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The green neon of the Raven's Nest buzzed against the November dark as Rory shouldered through the door, delivery bag still slung over one shoulder, rain beading on her jacket. She'd only meant to cut through to the stairs — her flat was up there, her kettle, her dry socks — but the warmth of the place caught her, the low murmur of a Tuesday crowd, the smell of wood polish and old beer, and she stood a moment longer than she needed to. That was when she saw him. He was at the far end of the bar, beneath the framed map of the Danube, and for a few seconds her brain refused to assemble the parts into a person she knew. The suit, for one thing — charcoal, cut close, the kind that cost more than her rent. The hair, thinner than it had any right to be at twenty-six. But then he turned his head and the profile clicked into place like a key in a lock, and Rory was back in a seminar room in Cardiff with rain on the windows and someone sliding a paper crane across the desk toward her. "Rhys?" He looked up. She watched the recognition travel through him — slower than hers had been, as if he had further to come back from. His face did something complicated, surprise and pleasure and something warier underneath, all of it arriving and departing in the time it took him to set down his glass. "Rory Carter." He was on his feet, laughing a little, a sound she remembered. "No. You're joking." "In the flesh." She shifted the delivery bag on her shoulder, suddenly conscious of it, of the Golden Empress logo peeling off the nylon. "What are you doing in London?" "Working. Living. The usual catastrophe." He gestured at the stool beside him, and she found herself taking it, unshouldering the bag, setting it on the floor between her feet like an animal she wasn't sure would behave. "God, look at you. You look — you look well." It was a lie, kindly meant, and they both knew it. She looked tired. She looked like someone who delivered other people's dinners for a living and slept above a bar. But she returned the inspection and found she couldn't offer the lie back. He looked terrible in the way successful people could look terrible — polished to a high gloss over something hollow. The boy who'd folded paper cranes in jurisprudence lectures had been sanded down to this: cufflinks, a watch she couldn't name but recognized the breed of, eyes that moved around the room even while they were pointed at her. "You look like a barrister," she said. "I am a barrister." He said it with a grin that didn't quite survive contact with her expression. "Commercial chambers, Gray's Inn. Four years now." "Your father must be insufferable about it." "Your father must be insufferable about it too," he said, gently, and there it was — the first stone dropped into the pond. Brendan Carter, who had called her choice to leave Pre-Law a squandering, who had not called at all in two years. Rory let it pass. Silas appeared at her elbow without seeming to have crossed the room, his limp so slight you'd only catch it if you knew to look, the silver signet on his right hand catching the light as he set a glass of red in front of her that she hadn't ordered. "On the house," he said, hazel eyes moving once between her and Rhys, reading the whole scene in the time it took to wipe the bar. Then he was gone, back to the other end, leaving them in a privacy he'd manufactured out of nothing. Rory was grateful. It was the kind of thing Silas did — small mercies delivered like drinks. "So," Rhys said. "You're in London. Eva said you might be, but — " "You talked to Eva?" "She rang me. Last year. Looking for you, actually, before — " He stopped. Recalibrated. "She was worried. We all were, Rory. You vanished." The wine was good. Better than what she drank usually. She took her time with a sip and watched the old photographs on the wall behind the bottles — black-and-white faces, long dead, all of them apparently mid-sentence, all of them with secrets. "I didn't vanish," she said. "I moved. People move." "You left in the middle of the night. You changed your number." His voice stayed level, lawyerly, but his thumb was working at the base of his glass, a small circular motion she remembered from exams. "Evan said you'd had some kind of breakdown. He told everyone that." Rory felt the crescent scar on her left wrist go cold, the way it sometimes did, as if the skin remembered the weather of its making. She turned her wrist over slowly on the bar, palm up, and looked at him until he looked at it. "Is that what you believed?" she asked. Rhys was quiet for a long moment. Somewhere behind them, someone laughed; the neon sign hummed its green hum through the window. "No," he said finally. "Not after — no." "Not after what?" He didn't answer right away. He took off his watch, an oddly boyish gesture, and set it on the bar, face down, like a man in a card game conceding a hand. "Not after I saw you at Catrin's birthday. That last year. You jumped when he touched your shoulder. You jumped, and then you laughed, and I told myself the laugh was the real thing." He turned the watch over. Turned it back. "I was at his wedding, you know. Last spring. Swansea. He married a girl who works at his firm. Twenty-three. I stood at the back of that church and I watched her say the vows and all I could think was that I'd seen you jump, and I'd done the arithmetic, and I'd decided the answer wasn't my business." The bar noise went on around them, indifferent and warm. Rory found she was holding her glass very tightly and made herself loosen her fingers. "Why are you telling me this?" "Because