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The green neon from the sign outside bled through the window and pooled on the bar's mahogany like something spilled. Rory was halfway through her second gin when the door opened and let in the cold, and with it a woman in a camel coat who stood for a moment blinking in the dimness, the way people did when they came in off the street expecting a different kind of place. Rory knew her by the way she held her chin before she knew her by her face. Carys Bowen. Six years gone and still standing like the room owed her an apology. Silas was down at the far end of the bar polishing glasses that were already clean, and Rory felt rather than saw his attention shift — that small, calibrated stillness he had, the old habits of a life he didn't talk about. He noticed everyone who came through the door. He noticed who noticed Rory. Carys saw her then. The recognition moved across her face in stages, like weather: confusion, certainty, and then something Rory couldn't read fast enough to defend against. "No," Carys said. "No, actually, no." "Hello, Carys." "Rory Carter." Carys came toward her with her coat still buttoned, heels loud on the old boards. "I have been — do you know how long — " She stopped. She was doing the maths in her head, Rory could see it, counting the years the way you'd count stairs in the dark. "Six years. You vanished. People thought — " She stopped again, and Rory watched her decide not to finish that sentence. "People thought a lot of things," Rory said. "Sit down. You look like you're waiting for a train." Carys sat. She unbuttoned the camel coat but kept it on, and Rory understood: one foot still out the door. Some things didn't change. At university Carys had been the one who always knew where the exits were, who planned her nights out the way other people planned careers — which, to be fair, she'd also planned. Up close, the years had been kind to her in the obvious ways and unkind in the subtler ones. She was polished now, glossed, her hair a colour that cost money to maintain. There were lines at the corners of her eyes that hadn't been there at twenty-two, when they'd shared a mildewed flat in Cathays and a bottle of something awful every Friday. "So you're in London," Carys said. "Apparently." "You're living here? Working here?" A glance around — the old maps on the walls, the photographs, the low amber light. "In this bar?" "Above it, actually." Rory turned her glass on the bar top. The crescent scar on her left wrist flashed white in the neon light, and she turned her hand so it didn't. "I do deliveries. For a restaurant in Chinatown. The Golden Empress." She watched Carys receive this. Watched her rearrange it, try to fit it into the shape of the Rory she'd known — the Rory who'd been headed for the Bar, who'd argued seminar leaders into corners for fun, whose father used to ring the flat phone and ask for her by her full name like a summons. "Deliveries," Carys said. "It's honest work." "I didn't say — " Carys stopped, folded her hands. "I'm sorry. It's a shock, that's all. You're the last person I expected to find pulling pints in Soho." "I don't pull pints. Silas pulls pints." Rory raised her voice slightly. "Si, this is Carys. We were at university together. Carys, Silas. He owns the place and he lets me live upstairs out of some uncharacteristic lapse in judgment." Silas came down the bar with his slight limp, the left knee giving him that small roll in his gait, and set a glass in front of Carys without being asked. "On the house," he said. His hazel eyes moved over her the way they moved over everyone — once, thoroughly — and then he smiled, and it was a good smile, warm and entirely unrevealing. "Any friend of Rory's." "That's a generous category," Rory said. "You're in a mood." But he said it fondly, and poured white wine into Carys's glass though she hadn't ordered it, and retreated down the bar with his cloth and his clean glasses, close enough to hear and far enough to pretend he wasn't. Carys turned the wine glass but didn't drink. "I looked for you, you know. After. We all did. Your mum — " "Don't." "She came to my chambers, Rory. My actual chambers, in Cardiff, two years ago, asking if I'd heard from you. I had to tell her I hadn't. I had to watch her face while I said it." The bar sounds went on around them — someone's laugh at a corner table, ice in a shaker — but they'd thinned somehow, gone distant, the way sound did when your whole attention narrowed to a point. Rory looked at the map on the wall opposite, some nineteenth-century survey of a coastline that had probably changed since. All those careful lines drawn by men who'd believed the world would hold still long enough to be measured. "I ring her," Rory said. "Every month. She knows I'm alive. She knows I'm in London." "Does she know why you left?" "Does anyone?" Rory drank. The gin was cold and clean and did nothing. "You were there, Carys. Third year. You knew Evan." "I knew you went quiet," Carys said carefully. "I knew you stopped coming out. I knew you started wearing long sleeves in May." A pause. "I knew, and I didn't say anything, because you were my friend and I was a coward about it. I've had six years to think of better ways to have handled that, and believe me, I've thought of all of them, usually at three in the morning." There it was. The thing under the thing. Rory had wondered, sometimes, on the back of the delivery bike in the rain, whether any of them had seen it happening. Whether the slow closing of her had been visible from outside, like a house going dark room by room. Apparently it had. Apparently Carys had stood outside that house and not knocked. "You couldn't have stopped it," Rory said. "I wouldn't have let you." "I know. That's what I tell myself." Carys finally drank, a quick, practiced swallow. "Do you know what I did after you left? I kept your notes. Your contract law notes, from second year — the ones with the colour coding and the little rants in the margins. I used them for my own revision. I still have them in a box somewhere. You were better than me, Rory. You were better than all of us, and I built half my career on your margin notes, and every time I stood up in court for the first two years I thought about you and wondered where the hell you were." "I'm delivering dumplings," Rory said. "If that helps. Karmically." "It's not funny." "It's a bit funny." "Rory." Carys turned on the stool to face her properly, and there was the girl from the Cathays flat under all the gloss, the one who'd cried at Rory's twenty-first birthday for reasons neither of them could reconstruct the next morning. "Are you all right? Actually all right. Not the version you give people." Rory thought about the flat upstairs, small and hers, the door that locked from the inside. The smell of the restaurant kitchen, Yu-Fei shouting at the fryers in Cantonese. Silas downstairs every night like a load-bearing wall. The mornings she woke up and the first thing she felt was the shape of the day, her own, no one else's. "I'm all right," she said. "I'm not what I was going to be. But I'm all right." Carys nodded slowly. She looked down at her hands, folded around the wine glass, and when she spoke again her voice had gone quieter, aimed at the bar top rather than at Rory. "I became everything I was going to be," she said. "That's the joke. I got the chambers and the flat in Pontcanna and the fiancé — well, he left in March, actually, took the good knives, which tells you everything. And I sit in my very nice office and I think about you disappearing, and I think at least one of us got out of the script. Even if it cost you everything. Even if it nearly killed you." She looked up. "I envied you. That's the terrible thing I've been carrying around. I mourned you and I envied you at the same time." The neon hummed. Down the bar, Silas turned a glass in the cloth, and Rory understood suddenly that he'd heard every word, that he'd been standing there letting her be seen by someone from the before, that this was its own kind of care. "Stay for another," Rory said. "Tell me about everyone. Tell me about the knives." Carys laughed, and it cracked on the way out, and she drank her wine, and for a while they were just two women at a bar in Soho with six years lying on the wood between them, heavy as a door neither of them knew how to close.