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The green neon of the Raven's Nest hummed through the window glass, tinting the rain-slicked pavement the colour of deep water. Rory pushed through the door with a delivery bag still slung over her shoulder, smelling of sesame oil and wet wool, and Silas glanced up from the taps with the slight nod that served as his entire vocabulary of greeting. It was nearly eleven. The dinner crowd had thinned to a handful of regulars hunched over their pints like figures in an old photograph — fitting, given the walls. She was halfway to the stairs when she heard her name. Not Rory. The other one. "Laila?" Only one person in the world had ever called her that, in that particular Welsh lilt, stretching the vowels like taffy. Rory stopped with her hand on the banister. The woman rising from the corner booth was blonde now. That was the first thing, the superficial thing, the thing Rory seized on because the rest of it was harder to look at directly. Eva had been dark-haired all through childhood, all through university, all through those last terrible months in Cardiff when she'd been the one voice on the phone telling Rory to get out, get on a train, come to London. The blonde was expensive, glossed to within an inch of its life. So was the coat draped over the booth's bench — camel-coloured, real wool, the kind of coat that cost more than Rory's rent. So was the watch. "Oh my God," Rory said. "Eva." They hugged the way people hug when they've been picturing it for years and find the reality slightly misaligned — a beat too long, an elbow in the wrong place. Eva smelled of perfume Rory didn't recognise. Under it, faintly, cigarettes. Eva had never smoked. "Sit, sit, sit. God, look at you. What are you — is that a delivery bag?" Eva laughed, and the laugh was the old laugh, and for a second Rory was eighteen again, sharing chips on a wall overlooking the bay. "You're delivering food?" "Among other things." Rory slid into the booth, set the bag down, suddenly aware of every smell she carried. "I live upstairs, actually. Above the bar. What are you doing in Soho?" "A client dinner that went long. I ducked in here to hide from the rain and — " Eva gestured at the dim room, the maps, the whole improbable machinery of chance. "You live above a bar called the Raven's Nest. Of course you do. That's so you." "Is it?" "Was. Is. I don't know." Eva signalled the bar with a practised flick of two fingers. "Two of whatever's good. Do they do wine here? They look like a whisky place." "Silas does everything. He's particular about it." When the drinks came — whisky, because Eva had been right, it was that kind of place — Rory studied her friend across the rim of the glass. The changes kept arriving in layers, like a photograph developing. The blonde. The watch. The careful, polished stillness of her, the way she'd learned to occupy a booth like a boardroom. And underneath all of it, something Rory couldn't name at first: a tightness around Eva's eyes that hadn't been there at twenty-two. The face of someone who'd spent years being evaluated and had learned to evaluate back. "So. Lawyer?" Rory asked. "Corporate. Mergers, mostly. Partner track, if you can believe it. Cardiff feels like a past life." Eva turned her glass in a slow circle. "And you? The delivery thing is — between things, right? You were always going to — " She stopped. Recalibrated. "What happened with the law?" "Nothing happened with it. I just never wanted it and eventually I stopped pretending." It came out flatter than Rory intended. "I'm working on things. Writing, actually." "Writing." Eva's face did something complicated — delight and confusion and something almost like fear, all trying to surface at once. "God, of course. You used to write those stories, do you remember? In sixth form. You made me read them in the common room and I'd have to pretend I hadn't cried." "You did cry." "I did cry," Eva admitted, and they both laughed, and for a moment the booth held the two girls they'd been, and it was easy. It didn't last. It couldn't. The silence that followed had weight to it, the specific weight of seven years and the question neither of them had asked yet. "I looked for you," Eva said finally. "After London. After you — after the Evan thing. You went dark. Changed your number. I told you to come here and then I couldn't find you. I thought — " She broke off, jaw working. "I thought I'd done something wrong. Or not done something. I kept going over it." Rory stared into her whisky. The crescent scar on her left wrist itched, the way it did when she was lying to herself. "You didn't do anything wrong. You saved my life, Eva. That's not — I'm not being dramatic. You saved my life." "Then why?" "Because you knew me." The words came out before Rory could sand them down. "You knew who I was, and I couldn't be that person anymore, and I couldn't explain that without — everyone who knew me before was a mirror. I couldn't look at any of them. It wasn't you. It was never you." Eva was very still. Then she reached across the table and took Rory's hand, and her grip was exactly the same as it had been when they were nine years old, crossing a road. "You know what the worst part is?" Eva said quietly. "I understood. I understood so well it scared me. Because I did the same thing, just in the other direction. I didn't disappear. I — I performed. I built this." A small gesture at the coat, the watch, the blonde. "Piece by piece. And it works, Rory, it works so well, and some nights I stand in my kitchen in my flat in Canary Wharf and I cannot for the life of me remember which parts are me. And then tonight I walk into a random bar to get out of the rain, and there's this girl with a delivery bag who looks at me like she can see straight through every piece of it, and I almost walked out. Did you know that? I almost left." Rory turned her hand over, squeezed back. "Why didn't you?" "Because you were the last person who knew which parts were me." Eva's eyes shone. She didn't cry; Rory suspected she'd trained herself out of it, somewhere along the partner track. "And I miss her. God, Rory. I miss her so much, and I don't even know if she's worth missing, that's the thing. You ran from your old self and I buried mine, and here we both are. Neither of us is who we were. I just don't know if either of us is anyone yet." Behind the bar, Silas was drying glasses with unhurried precision, his limp shifting his weight as he moved, his signet ring catching the low light. He didn't look at them. He had the professional's gift for not looking, for letting a booth become a confessional. Rory made a note to thank him later. "I'm someone," Rory said. "I'm not finished, but I'm someone. It took the disappearing to find that out. I think — " she chose the words carefully, the way she'd choose them on a page " — I think you only get to miss the old you if you're willing to let the new one out occasionally. She doesn't have to stay buried. She's not dead, Eva. She's just not allowed out past Canary Wharf." Something cracked open in Eva's face, and the laugh that came out of her was wet and startled and entirely real. "There's the girl from the common room." "She delivers noodles now." "Shut up." Eva wiped her eyes with the heel of her hand, careless of the mascara, which was maybe the most Eva-like thing she'd done all night. "Give me your number. And I mean it this time. I don't care if you change it again — I'll find this bar, I know where you live now, I'll stand outside under that terrifying green sign and shout 'Laila' until you come down." "That would work," Rory admitted. "That's a horrifyingly effective threat." "I'm a lawyer." They exchanged numbers like a treaty, thumbs on screens, heads bent close. Outside, the rain softened to a drizzle, and the neon buzzed on, painting them both, briefly, the colour of something still growing.