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The rain had let up by the time Rory finished the last delivery, but her jacket had already committed to being wet, and there was nothing to be done about it now. She came in through the side door of the Nest, shaking water from her hair, and Silas didn't look up from the glass he was drying. He never did. He'd told her once that a man who looks up every time a door opens is a man who gets shot in the face, and she'd laughed, and he hadn't. "Kitchen's cold," he said. "Wu Ling threw a fit about the order." "Yu-Fei threw the fit. Wu Ling just relayed it with feeling." She dropped her bag behind the bar and pulled the stool out — her stool, the third from the end, close enough to the till that she could reach the crisps. "There's a wedding party on Frith Street ordering three separate times because nobody wants to admit they're still hungry." "Ah." He set the glass down. "Vodka?" "Tea." "Tea," he repeated, in the tone of a man who has heard the word before but doesn't trust it. She was three sips in and watching the green neon bleed across the wet window when the front door opened and the noise from the street came with it, and she knew before she turned. It was the walk. You could change a face, you could change a name, but nobody ever thought to change the walk. Eva Hollander came in the way she'd always come into rooms, like the room had been expecting her and was late. The difference was that now the room actually was. She'd cut her hair — cropped it close at the sides, longer on top, the sort of cut you got in a place with appointments and a receptionist and eucalyptus in a glass jar. Her coat was cashmere. Her shoes had done nothing but walk on carpet for a very long time. She got four steps in and stopped. "Rory." "Eva." Neither of them moved. Silas, in the way of a man who had spent thirty years learning when to be furniture, drifted toward the far end of the bar and began an unnecessary inventory of the gin. "You look —" Eva started. "Wet. I know." "I was going to say the same." A smile flickered, uncertain of its footing. "God. You cut it, too. Or — no, you didn't. It's the same. That's exactly the same length it was when we were nineteen." "I'm consistent." Eva sat down without asking, one stool over, leaving a gap that neither of them had left in seven years of shared beds in shared flats, in the backs of taxis, at the funeral of Eva's mother where Rory had held her upright by the elbow for two straight hours. She hung her coat on the hook under the bar as if she'd known the hook was there. "You come here often?" Rory said, and it landed so badly that they both winced. "Client dinner ended early. I was walking to the tube and I saw the sign." Eva looked up at the ceiling, at the yellowed maps, the photographs of men in overcoats squinting into some 1970s sun. "This is — you *live* here, don't you. You live above this." "Flat's above the kitchen. There's a smell of frying at seven in the morning and I've made peace with it." "You made peace with a smell." "I've made peace with several." Silas set a glass of white in front of Eva without being asked, which meant he had read her in the four seconds she'd taken crossing the floor, and Rory felt an old flare of pride in him and an older, meaner flare of something else. Eva said thank you the way you thank a waiter you'll never see again. Silas withdrew. "You didn't call," Eva said. "You moved." "I moved to *Zurich*, Rory, not the moon. There's a phone in Zurich. There are quite a lot of phones in Zurich, actually, it's one of the things they're known for." She turned the wine glass by its base, a quarter turn, then back. "I sent you my address." "I got it." "And?" "And I put it on the fridge." Rory drank her tea, which had gone tepid and tasted of the cup. "It's still there. It's under a magnet shaped like a dragon that Yu-Fei's granddaughter gave me. I've read it about four hundred times." Eva laughed once, a short surprised sound, and for half a second she was nineteen again, sitting on the wall outside the Student Union with a bag of chips, telling Rory that Pre-Law was a coward's degree and that she should do something reckless before she turned thirty. *You'll be a barrister like your dad and you'll be very good and very unhappy and I'll come to your chambers and I'll say I told you so.* "You were supposed to come," Eva said. "You told me you'd come at Easter." "I know what I said." "You said it twice." "I know." "Why didn't you?" Rory considered the honest answer, which was that in April of that year she had still been checking the reflection in shop windows for a man who drove a grey Astra, and that a passport felt like a document that would tell someone where she'd gone. She considered the other honest answer, which was worse: that she had been afraid Eva would look at the life she'd built — a rented room above a chip pan, a delivery bag, a fifty-eight-year-old spy who let her sit at his bar — and see exactly what it was. "Money," she said. Eva looked at her for a long moment. The neon turned the wet ends of her cropped hair green. "Don't do that," she said quietly. "Do what?" "Give me the version. You used to give me the actual thing. You used to give me the actual thing at three in the morning with your feet on my lap and I'd have killed for that. I *did*, a bit — I let Marcus go because he told me I talked to you more than to him and he wasn't wrong and I chose you." She pressed her lips together. "And then you stopped picking up and I told everyone in a new country about my best friend who was going to visit at Easter until it got embarrassing to keep saying it." Rory set the cup down very precisely on the ring it had already made. "Evan found the flat in Bethnal Green," she said. "In March. I don't know how. He stood in the street and shouted for about twenty minutes and then he went away and I sat in the bath with the door locked till it got light." She kept her eyes on the cup. "And after that I got very good at not existing. And you can't be very good at not existing and also send postcards. So I picked." The bar hummed. Someone outside laughed at something on Wardour Street. "Rory." "It's fine. It was six years ago. I've a job and a lock on the door and Silas knows a woman in Peckham who can find anyone, so if he shows up I'll hear about it first." She glanced up, and made herself hold it. "That's the actual thing. That's what I've got instead of Zurich." Eva's hand came halfway across the gap between the stools and stopped, hovering, the way it had at her mother's funeral when she hadn't known if she was allowed to be held. "I wrote to you eleven times," she said. "I know. They're in a shoebox. I read them all and I never answered one and I don't have a good reason for that, either, except that after a while it was easier to be someone you used to know." "You're not someone I used to know." "I'm not who you left, though." Rory turned on the stool to face her fully, and let her see it: the flat black hair, the delivery-bag callus on her palm, the wrist with its small crescent scar that Eva had once traced with a fingertip and pronounced her *only interesting feature*. "You've got shoes for carpets and a coat that costs more than my rent. And I've got a stool. And the thing is, Eva, I *chose* the stool. That's the part I can't say out loud without it sounding like an accusation." "It sounds a bit like one." "Yeah." Eva picked up her wine and drank half of it, which was the least Zurich thing she'd done since she walked in. "You could have told me," she said. "I'd have come back." "I know. That's why I didn't." The silence went on long enough for Silas to reappear, take the empty cup without comment, and set down two whiskies — a small mercy, or a diagnosis. "Easter's in April again," Eva said at last, not looking at her. "It's a recurring thing. They do it every year." Rory looked at the glass, at the amber sitting still in it, and felt the seven years like a coat she'd forgotten she was wearing. "I'll check the fridge," she said. "The address might have moved." "It hasn't." "No," Rory said. "I didn't think it had."