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The green neon above the door made the rain look faintly green, as if the whole street had been submerged. Rory stood beneath it with a paper bag tucked under one arm, watching water stream along the gutter. She had finished the last delivery to Golden Empress and was still wearing the restaurant’s dark apron beneath her coat. Steam and chilli clung to the wool. Across the street, a bus sighed away from the kerb, leaving behind a brief red smear on the wet pavement. She could go upstairs. Her flat was above the bar; the stairs were dry, the kettle was waiting, and there was no sensible reason to step inside. Then someone laughed behind the door. Not loudly. Not even happily. A short, surprised sound, cut off before it could become anything. Rory’s hand tightened on the bag. She knew that laugh. She pushed through the door. The Raven’s Nest held its usual half-dark: amber pools of light beneath the lamps, the rest of the room gathered in shadow. Old maps covered the walls, their borders fading into the plaster. Black-and-white photographs watched from between them—men in uniforms, women in hats, a street Rory had never recognised. The place smelled of gin, old wood, and damp coats. At the end of the bar, Silas leaned one hip against the counter, his silver signet ring catching a dull glint as he polished a glass. The woman on the stool beside him had her back to the door. Rory knew her shoulders. She knew the tilt of her head, the little inward curl of her left hand when she listened. She had known those things at seventeen, when they sat together on the sea wall in Cardiff and swore they would leave before the city could make them small. The woman turned. For a moment, Rory saw the girl she had been: Eva with salt in her hair, freckles on her nose, a laugh always about to happen. Then the present settled over her. Her hair was cut close at the nape and longer in front, dark and glossy. A small gold hoop glinted in one ear. Her face had sharpened—not with age exactly, but with decisions. She wore a charcoal suit that fit like a second skin and a white shirt buttoned to the throat. “Rory,” she said. The paper bag shifted under Rory’s arm. “Eva.” Silas’s gaze moved between them. He set down the glass. “I’ll give you a minute.” “You don’t have to,” Rory said. “I know.” He took his time leaving, limping slightly on his left leg. He disappeared behind the bar and through the narrow opening beside the shelves. The hidden bookshelf door clicked shut after him. Eva watched him go. “You live here?” “Above it.” “Of course you do.” “What does that mean?” “It means you always did find a way to live on top of whatever you were trying to escape.” Rory almost smiled. It didn’t quite make it. “And you always did make a joke before saying hello.” “I did say hello.” “You said my name.” “I thought that was hello.” “It’s been eight years.” “Seven.” “Eight.” Eva looked down at the drink before her. Something clear, untouched, with a twist of lemon. “You’re right.” Rory put the paper bag on the bar, careful not to crush the bottom. Her fingers were cold. The small crescent scar at her left wrist showed where her sleeve had ridden up. She tugged it down again. “Are you working?” Eva asked. “Just finished.” “Still delivering food?” “Part-time.” Rory pulled out the stool beside her, then stopped before sitting. “How did you know?” “I saw the apron.” “That’s not exactly detective work.” “No. I suppose not.” Eva’s mouth moved as if she were trying on an expression and had changed her mind. Rory sat. The space between them was no wider than an elbow, but it had the weight of a border. “What are you doing in London?” Rory asked. “I live here.” “You live here.” “I have for three years.” Rory looked at her. “You’ve been in London for three years and you never thought to mention it?” “I didn’t know where you were.” “You knew where I was. You brought me here.” “Years ago.” “You knew I was above this bar.” “I didn’t know if you were still—” Eva broke off, then shook her head. “I’m not going to pretend I had a good reason.” That was the first honest thing she’d said, and it landed between them with the flatness of a stone. Rory looked toward the shelves. Beyond them, Silas was making a careful business of not listening. “You changed your hair.” “You noticed.” “It’s hard not to.” “I needed something that couldn’t be pulled.” The words were quiet. They were also practiced, or Rory thought they were. A sentence with the rough edges rubbed off from being carried too long. “What happened?” Rory asked. Eva glanced at her. “Since when?” “Since Cardiff. Since the last time I saw you.” A bus growled past outside, dragging its reflection across the window. Eva turned the glass by its stem. The liquid inside shifted once, then settled. “Nothing dramatic,” she said. “That’s a lie.” “Yes.” Rory leaned back. The barstool creaked. “You look different.” “You don’t.” “That’s another lie.” “Your hair’s shorter.” “It’s the same length.” “It used to reach your collarbones.” “You remember that?” “I remember everything I wish I didn’t.” Rory felt the old impulse to reach across the gap and touch Eva’s wrist, to prove she was real and not some memory sharpened by years of rehearsal. She kept her hands around the edge of the stool instead. Eva had been there when Rory’s life split open. She had sat on the floor of Rory’s Cardiff room, packing books into a suitcase and saying, You can come to London. You can stay with me. Don’t think, just come. And Rory had gone. She had arrived with a bruised suitcase, a raw heart, and no plan beyond the next hour. Then Eva had disappeared. No fight. No farewell. A handful of messages answered with shorter messages, then not at all. Rory had spent a year telling herself that leaving had been the kindest thing Eva could do. The next year, she called it cowardice. After that, she stopped naming it. “I looked for you,” Rory said. Eva went still. “Not at your parents’ place. I wasn’t going to do that. But I called your old number. I emailed. I asked around.” “I know.” “You know?” “Your emails went to my junk folder for a while. Then I read them.” Rory’s fingers tightened on the stool. “You