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The green neon above the door had been flickering again. Rory noticed it the way she noticed most things at the end of a shift — sideways, without looking up, her mind still counting change and mapping the quickest route between Wardour Street and Old Compton. She pushed through the door with her shoulder, helmet under one arm, the cold of January still clinging to her sleeves. The Raven's Nest was half full. A Tuesday crowd, thin at the edges, clustered warm at the centre where the lamps did their work. Old maps papered the walls from floor to ceiling — London as it was in 1943, the Rhine, some chart of the Baltic that Silas had told her once was worth more than the bar. Black-and-white photographs hung among them: unfamiliar faces in unfamiliar decades, men in trench coats, women on train platforms, a child squinting into the sun on some unnamed coast. Rory had worked here — well, above here — for eight months, and she still hadn't heard the story behind a single photograph. Silas told you things when he decided you'd earned them, and not before. She was halfway to the bar, unzipping her jacket, when someone said her name. Not Rory. The other one. "Aurora?" She stopped. Her fingers stayed on the zipper pull. Nobody in London used that name. Nobody in London knew it except her mother, her father, and the taxman, and her mother and father were in Cardiff and the taxman had no reason to be propping up the end of Silas's bar at half past nine on a Tuesday in a coat that cost more than Rory's rent. The woman slid off the stool. Blonde now — professionally blonde, the kind with dimension and a root shadow that must run two hundred pounds a session — and thinner than memory, cheekbones doing architectural work that softness had once done for free. A silk blouse under the coat. Rings on three fingers. But the mouth was the same. That slightly crooked mouth, the lower lip fuller than the top, the way it did when she was unsure whether she was allowed to want something. "Catrin," Rory said. "Cat." A quick, breathless laugh. "God. Catrin is what my mother calls me when she's angry. It's Cat now. Or Catrin Morgan-Reid, if you're a solicitor or a waiter bringing the bill." Rory crossed the last few feet and let herself be embraced. Catrin — Cat — smelled of bergamot and something woodier beneath it, and her arms were thin and certain. She held on a beat too long, or Rory did. When they separated, both of them stepped back to the same distance, as though an agreement had been reached without discussion. "You work here?" Catrin's gaze travelled over Rory's jacket, the helmet, the delivery bag still hanging from her shoulder. "Above here. And I ride for a restaurant in Chinatown. Golden Empress. Best dumplings in Soho, and I say that objectively." "A delivery rider," Catrin said, and then caught herself — Rory watched the recalibration happen in real time, the flicker behind the eyes, the rearrangement of tone. "That's — that must be lovely, actually. Being outside." "It's freezing and it rains and a taxi nearly killed me on Bishopsgate last week. It's alright." They looked at each other. Twenty years of childhood pressed up against eight months of London, and none of it either of them could say out loud in the first forty seconds. Catrin Callaghan from three doors down in Whitchurch, who'd shared a trampoline and every secret until they were sixteen, who had kissed Rory's cheek at her mother's funeral and said nothing because nothing was the only correct thing to say. "Sit down," Rory said. "I'll get us a drink. Do you still — " "Gin. Yes." "Silas." Rory leaned on the bar. The old man looked up from a glass he'd been polishing to a standard it had probably never possessed. His hazel eyes moved past Rory's shoulder to Catrin, read whatever he read there, and gave away nothing. "Two gins. Her bill's mine." "Your bill is always yours," Silas said mildly, but he was already reaching for the Hendrick's. The silver signet ring caught the light as he turned the bottle, and Catrin watched it with the unconscious attention of someone who appraised jewellery for a living, or lived among people who did. They took a corner table beneath a map of the Portuguese coast. Catrin set her handbag on the second chair — not on the floor, the second chair — and unbuttoned her coat with the particular care of someone who'd learned that clothes were statements. "So," Catrin said. "Cardiff University. Pre-Law. I heard you finished the degree." "I finished it." "And then you just — left?" "Eva helped me leave," Rory said. It came out level, because she'd practised level. Eight months of practice. "There was a situation. Afterwards I didn't want to be in Cardiff. Eva said London. So. London." "A situation," Catrin repeated. She had the grace not to press, or the cowardice. Rory had never been able to decide which was which with Catrin. "You look well, Aurora." "Rory. Please." "Rory." Catrin tested the syllable and smiled at it as though it were in a foreign language she'd once spoken fluently. "God, it's strange. You look exactly the same and completely different. Is that a terrible thing to say?" "It's the most honest thing anyone's said to me all week." The gin arrived. Catrin wrapped both hands around hers. A wedding band sat on her left hand, white gold, a single stone that had opinions about light. Rory saw her see it — see Rory seeing it — and something moved across Catrin's face like weather. "Three years," Catrin said. "James. He's in mergers and acquisitions. We have a house in Sevenoaks. The whole thing. The absolutely whole thing." "Congratulations." "Thank you. It is — " Catrin turned the glass. "It's good. It's a good thing I did. I want to be clear that it's a good thing." "I didn't say it wasn't." "You didn't have to. You've got that face on." "What face?" "The one where