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The green neon above the door had a buzz to it that Rory remembered from childhood summers spent avoiding homework — no, that was a different hum, a different life, the fridge in her mother's kitchen in Cardiff. She stood under the sign anyway, one hand still on the strap of her delivery bag, and let the buzz travel down her spine. The Raven's Nest. Silas' place. She'd lived above it for eleven months and had never once thought of it as hers, and now, back from three weeks of nowhere in particular, it looked smaller than she remembered, or she looked larger. Inside, the room did what it always did: dimmed her. Old maps papered the walls, curling at the corners, and the black-and-white photographs — men in coats, harbours, faces she'd never identified — watched from their hooks with the patience of things that had outlived their owners. The bar was half full. A woman near the window was laughing at something a man had said, a big full laugh that arrived before the words did, and Rory registered it the way she registered most sound in a room: as weather. She took the stool at the end of the bar, the one with the split in the leather that Silas kept meaning to have reupholstered, and set her bag down. "Rory." He came out of the back with a cloth over his shoulder and the slight hitch in his left leg that never quite disappeared, fifty-eight years old and still the only man in London who could make a bar feel like a briefing room. Hazel eyes, grey at the temples, the silver signet ring catching the low light as he reached for a glass. "Silas." "You're back." "I'm back." He poured without asking — gin, tonic, the slice of lemon he knew she'd leave in — and set it on the mat with a small ceremony that she suspected he performed for everyone and that nonetheless felt addressed to her alone. "Three weeks," he said. "Yu-Fei was going to send a search party. I told her you'd surface." "And you were right." "I usually am." He wiped the bar. "Sit down properly. You look like you're about to leave again." She was about to leave again. That was the trouble with a place like this — Silas read the exits on people the way other men read faces. She'd learned that in her first month, delivering containers of sweet-and-sour and finding him already at the door with her order paid for before she'd knocked. "I'm staying for one," she said. He nodded and drifted down the bar toward a couple who wanted to argue about football, and Rory turned her glass a quarter turn on the mat and watched the lemon sink. The laugh came again from the window. Closer this time — or rather, the woman had moved, was threading between tables toward the bar, coat over one arm, scarf trailing. Tall. Hair shorn close on one side and left long on the other, a look Rory associated with people who had decided, definitively, what they thought of the world. Red lipstick. Rings on every finger but the wedding one, which was there too, thin and plain and oddly conspicuous among the others. The woman stopped. Not at the bar. At Rory. "You're sitting in Silas' bad stool," she said. Rory looked up. The face was the same face and not the same face — the bones had declared themselves, the softness of twenty had been spent somewhere along the way, and what remained was sharper, more deliberate, as if someone had edited her. But the eyes were the eyes. Gray-green, a little too wide for the face, the eyes of a girl who had once talked Rory into climbing the roof of Ysgol Gyfun Gymraeg Glantaf to watch the sirens, and had talked her out of it again when Rory's hands began to shake. "Nia," Rory said. "Nia Powell-Rhodes, now." She said it lightly, a gift offered and withdrawn in the same motion. "God. Rory. You're — you're *here*." "Apparently." Nia climbed onto the stool beside her with the ease of someone who had never once in her life calculated whether she was welcome. Close up, she smelled of cigarettes and something expensive and floral, and her rings clicked against the bar as she folded her hands. "Silas," she called down the length of the counter, "whatever she's having. Put it on the ring-fence." "You have a ring-fence?" Rory said. "I have several things I didn't have in 2014." Nia smiled, and the smile was wrong — too fast, too bright, arranged. "Law. You did law, didn't you. Cardiff. You were going to be a barrister like your dad." "Pre-law. I didn't finish." "I know." The smile went somewhere else. "Megan Byrne's sister saw you getting into a car on Cathedral Road. That was — what, five years ago? Six? Everyone heard you'd gone to London. Nobody heard anything after that." "I moved." "You *vanished*." Nia said the word carefully, turning it over the way Silas turned glasses. "Different thing. People in Cardiff notice when someone vanishes. Especially someone who was — you were the one who remembered birthdays, Rory. You were the one who rang my mum when she was ill. And then nothing. Not a text. Not a — nothing." The gin was in front of her. Rory looked at it