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The rain had come in sideways off Wardour Street all evening, and by the time Rory pushed through the door of the Nest her jacket had gone the colour of wet slate. The green neon above the entrance made everything under it look drowned. Inside there was warmth, the low fug of spilled beer and radiator dust, and Silas at the far end of the bar with a cloth in one hand and the *Standard* folded to the crossword, not doing it, just having it there. "You're dripping on my floor," he said. "Your floor's seen worse." "My floor has seen a great deal worse." He set a half of cider in front of her stool before she'd sat down on it. "Yu-Fei send you out in that?" "Yu-Fei would send me out in a hurricane if someone in Bloomsbury wanted crispy chilli beef." She peeled off the jacket, hung it on the hook that had been hers by unspoken agreement for eleven months, and set her thermal bag under the stool. Her hands smelled of ginger and vinyl. There was a bowl of rice in the bag she hadn't eaten, going cold and claggy, and she thought about it and left it there. It was a Tuesday in February, which meant nine people in the whole place, three of them regulars, one of them asleep. The walls did what they always did — held their maps, their black-and-white photographs of men in overcoats standing on bridges in cities that had since changed their names. Rory had spent whole shifts' worth of downtime staring at those photographs and had never once asked Silas who anyone was. She had drunk about a third of the cider when the door went again and a woman came in shaking a black umbrella like she was strangling it. Rory clocked her the way she clocked everyone now — a habit she hadn't had two years ago, one she'd acquired the way you acquire a limp. Camel coat, good wool, dark with rain along the shoulders. Court shoes, ruined. A leather tote with a laptop shape in it. Hair pinned up with the sort of severity that takes twenty minutes. Then the woman turned to look for a table, and the light off the optics caught her face, and Rory's stomach dropped clean out of her. "Catrin." The umbrella stopped. For a second — a whole second, long enough for Rory to consider pretending she'd said something else — Catrin Pryce looked at her without recognition. Then it arrived, all at once, and her mouth opened in a shape Rory remembered from a hundred nights on Womanby Street. "*Rory Carter.*" "Hiya." "Rory *Carter*." Catrin came across the floor with her hand out, then didn't shake, then hugged her instead, awkwardly, over the stool, her coat cold and wet against Rory's cheek. She smelled of something expensive and green. She'd always smelled of Marlboro Lights and Impulse. "God. God, look at you. What are you — do you live here? In London?" "Above here, actually." Rory tipped her head at the ceiling. "Flat upstairs." "You're joking." "I'm not." Catrin laughed, and there it was, the old laugh, too loud for the room, and for one hot dizzy moment Rory was twenty and hungover in a lecture theatre with this woman drawing rude cartoons of the Contract Law lecturer in the margin of her notes. Then Catrin stopped laughing and sat down and folded her hands on the bar, and she wasn't twenty, and neither of them were. "You want a drink," Rory said. "I'd love a small white wine." *Small.* Rory looked at Silas. Silas looked back at her, held it a beat longer than he needed to — *you all right?* — and she gave him nothing, which he took as an answer, and poured. "What are you doing in Soho on a Tuesday?" Rory asked. "Client dinner. Ten Greek Street. Which finished at half nine because he had a train, and I got as far as the corner and thought, if I go home now I'll do another two hours of work, so." She turned the wine glass a quarter-turn on the bar. "I'm at Hargreave Lindsell. Property finance. Three years in October." "Partner track?" "God willing and if the Lord tarries." She said it lightly. Her father had been chapel. She used to say it as a joke about him. Now it sat in the sentence like a real prayer. "What about you? Where'd you land? Your dad always said you'd be at the criminal bar by thirty." "My dad said a lot of things." "He did." Catrin drank. "Are you not, then?" "No." The silence went on about a half-second too long. "I do deliveries," Rory said. "For a restaurant off Gerrard Street. Golden Empress. And some other bits." She watched Catrin work at it — the coat, the flat above the bar, the cider at eleven on a Tuesday, the delivery bag with its lid hanging open — trying to fit it into the girl who used to correct the seminar tutor and get away with it. Rory could have helped her. She could have said, *I've a boss who taught me to notice which side of a street a man walks on, and I've been useful to him twice in ways I'll never explain, and I'm the calmest I've ever been in my life.* She didn't say any of it. Some things you don't hand over just because the person asking used to hold your hair back. "You look well," Catrin said instead. "You look — you seem calm." "I am, mostly." "You were never calm." "No," Rory said. "I wasn't." Catrin turned the glass again. Under the bar light her rings gave off little flat sparks — engagement, wedding, one on the other hand with a stone in it. "You got married." "August. Owain. He's in insurance, don't ask, he's lovely." Catrin's thumb moved over the band. "You'd have been on the list, you know. If I'd had any way of finding you. Your mam wouldn't give me a number." "She doesn't have one." "Right," Catrin said, and then, much more quietly, "right." And there it was: the thing, arriving in the room the way weather arrives, without either of them naming it. Rory felt her right thumb find the little crescent scar on her left wrist and press it, the way she did, the way she'd been doing since she was nine. "He's in Bristol now," Catrin said. "I know." "You know." "I make it my business to know." Catrin nodded at the bar top. Her jaw did something. "I saw him. Last spring. Rugby thing of Owain's, and he was there, and he came over and asked after you like you were a mutual friend who'd moved abroad." She stopped. "I said I didn't know. Which was true. And then I stood there and talked to him about the Six Nations for twenty minutes, Rory. Twenty minutes." Rory watched her own hands. There were things she could have said. *You saw the bruise on my arm in the Woodville in March and you said, ooh, rough night, and everyone laughed, and I laughed.* *I rang you in June and you said he adores you, you know, everyone can see it.* *I didn't go to you when I went. I went to Eva. Do you know how long it took me to notice that I never once considered going to you?* But Catrin was thirty-one years old with ruined shoes and a small white wine, sitting in a stranger's bar in the rain because she couldn't face her own flat, and none of it would have made a scrap of difference now, and anyway it was two years too late for either of them to be forgiven. "The Six Nations was good last year," Rory said. Catrin let out a breath that was almost a laugh, and it broke a little in the middle. "It was, aye." They sat with it. Silas moved down the bar to the sleeping man and woke him with great gentleness and put him in a taxi, and the door let in a gust of cold and let out the light onto the wet pavement, green. "I should go," Catrin said eventually. She dug in the tote, produced a card, set it on the bar and pushed it an inch towards Rory with two fingers, like it might be refused. "That's my direct line. Not the switchboard. I'm — if you ever needed anything. Legal. Or not legal." "Thanks." "Will you use it?" Rory looked at the card. Embossed. Heavy stock. *Catrin Pryce, Senior Associate.* "Probably not," she said. Catrin nodded, and it was the least surprised nod Rory had ever seen, and somehow that was the saddest part of the whole night. She stood, buttoned the camel coat, picked up the strangled umbrella. At the door she stopped. "You were the best of us," she said, not turning round. "You know that, don't you. In that whole horrible year group. You were the best of us." Then she was out in it, and the neon made her briefly green, and then she was gone up towards Old Compton Street. Rory sat with the card under her finger for a long time. Silas came back down the bar and refilled her glass without being asked, and didn't ask, and stood there a moment with his cloth and his silver ring catching the light. "Old friend?" he said. "Old," she said. "Yes." He nodded once and went back to his crossword, and she looked up at the wall, at all those photographs of people on bridges, all of them facing the camera, none of them named.