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The rain had followed her all the way from Bayswater, and the green neon of the sign above the door bled down the wet glass in long, wavering streaks, so that for a moment the raven looked like it was drowning. She came in through the side entrance, her jacket over her head, and shook it out over the mat before hanging it on the hook beside the till. Silas looked up from his crossword. He had a pencil behind his ear and his signet ring catching the lamplight as he turned the page. "You look like a drowned cat," he said. "Noted." "Pot's still warm." She poured herself a tea, no sugar, and carried it to the far end of the bar, where the old maps of the Kentish coast curled away from the wall and the photographs of men in bad ties stared down through their fixed years. She'd been on shift since ten that morning. Number nine special, extra ribs, wobbling in the panniers all the way to Marble Arch and back, and the bike had nearly gone out from under her at the lights by Oxford Circus, the front wheel sliding on the painted line like a knife on ice. The cold had got into her bones and stayed there. She was three sips into the tea when the door opened and let the noise of the street in, and then a man in a dark suit stepped through and stopped, and stood there dripping on the boards, holding an umbrella he clearly didn't know what to do with. "We're open," Silas said, without looking up. "Though we're not, strictly. Thursday." The man didn't hear him. He had found her, there at the end of the bar, and his face did something complicated — relief and horror arriving at once, fighting for the same piece of ground. "Rory," he said. The name hit her like a dropped plate. She felt her mouth open and the reflex come up out of her, the new reflex, the one that had kept her upright for two years — Laila, I'm Laila, you've got the wrong — but it died in her throat before it reached her teeth. He knew her. He had always known her. He had known her when she was sixteen and thought she'd be a barrister like her father, and when she was nineteen and thought she'd marry a boy called Evan, and when she was twenty-three and thought she'd get out. "Rhys," she said. He came three steps closer, then stopped again, as though he'd reached the end of a tether. He looked wrong. That was the first thing. He was thirty-four, the same as her, but he wore the years like an ill-cut coat. Grey had come in early at his temples, and his cheeks had hollowed, and the suit was a good one — better than anything he'd have owned at university — and it hung on him as if he'd bought it for a larger man and never grown into him. There were shadows under his eyes that no amount of sleep was going to fix. "You're here," he said, stupidly. "You're actually — I saw you through the window. I thought I was — I don't know what I thought." "Have a seat," said Silas, from somewhere behind her, steady as a lamp. "You look like you need one." Rhys looked at him, and something passed between the two men — an assessment, quick and unsentimental — and then Rhys took the stool two down from hers, leaving a space, and set his umbrella against the bar like a man laying down a weapon. "What can I get you?" Silas asked. "Whiskey. Double. No ice." Silas poured it. Rhys looked at it for a long moment before he drank, and when he did drink it was like a man taking medicine. Rory watched his throat move and said nothing. "Two years," Rhys said, when the glass was down. "Two years, Rory." "Two," she agreed. "I looked for you." "Did you." "I rang your mum. Twice. The second time she told me to stop ringing. She said you were fine and it was none of my business and I should — and she was right, obviously, but I didn't stop. I went round to the flat in Cathays. That landlord of yours, the one with the eyebrows — he said you'd left in the night. He said you'd left the furniture. You left the furniture, Rory. Who leaves the furniture?" She turned her cup a quarter-turn on its saucer. "It was rented." "It was yours." "It was a sofa from the British Heart Foundation and a bed I couldn't look at any more." She heard the flatness in her own voice and didn't bother to fix it. Rhys stared at her. Then he laughed, one dry syllable, without any joy in it. "Christ. You even sound different. You used to — " he waved a hand, " — you used to go off like a firework. You couldn't get the words out fast enough. Now you sit there like you're doing sums." She said nothing. She had learned that. It was one of the things she had learned. Silas had taught her some of it — how to be still, how to let a silence do the asking for you — and Evan had taught her the rest, which was not to speak at all. Rhys drank again. "I married Carys," he said. "I know." Eva had told her. Eva told her things in the small careful way you hand a person something fragile. "Year after you left. She wanted you there. She said — she said you'd have been the one to give the speech, and she was right, you would have been, you'd have had them on the floor. I kept a seat." He turned the glass. "There was a seat, and nobody sat in it, and everyone pretended not to notice." "Congratulations," she said, and it wasn't cruelty. It was just the