read the racing page by the window. Two women in office clothes shared a bottle of wine and spoke in the careful, bright tones of colleagues who had not yet decided whether they liked each other. The jukebox was playing something old and bruised with trumpet. The door opened. A gust of rain entered first, then a woman in a long black coat. Rory looked at her without recognition. The woman was tall—taller than Rory had remembered anyone being—with close-cropped pale hair and a sharp, elegant face. Rain glittered on the shoulders of her coat. She stood just inside the doorway as though waiting for someone to tell her whether she was allowed to exist there. Then she raised one hand to sweep water from her brow. A thin white scar crossed the knuckle of her right index finger. Rory’s breath stopped. The bar tipped inward, all its low voices muffled under the sudden rush of blood in her ears. Eva Morgan had got a scar on that knuckle when they were fourteen, climbing the rusted fence behind St. Alban’s. Rory had dared her. Eva had sliced her hand open and laughed while blood dripped down her fingers, then made Rory swear never to tell her mother. “Eva,” Rory said. The woman looked over. For one long second, nothing in her face changed. Then her eyes widened—not dramatically, not with the clean surprise Rory might have expected, but with something more private and more frightened. “Rory?” Nobody had called her that in the old Welsh lilt since before London. It landed inside her with the force of a stone dropped down a well. Eva came closer. “You’re here,” she said. “So are you.” “Yes.” Eva glanced around the bar as if this had been her plan all along. “Apparently.” Rory stood. They looked at each other over the narrow distance between stools. The old Eva had worn her hair in a red-brown waterfall down her back. She had painted her nails silver, chewed gum loudly in class, smoked stolen cigarettes behind the sports hall, and said every day that she would leave Cardiff before it had the chance to turn her into somebody’s mother. Her cheeks had been round and freckled. She had laughed from her stomach. This woman had none of that softness. Her hair was nearly white beneath the bar lights. Her coat fit too well. A narrow gold band circled one thumb. There was make-up on her face, carefully done, though rain had blurred it at one temple. She looked expensive and tired. Eva’s gaze travelled over Rory with the same uneasy inventory. “Black hair.” “Always had black hair.” “It was longer.” “So was yours.” That did it. Eva gave a small, dry laugh, and for an instant Rory saw her again: sixteen years old, all elbows and defiance, leaning over a school desk to pass notes full of terrible poetry. Silas put two glasses of water on the bar without asking. His hazel eyes rested briefly on Rory’s face, then on Eva’s. He had the tact of a man who had spent a lifetime knowing exactly when not to be in a room. “Sit,” Rory said. Eva slipped onto the stool beside hers. The black coat fell open. Under it she wore a dark green silk blouse and tailored trousers, clothes meant for places where nobody spilled lager on the floor. Silas approached. “What can I get you?” “Gin and tonic,” Eva said automatically. Then she hesitated. “No. Whisky. Neat.” Silas nodded once and poured something amber into a short glass. Rory watched Eva take it. Her hand was steady. That felt wrong somehow. Eva’s hands had never been steady. They had always been moving: drawing in the margins of exercise books, stealing chips from Rory’s plate, making cigarettes dance between two fingers while she talked. “How long have you been in London?” Eva asked. “Four years.” Eva turned toward her. “Four?” “Nearly.” “I thought you were at university.” “I was.” “What happened?” The question was simple enough. It opened like a trapdoor. Rory lifted her water and drank. “A few things.” Eva’s expression shifted. “Evan?” Rory looked at her. “I saw him once,” Eva said. “After you left.” The name had not been spoken aloud in the Nest before. It seemed to stain the polished wood between them. “What do you mean, you saw him?” “He came into the Fox and Hounds. This was—God, I don’t know. Two years ago, maybe.” Eva picked up her whisky, did not drink. “He asked whether I’d heard from you.” “And?” “And I told him no.” Rory studied her face. “Had you?” Eva’s thumb pressed against the gold ring on her other hand. “No.” “Right.” “Rory.” “It’s fine.” “No, it isn’t.” A beat passed. The trumpet on the jukebox bent around a note and let it go. Rory had spent years learning the shape of fine. Fine was rent paid late but paid. Fine was sleeping through the night four times out of seven. Fine was going out the delivery door of Golden Empress with a paper bag warm against her wrist and not looking over her shoulder every time a car slowed beside the kerb. Eva’s voice softened. “I wrote to you.” Rory almost laughed. “You did not.” “I did.” “Where?” “Your parents’ address.” Rory’s fingers tightened around the glass. Eva looked down. “I sent two letters. Maybe three. Your mum never said?” “My mother said a lot of things. None of them were that you’d written.” “I thought you didn’t want to know me.” “I left a note.” Rory heard the old anger coming up in her own voice, young and humiliatingly alive. “I told you where I was going.” “You left it in my postbox.” “You lived there.” “I was in Bristol.” “You were what?” “For three months.” Eva looked almost embarrassed. “I’d gone to stay with someone.” “Someone?” “Her name was Marta.” Rory stared at her. “You disappeared to Bristol with a woman named Marta, and no one thought to tell me?” “I was twenty-one. I barely thought to tell myself.” “Eva, I went to your house.” “I know. Mam told me later.” “Later?” “When I came back.” Rory set her glass down too hard. Water slopped over her