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The rain had polished Soho to a dark shine by the time Rory shouldered through the door of the Raven’s Nest. Cold air followed her in, carrying the smell of wet pavement and diesel. She kept one hand clamped around the insulated delivery bag and shook the water from her hair with the other. Her black sleeves were damp to the elbows. The distinctive green neon sign above the entrance had bled through the front windows all evening, staining the bar’s dim interior the colour of deep water. Silas looked up from the till. “You’re late.” “Yu-Fei’s duck took a scenic route.” “It always does.” “It’s not the duck’s fault.” “No. It’s the driver’s.” Rory set the bag on the end of the bar. The warmth of the Nest pressed around her: beer, old wood, lemon peel, and the faint mineral smell of the rain tracked in by customers. Black-and-white photographs watched from the walls. In one, a row of men stood outside a building that no longer existed. In another, a woman in a headscarf stared solemnly into the camera, her face blurred at the edges by age. Old maps filled the spaces between them, London divided and redrawn in different hands. Silas took the bag. His slight limp showed as he carried it toward the kitchen, the left leg never quite trusting the floor. At fifty-eight, he moved with the deliberate economy of someone who had learned what every unnecessary motion cost. “You eat?” he called. “Eventually.” “That means no.” “That means I’m considering it.” “That’s what people say before they faint.” Rory peeled off her wet jacket. Beneath it, her black jumper clung to her shoulders. She caught her reflection in the mirror behind the bottles: straight black hair to her shoulders, pale face, bright blue eyes made sharper by fatigue. The crescent scar on her left wrist showed where her sleeve had ridden up, a small white comma from a childhood accident. She reached for a towel. Then someone said, “Rory?” The towel stopped in her hand. For a second, the room seemed to withdraw from her. The music from the speakers thinned to a thread. Rain ticked against the windows. Somewhere in the kitchen, a plate struck a counter. She turned. Eva stood near the door with one hand still on the brass handle. The years had not made Rory forget her. They had made forgetting impossible. Eva had been all knees and copper curls at thirteen, then all nervous laughter and blue eyeliner at seventeen. She had slept on the Carter sofa through exam seasons, stolen toast from Jennifer’s kitchen, and taught Rory how to swear in three languages. In the last photograph Rory had seen, Eva wore a denim jacket and looked at the camera as if she had just been dared to tell the truth. Now her hair was cut close to her skull, dark at the roots and silver-blonde at the ends. A thin scar ran from the corner of her mouth toward her jaw. She wore a black wool coat of excellent quality and no jewellery except a plain gold band on her right hand. Her face had narrowed. Not aged exactly. Weathered. As though life had kept hold of her and dragged her through several rooms without opening the doors. “Eva,” Rory said. Eva gave a tiny nod. “Hi.” Silas emerged from the kitchen carrying a plate. He looked from one woman to the other, his hazel eyes settling on Rory. He did not ask whether she knew her. Silas rarely asked questions when he could wait for answers. Eva moved toward the bar. Her gaze passed over the photographs, the maps, the shelves of bottles. “I didn’t know this was yours.” “It isn’t,” Rory said. “I live upstairs.” “Right. You told me once.” “Did I?” “Before London.” There it was, the old country hidden inside two words. Before London. Before Rory had arrived with one suitcase, a cracked phone, and a bruise she had covered with concealer. Before Evan’s name became something she could hear without her stomach closing. Before Eva had stood in the Cardiff train station, gripping Rory’s shoulders and telling her to leave, leave now, don’t make excuses for him, don’t go back. Rory folded the towel over the edge of the bar. “What are you doing here?” “Having a drink.” “You don’t drink.” Eva glanced at the bottle-lined shelves. “I do now.” Silas placed the plate in front of Rory. Two pieces of toast, butter melting into the ridges, and a bowl of chips. “You’ll have one,” he said to Eva. “I’m all right.” “That wasn’t a question.” Eva looked at him properly then. His silver signet ring caught the green light as he reached for a clean glass. He had the quiet authority of a man accustomed to people accepting instructions before they understood them. “Gin,” she said. Silas poured without comment. Rory picked up a chip. It had gone soft in the middle. She ate it anyway. Eva remained standing until Silas placed the drink before her. Only then did she sit on the stool beside Rory, leaving one empty stool between them. The distance was almost funny. They had once shared a single bed in Eva’s parents’ spare room, whispering after midnight while rain tapped the skylight. They had once kissed behind the science block, both of them laughing too hard to manage it properly. They had known the precise shape of each other’s grief before either of them knew what grief was. Now an empty stool stood between them like a third person. “So,” Eva said. Rory looked at her. “So.” “You look well.” “You look different.” Eva’s fingers tightened around the glass. “That’s honest.” “You asked.” “I didn’t.” “No. You implied.” A smile moved over Eva’s mouth, but it didn’t stay. “You always did that.” “Did what?” “Answer the question underneath the question.” “Occupational hazard.” “Still doing law?” Rory looked down at the toast. “No.” “I thought you wanted to be a barrister.” “My father wanted that.” “And you?” “I wanted him to stop looking disappointed.” Eva took a sip of gin. Her face barely changed. “That’s not the same thing.” “No.” Silas passed behind them, collecting glasses from a nearby table. His limp was more pronounced now, though he tried to hide it. Rory watched him disappear toward the back, toward the bookshelf that concealed the Nest’s secret room. She had seen the door open only twice. Both times, Silas had told her to go upstairs. Eva turned her glass in slow circles. “I heard about Evan.” Rory’s hand stopped halfway to her mouth. “That was years ago,” she said. “I know.” “From whom?” “Your mum.” Rory set the toast down. “You