only word she had. "We've got a girl. Nia. She's nineteen months." He pulled out his phone, then stopped, and put it away again, as if showing her a photograph would be a kind of lie. "I'm a prosecutor now. Cardiff. Crown Prosecution Service." "That's what you wanted." Of course it was. He'd been the golden one. He'd come out of Cardiff with a first and a plan and a father who was a judge, and she'd come out with a hangover and a boyfriend who'd learned to put his thumb where it wouldn't show. "It isn't what I wanted," he said quietly. "It's what happened to me while I was waiting for something else." The rain came harder against the window. Somewhere behind them Silas turned a page. "There was a case," Rhys said. "Last year. Woman, thirty-one, two kids. Came in three times. First time she said she'd walked into a door. Second time she said it was the door of the cupboard. Third time she didn't say anything at all, she just looked at me, and I — " He stopped. He pressed the heel of his hand against his eye. "I was tired. I had fifty files. I told her to come back Tuesday. She didn't come back Tuesday." Rory's hand had gone very still around her cup. "I don't know what happened to her," Rhys said. "I don't get to know. I just get to wonder, at two in the morning, what I'd have done if I'd been paying attention. And I do wonder. I wonder about her, and I wonder about you. I've had two years of it, Rory. Two years of lying in the dark next to a woman I love and thinking about the night you rang me." She hadn't rung him. She had rung Eva. She had rung Eva from a bus stop in Roath at half eleven at night with a split lip and her keys in her fist, and Eva had come, and Eva had driven her to London, and she had not rung Rhys, because Rhys was in the Crown Court that week and she hadn't wanted to bother him. "You should have bothered me," he said, as if he could hear her. "You'd have told me to go to the police." "I'd have taken you to the police." "You'd have told me I was being dramatic." She said it without heat. She said it the way you'd read a line off a page you'd read a hundred times. "That's what you said in the pub. When I told you about the door. You said — you said I was probably being dramatic, because I always was, and Evan was a decent bloke, and everyone had rows." Rhys closed his eyes. "Yes," he said. "I know. I've had two years to know." She lifted her cup. Her sleeve fell back, and there it was on her left wrist, the little crescent scar, silver as a fingernail. She saw him see it — the old scar, the one he'd first seen when she was eleven, the one from the swing at the rec that had rusted through in the middle and come apart under her weight, and he'd walked her home bleeding, all the way up Cathedral Road, and told her she was a lunatic for going on it. He looked at that scar and his face came apart very slightly, and she knew what he was thinking, because she was thinking it too. Not that scar. Thank God it was only that scar. "Rory," he said. "Come home." "I'm not coming home." "There's a job at the CPS. I could — " "I'm not coming home, Rhys." Silas set something down in front of Rhys. Not a refill. A slip of paper, the bill, face down. "On the house," he said. "The whiskey. In the morning, you'll be glad you stopped at one." Rhys looked at him, and then at the bill, and understood that he was being told, in the way of certain men, that the conversation had a shape and a length and this was the end of it. He took his wallet out anyway and put a card on the bar — civil service, standard issue, an email address in eleven-point type — and slid it toward her across the grain of the wood. "You don't have to ring," he said. "It's just ink. It doesn't cost anything to have it." She didn't move. He waited a moment. Then he stood, and took up his umbrella, and put his hand briefly on the bar as though for balance, and went out into the rain, and the door swung shut behind him and cut the street noise off like a throat. For a long while neither of them spoke. Silas wiped down the glasses with the slow certainty of a man who had watched a great many conversations end in this room, and maybe in other rooms, in other cities, in a language he no longer spoke. Aurora sat with her hands around her cup and looked at the card on the bar, and let herself feel it: not the loss, which had been hers for a long time and she had made her peace with it, but the other thing, the thing that had been hiding underneath — that somewhere in Cardiff there was a seat at a table that had been kept for her, and she had never sat in it, and now there was a child called Nia who would grow up with a photograph of her mother's wedding and a small stranger in the corner of the frame, and a version of Rory Carter would live in that house like a ghost, remembered better than she deserved. Silas came down the bar and took up the card. He read it, front and back. Then he set it down again, exactly where Rhys had left it, and slid a fresh pot of tea within her reach. "Rain's coming off," he said. "Round about midnight." She nodded. She didn't take the card. She didn't throw it away, either. She sat there with it in front of her, a small rectangle of ink, and let the rain have the last of the night.