fingers. “You came back.” “Yes.” “And you didn’t call.” Eva’s face closed a little. It was a reflex. Rory could see the old girl behind it, the one who had made jokes whenever anything hurt too much. “I was angry,” Eva said. “At me?” “At everyone.” “That’s convenient.” “It isn’t meant to be.” Silas, at the other end of the bar, began stacking coasters that did not need stacking. Eva drank her whisky. “Marta and I broke up. I came home. Mam said you’d run off to London, that you’d dropped out of uni, that no one knew what had got into you. And then Evan came round asking questions. He said you’d been unstable. That you’d accused him of things.” Rory’s mouth went dry. “What things?” Eva did not answer at once. “The things he did,” she said finally. Rory looked at the map on the wall opposite them. Czechoslovakia, still whole in the yellowed print. Countries could survive in ink long after they had become something else. “And you believed him,” she said. Eva flinched. “I didn’t know what to believe.” “You knew me.” “I thought I did.” “That isn’t an answer.” “No.” Eva swallowed. “It isn’t.” Rory wanted Eva to fight back. She wanted her to say something cruel, something careless, something recognisably hers. It would have been easier. Instead Eva sat folded around her glass, pale hair glowing under the low lights, and looked like a person who had spent years rehearsing an apology she had never expected to deliver. “He was charming,” Eva said. “That sounds pathetic now.” “It sounded pathetic then.” “I know.” Her eyes lifted to Rory’s. They were still brown. Still large and dark and unguarded when she forgot to guard them. “I knew he was awful to you sometimes.” “Sometimes?” “I knew he made you small.” Eva’s voice tightened. “I knew you stopped laughing. I knew you’d look at your phone and go white. I knew he spoke over you every time we were together. I knew all of it, and I thought if it were really bad, you’d tell me.” Rory felt something in her chest give a hard, clean crack. “I did tell you.” Eva closed her eyes. Not for long. Just long enough. Rory remembered the night now, though she had tried not to. A bus shelter on Newport Road. Rain needling the pavement. Evan had thrown her phone into the road because she had answered Eva’s call. Eva had arrived twenty minutes later, breathless and annoyed, and Rory had said, He scares me sometimes. Eva had put an arm around her shoulders and said, He’s a prick, babe. Leave him. As if leaving were a door one simply walked through. “I’m sorry,” Eva said. There were people who said sorry as a way of ending a subject. Eva did not. The word sat between them, stripped of decoration. Rory looked at her left wrist, at the little crescent from the time she had fallen through a greenhouse pane as a child. Her father had called it a battle mark. Her mother had kissed it. Eva had once traced it with a blue felt-tip pen and declared it a moon. “Where have you been?” Rory asked. Eva’s mouth twisted. “Everywhere I said I’d go, eventually. Bristol. Manchester. Berlin for a while. Then London.” “And now?” “Now I work for an investment firm.” She made the words sound like an indictment. “I have a flat in Canary Wharf. I own a coffee machine worth more than my first car.” “That does sound unlike you.” “I know.” “What happened to becoming a tattoo artist in Barcelona?” “I can’t draw for shit.” “You said that never mattered.” “It mattered to the tattooists.” Rory laughed before she could stop herself. Eva’s face changed. The reserve broke. Her laugh came out low and surprised, not quite from her stomach anymore, but with the same reckless edge. For a moment they were two girls again, sharing chips beneath an awning while Cardiff rain turned the streetlights watery. Then the moment passed, because that was what moments did. They never stayed merely because they were wanted. Eva touched the rim of her empty glass. “I saw the sign,” she said. “The green one. I was in a cab. I don’t know why I told him to stop.” “Maybe you wanted a drink.” “I don’t think I did.” Rory looked toward the entrance. Beyond its rain-streaked glass, London rushed on in blurred coats and umbrellas. There was no meaning in an old friend appearing at a bar on a wet Thursday except the meaning people gave it afterward. “You can stay for another,” Rory said. Eva looked at her carefully. “Are you sure?” “No.” That honest answer seemed to steady them both. Silas came over, silent question in his raised brow. “Two teas,” Rory said. Eva smiled faintly. “Tea?” “You used to hate tea.” “I’ve changed significantly.” “So I gathered.” Silas set about filling the kettle. His ring flashed beneath the lamps. The bar hummed around them, warm and dim and full of the accumulated evidence of other people’s nights. Eva leaned her elbows on the bar. “What do you do?” “I deliver for a Chinese restaurant.” Eva blinked. “You?” “Me.” “The girl who once corrected a teacher’s legal terminology in front of the whole class?” “That girl was unbearable.” “She was brilliant.” Rory looked down at the water drying on her hands. “She was frightened.” Eva did not contradict her. After a while, she said, “Are you happy here?” It was not a question Rory could answer cleanly. Happiness was too bright a word for the flat upstairs, for the smell of fried ginger clinging to her coats, for Silas’s watchful quiet, for the small hard-won life she had made from what remained. “I’m here,” she said. Eva nodded as though Rory had told her something enormous. Silas placed two steaming mugs before them. Rory wrapped both hands around hers. Across from the mirror behind the bottles, she caught their reflection: two women seated close together, strangers in the posture of old friends. Eva raised her tea. “To being here,” she said. Rory hesitated. Then she touched her mug to Eva’s. “To being here.”