and then at Nia, who was not looking at the gin, who was looking at her with an expression composed of many things and apology not among them. "Your mum," Rory said quietly. "How is she?" "Gone. Two years." Nia's hand found her glass, and for the first time the rings were still. "You'd have known that, if you'd been anywhere to be found." The room had gone slightly louder — someone's playlist reaching a chorus, chairs scraping — and Rory felt the particular heat of being seen by someone who remembered a version of you that you'd spent years dismantling. She thought of Evan's hand on the doorframe. She thought of the flat she'd left with one bag, of Eva's voice on the phone at eleven at night saying *come now, come now, don't pack anything*. She thought of all the messages she hadn't answered because answering required a version of the story she couldn't yet say aloud. "I'm sorry," she said. It came out even, which was not the same as easy. Nia looked at her for a long moment. "You are, aren't you," she said, and it wasn't a question, and it wasn't forgiveness either — it was the sound of someone registering that the thing they'd rehearsed saying for six years would now be unnecessary, and finding that the unsaid version weighed more. "I wasn't well," Rory said. It was the smallest true thing she had. "You were always the calmest person I knew. Whatever you were, you were never not calm." Nia drank. "I used to hate that about you. Do you remember sixth form? You'd sit there while Mrs Griffiths tore into us and you'd just — absorb it. And I'd be shaking. I thought it meant something was wrong with me." "Nothing was wrong with you." "No." Nia laughed — the big laugh, the one from the window, arriving before the words. "No, I've spent a lot of money finding that out." She turned her glass in its wet ring on the bar. "I'm a litigation partner now. Cardiff. Married a man named Owen who is very kind and very boring and who does not know that I still go to see a woman in Pontcanna every Thursday to explain why I can't stop being furious." Rory said nothing. The lemon floated. "And you," Nia said. "What are you?" "Delivery driver," Rory said. "For the Chinese up the road. I live above this bar." She said it plainly, without apology, and was surprised to find that she meant it that way — not as confession, not as deflection, just as fact, laid down between them like a card. Nia studied her. "You look like someone who left somewhere burning and walked a long way and decided not to talk about it." "That's accurate." "And you're happy." It was not a question, and Rory felt the answer arrive before she could edit it — not happiness, exactly, but the absence of fear in a room, the particular relief of a stool she knew, a man behind the bar who would notice if she stopped coming, a city that had asked nothing of her except that she keep moving. "I'm all right," she said. "I'm all right, Nia." Nia held her gaze, then looked down at her rings and began, one by one, to twist them. The wedding band last. "I was furious with you," she said. "For years. I'd be driving to work and I'd think of something I wanted to tell you, and then I'd remember you were gone, and it would — I'd have to pull over. That's pathetic at forty-one." "You were thirty-eight." "I was thirty-eight, and it was still pathetic." She turned on the stool, and her knee touched Rory's, and neither of them moved it away. "Say something true to me. You owe me that much, and you know it." Rory looked at the maps on the wall — harbours, coastlines, places drawn by people who had never been there and were certain anyway. Somewhere behind her, Silas was explaining to the football couple that the restroom was through the bookshelf, and the bookshelf did not open, and she had believed him for two months. "I left because I was afraid of a man," she said, "and then I stayed away because I was afraid of being the girl who had been afraid of a man. And every month it got heavier, and every month I told myself I'd ring you in December." Nia was quiet for a while. "Which December?" she said. "All of them." Outside, the neon buzzed its small green hum against the glass. Nia reached over and took Rory's hand off the bar, held it briefly with both of hers — rings pressing crescents into skin, an echo of a scar on the other wrist that Rory felt rather than saw — and then let go and picked up her coat. "Thursday," Nia said. "I'm in London on Thursdays. Business." She put a card on the bar, next to the untouched lemon. "You don't have to ring in December." She walked out, and the door shut, and the buzz of the sign came through the walls the way it always did, patient and unbothered, keeping time over everything that had been said and everything that had been, at last, said out loud. Silas appeared at the end of the bar with the cloth and his unreadable face. "Old friend?" he said. "Old," Rory said. She left the gin and the lemon and the card where they were and went upstairs to a flat that had not once asked her who she used to be.