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The green neon above the door turned the rain briefly poisonous. Rory paused beneath it, one hand on the strap of her delivery bag, and watched the light ripple across the pavement. The bag smelled of ginger and sesame oil. A little heat still came through the cardboard inside, though she had been walking fast enough to keep the rain off it. She pushed open the door with her shoulder. Warmth and the low murmur of voices reached her first. Then the familiar bar: old maps, black-and-white photographs, lamps with amber shades. The Raven’s Nest held its dusk even at midday. Behind the counter, Silas polished a glass with the slow attention of a man who had never needed to hurry in his life. “You’re early,” he said. “Delivery was close.” “You’re wet.” “Delivery was in London.” His mouth shifted, not quite a smile. “Fair.” Rory slipped off her coat and hung it over the back of a chair near the entrance. She had lived above the bar long enough to know the place’s habits: the loose floorboard by the door, the way the radiator under the front window knocked when the weather turned, the unspoken rule that Silas would pretend not to notice when she came in tired. She set the bag down on the chair and flexed her fingers. The crescent scar on her left wrist showed pale against the damp skin. The bar was nearly empty. A man in a grey suit sat at the far end with his head bowed over a phone. Someone had left a newspaper open on the corner table. Rain tapped the windows with soft, persistent fingers. Then a woman at the counter turned. Rory did not recognize her at first. She saw a narrow face, a dark wool coat, a silver chain at the throat. Hair cut close to the jaw, though the silver at the temples made the style look deliberate rather than severe. The woman’s hands were folded around a glass of water. Then she smiled. “Rory?” The years folded badly. Not neatly, not with any mercy. They came down all at once. “Maeve.” The name left Rory before she had time to decide what to do with it. Maeve stood. She was thinner than Rory remembered, or perhaps only straighter. At school she had slouched over desks, all elbows and ink-stained cuffs, as if the world were a thing she could avoid by making herself smaller. Now she held herself with the careful balance of someone who had spent years refusing to lean on anything. “God,” Maeve said. “It is you.” Rory’s first instinct was to look for a joke, an easy one they could both recognize. Nothing arrived. She crossed the few paces between them and offered a hand, then felt ridiculous and pulled it back. Maeve glanced at the movement. “Still doing that.” “Doing what?” “Starting to shake hands with someone you know, then changing your mind.” “I don’t remember doing that.” “You did it at my mother’s funeral.” Rory felt the floor shift under her, though it didn’t. “I didn’t know what to say.” “You didn’t say anything.” Maeve said it gently. That made it worse. Silas set down the glass he was polishing. His gaze moved from one of them to the other, quiet and alert. “Another drink?” “I’m fine,” Maeve said. “Tea?” he asked Rory. “Please.” He nodded and turned away, leaving them the space without making a show of it. Rory looked at Maeve’s face. “I didn’t know you were in London.” “I’ve been here nearly a year.” “Where?” “Camden. A room that’s smaller than my first-year dorm, and three times as expensive.” “You never liked London.” “I never liked Cardiff by the end, either.” It was meant as a joke, perhaps. Maeve’s mouth curved, but her eyes stayed fixed on Rory, searching for the girl who had once sat beside her on the stone wall behind the library and shared a packet of chips in the cold. Rory tried to find her too. “How have you been?” Maeve’s gaze dropped to the bar. “That’s a dangerous question.” “Then I’ll ask a less dangerous one. What are you doing here?” “I walked past. Saw the sign.” “You used to say it looked like a warning.” “It does.” “It’s a bar.” “It can be both.” Silas brought Rory tea in a white cup. The saucer clicked against the counter. He gave Maeve a brief look, the kind that invited her to ask for something without insisting. Maeve shook her head. Rory took the cup between both hands. The warmth helped. “You look different.” “I am.” The answer was too quick to be defensive and too plain to be an invitation. Rory studied the