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The green neon sign out front threw its wash across the pavement in that particular way it always had, bleeding at the edges, turning the rain to something chemical and bright. Rory pushed through the door with her shoulder, the Golden Empress bag folded small and shoved in her jacket pocket, and the bell above the frame gave a flat, tinny little noise that she had heard ten thousand times and never once got used to. The Nest was quiet. Not empty — it was never empty this early on a Thursday, not with the Thursday crowd who came for the cheap decent port and the absence of anywhere better to be — but quiet in the way Silas preferred it, a low murmur under the hiss of the optics. Old maps the colour of tea hung above the banquette. Black-and-white photographs of men and women who had since been redacted, disgraced, or buried lined the back wall in crooked rows. Silas was behind the bar with a cloth in one hand, doing something meticulous and unnecessary to a glass that was already clean. He glanced up, read her face the way he read everything, and gave a small nod. "You're early," he said. "Delivery was slow." Rory slid onto the stool nearest the till, the one where the seat dipped to the left. "Yu-Fei's got a wedding order for Saturday. Half of Peckham is having chicken balls." "She'll do well." "She'll do well," Rory agreed, and unzipped her jacket. It was then that she looked toward the corner table, the one under the worst of the photographs — the Czech ones, always the Czech ones — because someone there had made a sound. Not a laugh. A small, startled intake of breath, the kind a person makes when they've seen something they weren't expecting to see in a room like this. The woman sitting alone had a glass of red in front of her, untouched, and a coat over the back of the chair that cost more than Rory's rent. Her hair was blonde now, or had been made blonde, cut into something precise and expensive that framed a face Rory knew in her sleep and did not recognise at all. Then the woman turned her head fully, and Rory did recognise her, and the recognition arrived like a hand closing around the wrist. "Well," said Megan Rees. Her accent had gone somewhere. Not gone — flattened, smoothed at the edges, the sing-song burr of Grangetown filed down to something that could sit in a meeting in Reading without comment. She stood. She was taller, or she was in heels. She had a ring on her left hand with a stone in it that caught the neon and threw back a green spark. "Rory," she said. "Aurora." "You still only ever call me that when you're about to tell me something," Rory said, and then Megan was hugging her, and Rory stood on the stool's rung to reach her, and her arms went around a stranger who smelled of somebody else's life. They sat. Silas appeared without being asked, set down a glass of white in front of Rory and a fresh red in front of Megan, and withdrew to his end of the bar with the tact of a man who had debriefed ministers. "Twelve years," Megan said. She was studying her with an expression Rory couldn't quite parse — astonishment, maybe, and something underneath it that looked like guilt, which was an unkind thing to see in an old friend's face after twelve years. "Twelve years and you're — God. You're sitting in a bar in Soho." "Living above it, actually." Rory turned her glass a quarter-turn on the wood. "That one." She nodded toward the ceiling. "Silas lets me have the flat cheap if I keep the stockroom honest." "And you're — what are you doing?" "Deliveries. For a restaurant in Soho. Chinese, mostly, some nights it's pizza." She said it evenly, the way she said most things, and watched Megan decide what face to make and then abandon all of them. "You'd have got a menu by now if you'd asked." "I didn't mean —" "You meant am I still doing the law thing. No." Rory took a sip. It was good wine, Silas's house pour, better than she needed on a Thursday. "I did two years of it. Then I stopped." Megan's hand went to her glass. She still hadn't touched it. "Cardiff?" "London. I came here." "After —" "After." The name sat between them the way a name does when two people have agreed, without ever agreeing, not to say it. Rory felt the old habit of her left thumb pressing against the crescent scar on her wrist, a small hard ridge of skin she'd had since she was nine, since the garden gate and the broken latch, and she made herself stop. "So what about you?" she said. "Because you're sitting in a bar in Soho with a coat that costs more than this building's electricity, and you jumped when I walked in, which means you were waiting for someone or you were waiting for nothing and got more than you bargained for. Which is it?" Megan laughed, a short, ugly sound, and then drank half her wine at once. "I live in Bristol," she said. "I'm a practice manager. Dental group. Three surgeries." She set the glass down and looked at the stone on her finger and did not mention it. "I'm here for a conference. I walked in because of the sign. Green. I've always liked green." "You've always liked anything that got you