read them.” “Yes.” “And you didn’t answer.” “No.” “Why?” Eva’s eyes were bright in the low light, though her face remained composed. “Because you asked if I was all right, and I wasn’t. Because I didn’t know how to tell you. Because the more time passed, the more impossible it got. Choose whichever answer hurts least.” “None of them do.” “I know.” Rory had imagined this conversation in so many places: a crowded train station, outside a university library, in the narrow kitchen of the flat they once shared for six weeks. In every version, she said something clean and final. Something that left no room for the other person to become real again. But Eva sat beside her in the Raven’s Nest, and Rory could see the faint half-moon of a scar near her hairline, and the careful way she kept her back to the wall. The person she remembered was still there, perhaps. Or perhaps Rory wanted that badly enough to make it so. “Were you in trouble?” she asked. Eva gave a small laugh without humour. “I was in love.” Rory turned to her. “With someone who needed me to be smaller,” Eva said. “Then someone who needed me to be afraid. By the time I understood that those were the same thing, I’d given them nearly everything.” Rory looked at the untouched drink. “I’m sorry.” “Don’t be. I got out.” “When?” “Two years ago.” “You’ve been free for two years.” Eva’s jaw tightened. “That’s one way to say it.” “How would you say it?” “I’d say I’m learning to sleep through the night.” She drew one finger around the glass. “I’d say I can walk into a room without checking the exits first. I’d say I cut my hair because someone once grabbed it, and then I kept it short because it was mine.” Rory looked at Eva’s white collar, fastened to the top. “And the suit?” “I have a job where people think they know what they’re looking at.” “Do they?” “Sometimes.” “What do you do?” “Legal aid.” The answer had a peculiar weight. Rory thought of her own half-abandoned studies, all the tidy papers and imagined careers laid out by her father. “That suits you.” “Does it?” “You were always arguing.” “I was always trying to get the last word.” “Same thing, in your case.” Eva’s smile came back, brief and recognisable. “You sound like yourself.” “I’m not sure that’s a compliment.” “It wasn’t meant to be.” For a moment, they were seventeen again, trading insults on a wet seawall. Then the moment passed. Rory’s apron scratched at her waist. Eva’s hand remained curled around the drink she hadn’t tasted. “What happened to you?” Eva asked. Rory looked at her. “You know what happened.” “I know what you told me. I don’t know what came after.” After was a flat over a bar, and the particular kindness of a man who never asked for more than she could give. After was learning which doors were safe, which footsteps in the hall belonged to a neighbour and which made her whole body go rigid. After was taking work she could do with her head down and deciding, one morning at a time, that the day belonged to her. “I stayed,” Rory said. “I worked. I got better at being alone.” “That doesn’t sound like you.” “People say that as if it’s a bad thing.” “It isn’t.” “Then what is it?” Eva met her eyes. “A thing I should have been there for.” Rory looked away. Behind the bar, a shelf of bottles caught the lamplight and broke it into amber shards. “You couldn’t have fixed it.” “I know.” “You couldn’t have stopped him.” “I know.” “You don’t get to take responsibility for everything you weren’t there to do.” “I know that too.” “Do you?” Rory’s voice came out sharper than she intended. She lowered it. “Because you’re doing it now.” Eva looked down. The skin beside one thumbnail was torn. She picked at it, then stopped. “I’m sorry I left you with the silence.” Rory felt the apology arrive and found she had nowhere to put it. She had wanted those words. She had spent years not wanting them. Now they were here, simple and unadorned, and the hurt remained exactly where it was. “I was angry,” she said. “I’d be surprised if you weren’t.” “I thought you’d got tired of me.” “I didn’t.” “I thought maybe I’d become too much trouble.” Eva closed her eyes for half a second. “You never were.” Rory swallowed. “I know that now.” The door opened, admitting a gust of rain and cold air. Two men came in laughing and shook water from their coats. Silas reappeared at the far end of the bar, carrying a tray. The ordinary noise of the room gathered around them again. Eva finally lifted her glass. She took a small sip and winced. “That’s awful.” “Then why order it?” “I thought it would make me look calm.” “You look calm.” “I am not calm.” “That’s better.” Eva set the glass down. “Can I see you again?” Rory studied her. The question was too small for all the years behind it, but perhaps that was why she trusted it. It didn’t ask for forgiveness. It didn’t assume the door was open. It only stood on the threshold. “Maybe,” Rory said. Eva nodded, accepting the word without trying to improve it. “Maybe’s fair.” “I don’t want to go back to pretending we can pick up where we left off.” “I don’t either.” “And I don’t want an explanation that makes everything all right.” “It won’t.” “No.” They sat with that. The rain tapped the windows, soft as fingers asking permission. Rory slid from the stool and gathered the delivery bag. “I’m going upstairs.” Eva looked toward the ceiling, as if she could see the flat through it. “Right.” “You know where I am now.” “I do.” It wasn’t a promise. It wasn’t quite an invitation. Rory could feel the difference. She paused beside Eva, close enough to catch the clean scent of soap beneath the rain. “You should eat something. You look like you’ve forgotten how.” Eva’s smile trembled at one corner. “You always did know what to say.” “No. I didn’t.” Rory took the stairs up behind the bar. At the first turn, she looked back. Eva was still at the counter, her face angled toward the door, her hands folded around the glass. She looked older than she had a moment ago. She looked younger, too. The years had not made a clean line between them; they had gathered in the space, layer upon layer, like dust on a map. Rory climbed on. Somewhere below, the bar door opened and shut, letting the rain in for a second time.