close-cut hair, the neat coat, the faint hollow beneath Maeve’s cheekbones. There was a small silver ring in her left nostril, something she would have hidden from their teachers and her mother both. The woman in front of her had made choices with her whole body. Rory remembered Maeve’s old, impossible certainty that she would leave Cardiff and become a sound engineer, or a photographer, or someone who worked nights and never had to explain why. “What happened to your hair?” Rory asked. Maeve touched it, almost absently. “Cancer.” The word entered the space between them and sat there. Rory set down the cup. “Maeve—” “Not mine. Mum’s.” Maeve looked toward the rain-streaked window. “It went quickly. She shaved hers before it started falling out. I shaved mine with her.” “Oh.” “She liked it. Said it made her look like a revolutionary.” A small laugh escaped Maeve, dry as paper. “I told her she looked like a woman who’d stopped tolerating everyone’s nonsense. She said those were the same thing.” Rory remembered Maeve’s mother in the kitchen, flour on her wrists, calling them both in from the rain. She remembered the warm smell of bread and the sound of Maeve’s laugh in the back room. She remembered, too, the voicemail she had never returned. “When was it?” Rory asked. “Three years ago.” “I’m sorry.” “I know.” Rory’s hands tightened around the cup. “I should have called.” “You could have.” “I know.” Maeve looked back at her. “I don’t say that to make you feel bad.” “I know.” “I’m saying it because it’s true.” The grey-suited man at the end of the bar laughed once at something on his phone. The sound seemed to belong to another room. Rory had left Cardiff with one suitcase and the idea that a city could be outrun. She had been twenty-two, frightened, furious, and so certain that every old connection was a rope Evan might find and pull. Eva had urged her to come to London; Rory had come. She had meant to write to Maeve once she was settled. Then once things were less strange. Then once she had a job, a flat, a story that did not make her sound foolish for staying too long. Time had become an answer she offered in place of one. “I didn’t know how to explain,” Rory said. Maeve tilted her head. “Explain what?” “That I’d left. That I wasn’t coming back. That I’d let everything get away from me.” “Everything?” Rory looked down at the tea. A thin skin was forming on its surface. “You. Cardiff. The version of myself who thought she knew what she wanted.” Maeve’s face softened, but not with forgiveness. “I don’t think either of us knew.” “You always seemed to.” “I was good at saying things confidently.” “You told me you were going to move to Berlin.” “I did move to Berlin.” Rory blinked. “You did?” “For eight months. I worked in a bar, got robbed twice, and came home.” “You never said.” “I did. In a postcard.” “I never got it.” “You moved before I sent it.” That, somehow, landed harder than the rest. Rory imagined a postcard wandering from address to address, unable to find her. A small picture of a city she had never seen, carrying Maeve’s handwriting through the world without either of them. “I’m sorry,” Rory said. Maeve leaned one elbow against the counter. “You’ve said that.” “I mean it.” “I believe you.” Rory looked up. “You do?” “I don’t think you’re a liar, Rory. I think you’re very good at being absent.” She swallowed. “That’s fair.” “I didn’t come here hoping you’d apologize.” “What were you hoping for?” Maeve considered this. Outside, a bus dragged a wash of red light through the rain. “I don’t know,” she said. “Maybe I wanted to see what you looked like now.” “And?” “You look like yourself.” Rory felt the words land in her chest with an odd, tender force. “You don’t.” “No.” “Do you mind?” Maeve’s fingers turned the water glass a quarter turn. “Some days. Most days, not.” “I used to think you’d be the same forever.” “That was one of your less intelligent opinions.” “I had plenty.” “You did.” Maeve’s smile came, this time with something like warmth in it. “You used to think you’d become a barrister and wear silk shirts and make your father proud.” Rory’s eyes dropped to the crescent scar on her wrist. “I thought if I did all the right things, I’d become someone I could stand being.” “Did it work?” “No.” Maeve nodded as if she had expected this. “And now?” “Now I deliver food.” “Is that all?” “No.” Rory lifted her gaze. “I