you're here." He looked at her then, really looked, and for a second she saw the seminar room again, the paper crane, the boy who'd once told her she argued like a knife fight and meant it as the highest praise he owned. "And because I got everything, Rory. That's the joke. Chambers, the flat in Clerkenwell, the watch — it's a Patek, if you were wondering, my father cried when he gave it to me — and I sit in conference rooms billing six-minute units of my life to people I'd cross the street to avoid, and I think about you constantly. Not like that." A flicker, quickly gone. "Or — not only like that. I think about the fact that you were the one who got out. Of all of us, you were the one who said no, and it cost you everything, and it cost me nothing, and somehow — " He stopped. Picked up his glass. Set it down without drinking. "Somehow I got the bill anyway." "Rhys." She didn't know what she was going to follow it with. The name just came out, soft, the way she'd said it a hundred times across library tables. "You could have called me," he said. "That's all. That's the thing I've carried. You could have called me, and I would have — " He stopped again, and she watched him hear himself, watch him catch up to his own sentence and find its end missing. "I would have done something. I tell myself that." "I know," Rory said. And then, because it was true and because truth was the only currency she had left that he seemed to want: "I almost did. There was a night — I had your number typed in. My thumb was on the button." "What stopped you?" She thought about it. It deserved a real answer, and she gave it one. "You were doing so well. Your whole life was going so exactly right. And I was a grenade." She shrugged, one shoulder, the delivery bag nudging her ankle. "I couldn't throw myself at it." "You weren't a grenade." His voice cracked slightly on the second word, and he covered it by reaching for his glass, and this time he drank. "Christ. You were the only person in that whole faculty who ever said a true thing out loud. Do you remember — you stood up in Hart's jurisprudence seminar and said that law was just gossip with enforcement powers, and old Pemberton nearly had a stroke, and everyone laughed — " "— and you folded me a crane with a guilty plea written on it," she finished, and she was laughing too, suddenly, actually, the sound strange in her own mouth, a muscle she'd let go slack. "I kept thinking you'd come back," he said. "Finish the degree. Get called. I had this whole picture of us on opposite sides of some enormous case, destroying each other in court, going for drinks after." "And instead you get me smelling of sesame oil in a spy bar in Soho." "A what?" "Nothing." She smiled into her wine. Down the bar, Silas was polishing a glass that didn't need polishing, not looking at them with tremendous dedication. "For what it's worth, Rhys — the picture you had? I had it too. Some nights I still have it. Me in a wig. My father finally quiet." She turned the scar on her wrist toward the light, looked at it, looked back at him. "But that person wouldn't have survived Evan. The one who survived is this one. She delivers noodles and sleeps above a bar and doesn't argue with anyone, and I like her. I'm just getting to where I like her." Rhys nodded slowly. He picked up the Patek and turned it over in his hands — the watch his father had wept over — and for a moment she thought he might say something grand, something that would ruin it. Instead he put it back on his wrist, fastened the clasp, and said, "The cranes. I stopped folding them the week you left. Haven't made one since. My hands forgot how." "Mine too," Rory said, though it wasn't quite true — she'd tried, once, in her first month in the flat upstairs, sitting on the floor with a takeaway menu, and had produced something lopsided and wounded-looking that she'd thrown away. Maybe that was the truest version after all. They sat with it. The rain thickened against the window, the neon bleeding green through the glass. He stayed for one more drink, and they talked about smaller things — Catrin's twins, the professor who'd married his research assistant, the curry house on Crwys Road that had burned down, which felt to both of them like news from a country they'd been exiled from rather than one they'd left. When he finally stood and shrugged into his overcoat, he didn't ask for her number, and she didn't offer it, and there was a strange completeness in that, a thing finished properly for once. He paused at the door, haloed briefly in green light. "For what it's worth," he said, "the one who got out — she's the one I'd want beside me in court. She always was." Then the door swung shut and he was gone into the rain. Rory sat for a while, turning her empty glass. Silas came down the bar with his quiet limp and refilled it without asking, his signet ring clicking once against the stem. "Old friend?" he said, in the tone of a man who had already drawn his own map of the evening and was only asking out of courtesy. "Old country," Rory said. She thought of the lopsided crane in her bin, two years gone, and of her thumb hovering over a phone button on a bad night, and of how close she had come — how close anyone came — to being someone else entirely. "You couldn't have known him." Silas grunted, a sound that held, as his sounds often did, an entire unspoken paragraph about the people he had once been unable to know. He left the bottle on the bar beside her and went back to his polishing, and Rory sat beneath the dead faces on the wall, mid-sentence, all of them, keeping their secrets, keeping hers.