out." "That's not fair." "No," Rory agreed. "It isn't." Outside, a bus went past and dragged its reflection across the photographs on the wall, and for a moment the faces of dead intelligence officers flickered and moved like something underwater. Megan watched it happen. When she spoke again her voice had lost its polish, just for a sentence, and the Grangetown came back through like the accent had been a coat she could take off. "I looked for you," she said. "After. I rang your mum's house and your mum said you'd gone to London and she wouldn't say where, and I rang Eva, and Eva — Eva said you were fine and not to worry and she'd pass on a message, and I rang again at Christmas and your mum said the same thing, and then I stopped ringing because every time I did I had to sit with the fact that I hadn't —" She stopped. Drank. Her jaw worked. "You hadn't what?" "You know what." The bar was very quiet. Silas had moved to the far end and was doing something with a bottle and a cloth that required his full attention and his back to them, and Rory understood, as she often understood things, without being told, that she was being given the room. "He grabbed you," Megan said, "at Finn's party. In the kitchen. I was standing in the doorway. I had a drink in my hand and I was standing in the doorway and I watched him put his hand on your arm and I said nothing and I went back through to the garden and I talked to people about university for forty minutes." "You were nineteen." "That's not an excuse. That's just when it happened." Megan's eyes were wet and furious. "And then you left, and I let you leave, and I never — I never once came looking. Not properly. Not past your mum's phone number. I let twelve years go by and I let you do this on your own and I let you be —" She gestured at all of Rory, at the delivery jacket, the flat above the bar, the life assembled out of what was left. "Whatever this is." Rory said nothing for a moment. She thought about the flat upstairs, the small clean room with the window over the alley, how she'd learned to sleep again in it, how the first six months had been made of sitting on the floor at three in the morning listening to the bar close below her and counting the seconds between one breath and the next until the counting wasn't necessary anymore. She thought about the night she'd finally said the name out loud to Silas, some months in, over exactly this kind of glass, and how he'd listened the way men in his trade listen, without a single useful word, and how the not-useful-word had been the whole gift. "This," she said, "is fine." "That's what I'm — that's what's so —" Megan pressed her fingers against her eyes. "You were going to be extraordinary. You were the cleverest person in every room we ever stood in. You argued with Mr. Prydderch until he gave up. You were going to be a barrister like your dad and you were going to be —" "I was never going to be that." "You don't know that." "No," Rory said. "But I know I'm not sorry about any of it except the parts I'm sorry about, and those aren't yours." She said it gently, and it was gentle, and it also was not forgiving, and Megan heard both halves of it and flinched. They sat with that. Silas came back, collected the empties, and set down two fresh glasses without comment, and Megan drank hers and Rory drank hers and the neon green came through the window again and lay across the table like something spilled. "You could have come to London," Rory said eventually. "Any time. I was here the whole time. You could have got on a train." "I know." "I would have let you in." Megan made a sound then, small and wrecked, and Rory reached across the table and put her hand over Megan's, over the ring and the stone and the twelve years, and felt the whole dead weight of it — not the marriage, not Bristol, not the coat, but the twelve years of not-picking-up-the-phone, which was a weight you couldn't set down and couldn't carry, and which both of them had been holding since the kitchen at Finn's party, since she'd left Cardiff in the dark with one bag, since a door she'd closed on a friend who hadn't followed. "How long are you in London?" Rory said. "Until Sunday." "Come back tomorrow. I'll finish at eight. We'll get food — there's a place round the corner that does the best salt and chilli chips you'll ever have, and don't make a face, you always liked salt and chilli chips." She squeezed Megan's hand once and let go. "Come back tomorrow and we'll see what twelve years actually weighs. My guess is less than you think." Megan nodded, not trusting herself to speak, and gathered her coat, and at the door she turned and said Rory's name — just Rory, not Aurora, not the name for bad news — and then she was gone out into the green light and the rain. Silas appeared at her elbow with a fresh glass she hadn't asked for. "Old friend?" he said. "Old," Rory said. "Friend. Eventually." She watched the door swing shut on its bell, tinny and flat, the same noise it had always made. "Maybe." Silas set the silver of his signet ring against the bar top and said nothing, which was, as ever, the correct amount.