you're doing arithmetic." Rory laughed before she could stop it, and the sound surprised them both. There it was — the old frequency, still in the wall somewhere behind the plaster. Catrin's eyes went bright and wet at once and she blinked, hard, and looked at the map of Portugal as though navigating. "I heard about your mother," Catrin said. "Two years ago. My mum told me. I wanted to — I should have written. I should have come." "You were in Edinburgh by then." "I was in Edinburgh by then," Catrin agreed, and something in her voice said that the geography had been the excuse and they both knew it. "She was the best adult. Out of all the adults we had. She was the only one who was any good." "Yes." "My mum still talks about her. Every Sunday. Jennifer this, Jennifer that, as if she's just in the kitchen." Rory drank. The gin was cold and precise and it did not fix anything, but it gave her something to swallow around. Eighteen months of grief had taught her the difference between the things that fixed and the things that just gave you something to swallow around. "And you," Rory said. "You changed your hair." "I changed everything." Catrin said it lightly, but her thumb worried the wedding band. "After school. After — well. You know what I was like. What we were like. And then I got to Edinburgh and I thought, nobody here knows that girl. Nobody here knows I cried during biology every time we did the dissections. So I just. Stopped being her." "Did it work?" The question landed. Catrin held still, the way an animal does when it's deciding whether something is a threat. "It worked," she said. "Good." "It worked, Rory." "I heard you." They drank. Across the bar, Silas wiped down a surface and did not look over, which was its own kind of looking over. He had a limp in his left leg that showed when he walked, and he walked it off with the patience of a man who'd long since stopped expecting the knee to apologise. He moved along the bar now with a tray, and the light caught the grey in his auburn beard, and Catrin watched him with something Rory recognised — the instinctive cataloguing of a person who has spent years learning which men in a room are safe. "How long have you lived here?" Catrin asked. "Above this place?" "Eight months. Silas is — he's kind. In his way. He's quiet and he asks for nothing and he makes sure I eat when I forget." "That's a lot, for a landlord." "He's more than a landlord. I don't have the word for it yet." They were quiet. Somewhere on the wall behind them, a photograph hung of a woman in a headscarf on a step somewhere in Eastern Europe, and she had been frozen mid-glance for fifty years, and her expression was one Rory understood completely: caught between turning away and staying. "I think about it," Catrin said suddenly, voice low. "The summer we were fifteen. Your dad took us to Dún Laoghaire and we swam in water that was absolutely disgusting, and we swore we wouldn't tell anyone how cold it was because it would make us seem weak. I think about that summer more than is reasonable." "So do I." "And I think about — " Catrin stopped. Started again. "I think about the things I didn't say. After school. When you needed someone to say them." Rory set her glass down. She looked at Catrin Callaghan, or Catrin Morgan-Reid, or Cat, or whatever she was now — this fine-boned stranger with someone else's hair and a house in Sevenoaks and a thumb that would not leave her wedding band alone — and she saw the girl who had once talked her through a panic attack on the Whitchurch Road at three in the morning by reciting, of all things, the periodic table, because she said panic couldn't hold two things at once. "You were sixteen," Rory said. "I was a coward." "You were sixteen, Cat." "Those aren't mutually exclusive." Rory reached across the table and put her hand over Catrin's, and felt the wedding band cold against her fingers, and felt the hand beneath it shaking, very slightly, the way hands shake when they've held something in for a decade and someone has finally asked to see it. "No," Rory said. "They're not." They stayed like that a moment. Then Catrin turned her hand over and squeezed once and let go, and picked up her gin, and the moment closed over like water. "I have to go," Catrin said. "James is — there's a thing tomorrow. Early train." "Of course." "But I'd like to — I mean, if it isn't — could I come back? Properly. Not in a coat with somewhere to be." Rory thought about it. She thought about the flat upstairs with its secondhand furniture and her delivery bag by the door and the life she'd built out of errands and quiet, and she thought about what it would mean to let a ghost sit down in it. "Come back Sunday," she said. "Silas does a roast that isn't really a roast. It's more of a theoretical roast. But the potatoes are good." Catrin laughed, and this time it broke open instead of shutting down, and for one bright second she was fifteen again on a pier in Dún Laoghaire with wet hair and no arithmetic in her eyes at all. She put on her coat. She wrote her number on a napkin in handwriting that had been taught to be beautiful and had succeeded. At the door she turned, and the green neon flickered across her face, and she raised one hand. Rory raised hers back. Then she was gone, into the cold, into the black cab that had been waiting — of course there was a cab waiting, there were always cabs waiting for women like Catrin — and Rory sat with two glasses and a napkin and the low murmur of the Nest around her. Silas came and cleared the table. He did not ask. He rarely did. But as he turned away, he set his hand briefly on her shoulder, and the silver ring was warm from his skin, and then he limped back to his bar and left her to the map of Portugal and the woman frozen mid-glance and the long, particular weight of all the years that had passed while she was busy surviving them.