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The rain had been coming sideways all evening, the kind that got in under a collar and stayed there, and by nine Rory had stopped pretending her jacket was waterproof. She came in through the Nest's side door with the insulated bag still slung across her chest, red vinyl gone black at the seams, GOLDEN EMPRESS peeling off it in gold letters that had never quite survived the first winter. The green neon above the entrance threw its light out into the wet street behind her, and for a second her shadow went ahead of her across the floorboards, long and green and shivering. "Two left," she said to Silas. "Frith Street and then a man on Bateman who's going to tell me the soup was cold." "Was it?" "It was cold when Yu-Fei made it. She's making a philosophical point about winter melon." Silas grunted, which was as close as he came to laughing before eleven. He was moving along the back of the bar with that hitch in his left leg he never mentioned and never hid, wiping down the taps, the silver signet ring on his right hand ticking softly against the metal. The walls behind him crowded with maps — Vienna, Trieste, a 1954 street plan of Prague foxed brown at the folds — and the black-and-white photographs of people who did not, as a rule, look at the camera. "You've a customer waiting on you," he said. "Corner booth. Been there an hour with one gin and a face." "I'm not on shift here." "Wasn't offering you work." He set the cloth down. "She asked if the girl who lives upstairs was Welsh." Rory turned. The woman in the corner booth had a laptop bag on the seat beside her and a wool coat folded over that, the good kind, charcoal, the sort that held its shape. Her hair was cut to the jaw and coloured a shade of brown that had cost money to look uncontroversial. She had a wedding band. She had a lanyard she'd forgotten to take off, tucked half into her blouse, and when she looked up her eyes did the thing eyes do when they arrive somewhere ahead of the rest of the face. "Rory," she said. The bag slid off Rory's shoulder and she caught it by the strap without looking. "Cerys." Six years, Rory thought, and the arithmetic came so fast it frightened her. Six years and four months, and the last time she'd seen that face it had been upside down, hanging over the arm of a sofa in Roath at four in the morning, one eyebrow pierced twice, a smear of oil paint dried into the knuckle of her thumb, saying *law is just crossword puzzles for cowards, Aurora, don't you dare*. "Sit down," Cerys said. "God. Sit down, you're dripping." Rory sat. The vinyl squeaked. Between them the table held a ring of water, a coaster gone soft, a phone face-down and buzzing. "You look —" Cerys started. "Don't." "I was going to say *well*." "You were going to say *different*." "I was going to say well and then I was going to lie about it." Cerys smiled, and there it was — the old smile, crooked on the left, the one that used to precede terrible ideas. It surfaced and went under again. "You cut your hair." "It's the same hair. It's just clean." "There we are, then." The pierce marks in her eyebrow had closed to two faint dents you'd have to know to look for. Rory looked for them. She found herself doing an inventory the way she did with a delivery address, checking the numbers, and every number was wrong. The nails were short and unpainted. The blouse had a collar. On the laptop bag, in a plastic sleeve, a strip of card: C. MORGAN — PRITCHARD LOWE LLP, and beneath it a floor number, which meant a building, which meant a lift, which meant a life. "Pritchard Lowe," Rory said. Cerys drank. "Commercial. Contract disputes, mostly. Shipping. It's not — " She stopped. "It's very boring and they pay me obscenely and I have a pension. Say it." "I wasn't going to say anything." "You've said four things with your face already." "You told me law was crossword puzzles for cowards." "I did." Cerys turned the glass a quarter-turn on the wet ring. "I was twenty-one and my dad was still paying my phone bill. It's easy to be brave on someone else's money." She looked up. "You were going to be a barrister." "I was going to be my father." "You were going to be *good*. You were so good at it it was obscene. You used to take apart a case in the pub, on a napkin, while I was still finding the seminar room." She said it lightly, and the lightness didn't hold. "I'm in London three days a month. I've been in London three days a month for four years. Rory, I have walked past that green sign — I've walked past it — " "It's a nice sign." "Stop it." Rory stopped it. Behind her a glass went into the sink; Silas had turned the radio down to a rumour. "I deliver food," she said. "For a woman called Yu-Fei who thinks I'm an idiot but a useful one. I live above this bar. There's a window over Old Compton Street and in the summer you can hear everything anyone in Soho has ever felt." She heard her own voice arranging itself into something wry and neat, a shape she could hand over. "I'm all right, Cerys." "You didn't say goodbye." There it was. It came out flat, without any of the barrister's timing Cerys had never wanted and now surely had, and it landed the way flat things land. "No," Rory said. "Your mum rang me. Twice. In one night. The second time she was — " Cerys pressed her lips together. "And I said, Jennifer, she'll have gone to Eva's, and she said, Eva says no, and I sat on the stairs until it got light." She was looking at the coaster. "Evan came to the flat. Did you know that? Ten days after. Stood in the doorway with a bag of your books, being so reasonable about it. Being so *worried* about you. I made him tea." Her mouth twisted. "I made him tea, Rory, and I told him I'd let him know if I heard anything, because I didn't know yet — nobody had told me anything, you hadn't told me anything — and then in March I heard the rest of it from someone's sister at a wedding." The rain hit the window in a handful, like gravel. "I couldn't tell you," Rory said. "I know." "If I'd told one person I'd have told everyone. That's how I'm built. Eva said get in the car and I got in the car and I have never in my life done anything so intelligent." Under the table she was holding her own left wrist, thumb over the small crescent scar there, the one she'd had since she was nine and a garden wall and a milk bottle. "And then it was a month, and then it was a year, and after a year the not-telling had a shape and I couldn't — I didn't know how to walk into it and say *hello*. Everything I could think of to say sounded like an excuse." "It would have been an excuse. I'd have taken it." Cerys laughed, wetly, once. "I'd have taken anything. A postcard. A postcard with nothing written on it." "Yes." "I stopped painting, you know." "Cerys." "Not because of you, don't be vain, I stopped because I wasn't good and I hate not being good at things, and being not-good in public is — anyway." She wiped her thumb under one eye and examined it, and seemed satisfied. "But I did think, for a while, that if you could just *stop*, if a person could simply stop being someone, then probably the whole thing was less serious than I'd been treating it. So I got serious about something else instead. I have a mortgage in Pontcanna and a husband who does the accounts for a chain of garden centres and he is kind to me every single day and I still put my coat on some nights and stand outside the house." Rory said nothing. Across the room Silas set a small glass of whisky on the bar, near the end, without looking at either of them, and went to see to the bookshelf that was not entirely a bookshelf. "You'd like him," Cerys said. "That's the worst of it. You'd have been at the wedding." "I'd have made a speech." "You'd have made a horrifying speech." They sat with that. The neon buzzed. Somewhere above them a pipe knocked twice, the flat settling into its evening. "I've two deliveries," Rory said at last, and hated herself for the relief in it. "Course you have." Cerys took a pen from the laptop bag, turned the soft coaster over, and wrote a number on it in small, disciplined handwriting that Rory did not recognise at all. She slid it across. "It's the same number. I never changed it. Six years, and I never changed it, in case." Rory put it in the breast pocket of the wet jacket, where the paper would be ruined by Bateman Street and would not matter, because she already knew the number by heart.