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The rain had come on hard somewhere around Brewer Street, the kind that soaks through a jacket in stages, and by the time Rory pushed into the Raven's Nest her hair was plastered to her neck and the last of the delivery bags was slapping wet against her thigh. Empty, thank God. The Cheungs' insulated red monstrosity, dripping on Silas' floor. "Boots," Silas said without looking up. He was at the far end of the bar with a cloth and a glass, doing that thing where he cleaned something already clean because his hands needed occupation. "They're trainers." "Whatever they are, they're leaving a trail." She hung the bag on the hook by the door — her hook, established over eight months by nothing more than repetition — and shook her hair out like a dog. Green light from the sign outside came through the window in a smeared rectangle and made everything look faintly submarine. Six-forty on a Tuesday. Three customers: a man reading a newspaper as if it were 1974, a couple in the corner having a conversation in aggressive whispers. And a woman at the bar with her back to the room, in a coat that cost more than Rory's month. Rory registered the coat first, the way you do. Then the posture. Then something in the shoulders, some particular angle of the neck, and her stomach went strange and light before her brain caught up. "Eva?" The woman turned. It was and it wasn't. The face was the same underneath — that was the awful part, the way the bones held the same argument they always had — but everything laid over the top had been revised. Eva's hair had gone from the black-cherry disaster she'd maintained through sixth form to a smooth, expensive ash blonde. There was work around her eyes, or maybe just money, which does similar things. She'd lost weight in the manner of someone who'd decided to. "Rory." She said it flatly, the way you'd read a name off a list. Then something moved through her face and she stood up, and for a second she was nineteen again in a Cardiff kitchen at four in the morning eating cold beans out of the tin. "Oh my God. Rory." They hugged. It went on slightly too long and then ended slightly too abruptly, both of them stepping back at once as though the other had signalled. "You're wet," Eva said. "I'm always wet. It's my defining feature." Rory looked at her, still not quite trusting it. "What are you doing here?" "Drinking." Eva sat back down, arranged herself. There was a glass of something clear in front of her with a lemon twist going soft at the bottom. "I had a thing on Wardour Street and it finished early and I didn't want to go back to the hotel yet." "You're in a hotel." "I'm in Kensington usually. But there's a thing with the flat, there's scaffolding, it's —" She waved a hand. "It's boring. Don't make me explain scaffolding." Silas set a glass of tap water in front of Rory without being asked and drifted down the bar to the newspaper man, far enough to be polite, close enough to hear. The signet ring caught the green light. Rory had learned to read his distances. "So." She hooked a stool over with her foot and sat. "Kensington." "Don't." "I didn't say anything." "You said Kensington in italics." Rory laughed, and it came out easier than she expected. "Fine. You look — you look incredible, Eva. Genuinely. You look like a woman in an advert for a bank." "That's the worst compliment I've ever received." "It wasn't entirely a compliment." Eva smiled at her drink. "There she is." The rain got louder against the window for a moment and then eased. Rory turned her water glass in a slow circle on the wood and thought about the fact that she had, in the last eight months, walked past a hundred women in coats like that and not once looked at any of their faces. "Three years," she said. "Two and a half." "Three. I counted at Christmas. I do that, it's a horrible habit, I count things at Christmas." "Two and a half," Eva said again, gently, "because I saw you in September. That September. You were on the Tube at Green Park and you were asleep against the glass and I didn't wake you up." Rory stopped turning the glass. "You were," Eva said, "wearing that grey thing with the hole in the elbow. And I thought, I'll wake her. And then I thought, she'll ask me how I am and I'll have to lie, and I don't want to lie to Rory on the Piccadilly line. And then it was Piccadilly Circus and I got off." "That's a horrible story." "I know." "That's genuinely one of the worst things anyone's ever told me." "I've been carrying it around for two and a half years," Eva said. "It's much lighter now. Thank you." Rory took a drink of water because there was nothing else to do with her mouth. Outside, someone's umbrella turned inside out and they swore about it in what sounded like Portuguese. "You told me to come," she said finally. "To London. You rang me at half two in the morning and you said, Rory, get on a train, and I got on a train." "I know." "And then you weren't here." "I was here." "You were *here*," Rory said, "in the sense that you were in the city. You were not here in the sense of — Eva, I slept on a woman's floor in Leyton for eleven days. A woman I met on a Facebook group. Her name was Bridget and she had a parrot that screamed." "I remember the parrot." "You never met the parrot." "You described the parrot at length," Eva said, "in a series of texts that I still have. And then you stopped texting me." "Because you stopped answering." "Yes." Eva looked up. Her eyes were the same. Money hadn't got in there. "Yes. I did." Rory waited. She had learned this from Silas, who had learned it in rooms she would never see the inside of: that silence is a tool and most people cannot bear to be near one for long. Eva bore it for eleven seconds. Rory counted. "There was a period," she said, "where I couldn't be around anyone who knew what my voice used to sound like." "What does that mean?" "It means I was becoming someone and it required a lot of concentration." She turned the lemon twist over with her straw. "You can't hold a shape when there's someone in the room who remembers the old one. It's like — I don't know. It's like trying to lie with your mother watching." "I'm not your mother." "You're worse. My mother wanted me to be somebody. You just wanted me to be *me*, and God, Rory, do you know how much harder that is to get away from?" The couple in the corner had stopped whispering. The newspaper man turned a page with tremendous ceremony. Silas polished. "I got out of it," Rory said, and heard her own voice go careful. "Evan. In case you were wondering. In case that was ever a question that occurred to you." "I knew." "How?" "Because I would have heard otherwise," Eva said. "There's a version of the world where I get a phone call about you, and I didn't get it, so." She stopped. Started again, worse. "That's a terrible thing to have just said out loud." "It really is." "I've become quite good at saying terrible things in a reasonable tone. It's most of my job." "What is your job?" "I move money for people who shouldn't have it." "That's not a job, that's a confession." Eva laughed — a real one, sudden and ugly and completely nineteen, and for a moment the coat and the hair and the eyes were just clothing over the top of the girl who'd once climbed out of a first-floor window in Roath rather than admit she'd been crying. Rory found she had put her hand on Eva's sleeve. She didn't remember deciding. "You could have rung," she said. "At any point. Any hour. I'd have picked up." "I know." "I'd still pick up." Eva looked at the hand on her sleeve for a long moment, the way you look at a photograph of a house you used to live in. "That's the thing I can't forgive you for," she said. Behind the bar, very quietly, Silas set down the glass he'd been cleaning for eleven minutes and went to find something else to do.