spoke to my mother?” “Once.” “When?” “After you left.” The bar seemed suddenly too warm. A drop of rain slid from Rory’s hair down the side of her neck. “What did she say?” “That you were safe.” “She didn’t know that.” “She knew you were in London.” “She knew I had a room.” “She sounded relieved.” Rory laughed once, without humour. “Everyone was relieved when I left. That was the part no one said out loud.” Eva’s eyes fixed on the glass. “I said it.” “You said lots of things.” “I told you to go.” “You told me to go and then vanished.” The words landed harder than Rory expected. Eva flinched, not dramatically, but enough. Her shoulders drew in beneath the wool coat. “I didn’t vanish.” “You changed your number.” “Yes.” “You stopped answering emails.” “Yes.” “You sent me one postcard from Lisbon with no return address.” “I was in Lisbon.” “I know. You wrote Lisbon on it.” For the first time, Eva looked angry. The old Eva flashed through her: quick, bright, impossible to corner. “What did you want me to do, Rory? Move into your flat and sit outside your bedroom door?” “I wanted you to answer.” “I couldn’t.” “You could have typed three words.” “I couldn’t,” Eva repeated. Her voice cracked on the last word. The fracture was small, but Rory heard it. She looked at Eva’s hands. The nails were short and unpainted. There was a pale indentation around the ring finger of her left hand, as if she had worn a ring there for years and removed it recently. “What happened?” Rory asked. Eva’s gaze followed hers. “I was married.” Rory said nothing. “For four years,” Eva went on. “His name was Daniel. He was kind in public. That was his particular talent.” The green neon flickered in the window, turning Eva’s face briefly sickly, then letting it return to ordinary human colour. “I left in January,” she said. “I’m staying with my sister in Camden until I find somewhere else.” “Is he dangerous?” “No.” Eva said it too quickly. Then she sighed. “Not in the way Evan was,” she said. “That’s what I kept telling myself. He never hit me. Never threatened me. He just made the world smaller. A little at a time. Friends became inconvenient. Work became selfish. My clothes became embarrassing. My opinions became exhausting.” Rory felt something cold settle behind her ribs. “Why are you telling me?” “I saw you.” “That doesn’t answer the question.” “No.” Eva looked at her. “It doesn’t.” A customer near the window laughed loudly. The sound rose and fell, careless and temporary. Behind the bar, a clock ticked with the exaggerated patience of old machinery. Eva took another drink. “I saw you outside a restaurant last week. You had a delivery bag. I thought it was you, but I wasn’t sure.” “You could have come over.” “I stood across the street for twenty minutes.” “That sounds healthy.” “I didn’t say it was.” Rory rubbed at the scar on her wrist with the thumb of her other hand. She had expected anger when she imagined seeing Eva again. She had rehearsed it in lifts, in showers, lying awake above the bar while traffic hissed below. She had imagined saying, You left me. She had imagined Eva apologising, and herself refusing to accept it. She had not imagined this woman, with silver at her temples and a wedding mark on her hand, sitting beside her as if the years were a locked room neither of them knew how to enter. “You should have called,” Rory said. “I was ashamed.” “Of what?” “Of needing you.” Rory looked at her then. Eva’s eyes were still the same. Grey-green, impossible to read at a distance, painfully clear up close. Rory remembered those eyes at sixteen, bright with tears after Eva’s father had left. She remembered holding Eva’s hand beneath the desk while their teacher talked about the Industrial Revolution. She remembered the night Eva found Rory crying in a toilet at university and said, without asking why, Come home with me. “You didn’t need to need me,” Rory said. “You needed to not disappear.” “I know.” “No, you don’t. You keep saying you know things after they’ve stopped being useful.” Eva absorbed that. The old Eva might have argued. This one only nodded. Silas returned with a glass of water and set it in front of Rory. “You’re both drinking like you’ve got somewhere else to be.” “I do,” Rory said. “Upstairs?” “That counts.” “Barely.” He moved away, giving them the privacy of someone who understood that privacy was often an illusion. Eva looked toward the staircase at the back of the room. “You live here?” “Flat above.” “With Silas?” “Not with him. Above him.” “Is he safe?” Rory nearly smiled. “He was MI6.” “That wasn’t an answer.” “It’s London. No one is safe. Some people are simply better armed.” Eva’s mouth twitched. “You did change.” Rory thought of the girl she had been in Cardiff: eager to be good, eager to be believed, always translating her own instincts into something acceptable. “So did you.” “I’m trying to.” “That’s different.” “Yes.” Outside, the rain had softened. People moved past the windows beneath umbrellas, their bodies cut into pieces by the green light. Eva reached into her coat pocket and took out a folded envelope. She placed it on the bar between them. Rory stared at it. “It’s my number,” Eva said. “The real one. I’m not asking you to forgive me.” “Good.” “I’m not asking you to pretend we can go back.” “We can’t.” “I know.” Rory looked at the envelope but did not touch it. “What are you asking?” Eva’s face tightened. “For one drink.” “You’ve already had one.” “One where you don’t leave before I finish.” Rory glanced toward the staircase. Her flat waited above: narrow, overheated, cluttered with shoes and books and the life she had assembled piece by piece. She could go upstairs. She could leave the envelope where it was. Silas would throw it away eventually, or keep it beneath the till until she decided what she wanted. Eva sat beside her, changed and familiar, carrying her shame like a second coat. Rory picked up the envelope. It was damp at one corner from the rain. “Fine,” she said. “One drink.” Eva let out a breath that seemed to come from somewhere years deep. Silas, without turning from the shelves, poured another measure of gin. This time he set it in front of Eva, then placed a whisky glass beside Rory. Rory raised an eyebrow. “I’m not drinking whisky.” “You are tonight.” She looked at the amber liquid. Then at Eva. “For old times’ sake?” Eva asked. “No,” Rory said. But she lifted the glass anyway.