live upstairs. I’m learning what to do with the rest.” Maeve looked around the bar, taking in the photographs, the old maps, Silas behind the counter. “It suits you.” “Does it?” “You always liked places with secrets.” Rory almost asked how she knew that. She had forgotten telling Maeve about the hidden room behind the bookshelf. Or perhaps she hadn’t. Their friendship had held a hundred small confidences, most of them made in kitchens and school corridors, where they had seemed too ordinary to preserve. Silas wiped a clean stretch of counter. His silver signet ring caught the amber light. Rory knew he was listening without seeming to. He had a gift for making silence feel inhabited rather than watched. Maeve took out a small notebook from her coat pocket and set it on the counter. The cover was soft at the corners. “I write things down now.” “What kind of things?” “Things I don’t trust myself to remember.” Rory looked at the notebook. “Is that why you came in?” “No. I came in because of the sign. I stayed because of you.” The words had no accusation in them. Rory wished they did. Anger would have given her something to answer. “I wish I’d been there,” she said. Maeve’s gaze held hers. “You weren’t.” “I know.” “My mum asked about you, at the end.” Rory went still. “She remembered you as the girl who always took the burnt bits of toast because I hated them.” Maeve’s voice had thinned but didn’t break. “She wanted to know if you were happy.” Rory pressed her thumb against the cup’s handle. “What did you tell her?” “That I didn’t know.” The room seemed to narrow around them. Rory had no right to ask whether Maeve had lied, or whether the answer had mattered. “Was she?” “Afraid? Yes. Tired? Yes. In pain, sometimes. Happy—” Maeve breathed out. “She was happy when the sun came through the kitchen window. She was happy when I played old records. She was happy when there were people in the house.” Rory pictured the kitchen: the table scarred by years of knives and hot pans, the window fogging in winter. She could almost hear the crackle of a record. She had been there so many times. She had believed there would always be time to return. “I’m sorry I wasn’t there,” she said again. This time Maeve let the silence hold the apology without turning it into anything else. Rory reached for her tea. It had gone lukewarm. “Would you like to sit down?” Maeve glanced at the empty tables. “If you want.” “I do.” They moved to the table by the window. Rory carried the tea; Maeve carried her water and notebook. They sat opposite each other, the rain making a dim mirror of the street behind them. For a while they talked about smaller things. Maeve’s flat. Rory’s work. The peculiar cruelty of London rent. A mutual friend who had become a dentist. The old school building, now converted into offices. They did not speak of Evan. Rory did not ask about the months Maeve had gone without calling her. There were subjects neither of them had earned the right to touch yet. But the years stayed between them, not as a wall exactly. More like furniture in a narrow room: you could move, if you paid attention, but you could not pretend it wasn’t there. When Maeve stood to leave, Rory rose too. “Can I see you again?” Rory asked. Maeve pulled on her coat. “You can ask.” “I am asking.” “Then yes,” she said. “But don’t make me do all the finding.” “I won’t.” Maeve studied her, perhaps measuring the promise against the person who had made it. At last she leaned in and kissed Rory’s cheek. The gesture was familiar, but not quite the same. Rory smelled rain and wool and the faint, clean scent of soap. “Take care of yourself,” Maeve said. “You too.” Maeve walked to the door. At the threshold she glanced back, and Rory nearly called after her—nearly said that she missed her, that she had missed her for years without knowing how to name it. The words rose and stopped behind her teeth. Maeve lifted one hand. Rory lifted hers. Then the door closed, letting in a brief blade of cold air. The green neon shivered over the glass. Rory sat again. Her tea had cooled completely. She held the cup anyway, feeling the dull warmth that remained in the porcelain, and understood with sudden clarity that regret was not the same as wanting the past back. It was the knowledge that the past had been there, open and ordinary, and that she had walked away from it one day at a time.