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The rain had soaked through Rory’s jacket by the time she reached the green neon of the Raven’s Nest. She came in with a paper bag of noodles for Silas and a wet cuff dripping onto her hand. Silas was behind the bar, polishing a glass he had already polished. He looked up at the bag, then past Rory’s shoulder. “You’ve got company,” he said. Rory turned. A woman sat alone beneath a framed street map of London, her coat folded neatly across the empty stool beside her. She had cropped hair and wore a dark blue jumper with a frayed cuff. For a moment Rory saw only an unfamiliar face, pale and watchful in the bar’s low light. Then the woman smiled. “Rory.” The voice reached her before the rest of it did. “Eva?” Eva stood. They looked at each other across the small distance between the bar and the tables, both apparently waiting for someone to make it ordinary. Eva had been the sort of person who entered a room at speed, talking before she’d found a place to sit. Now she held still, one hand resting on the back of her stool. Rory crossed to her. They hugged awkwardly around Rory’s wet jacket. Eva smelled of rain and the clean, faintly medicinal soap used in public toilets. “I nearly didn’t recognise you,” Rory said. “I know.” Eva touched her hair. “It was longer last time.” It had been long enough to catch in the zip of her coat. At eighteen, Eva had dyed the ends red in her mother’s bathroom and left a stain on the grout that survived three attempts to scrub it off. The stain was still there when Rory had last visited. Silas came round the end of the bar with his slight limp and took the paper bag from Rory. His silver signet ring pressed a crescent into the damp paper. “Thank you, love. What are you having?” “Nothing yet.” Rory looked at Eva’s glass. Clear liquid, ice, a wedge of lime. “Ginger beer,” Eva said. Silas gave Rory a look that asked nothing she had to answer, then went back behind the bar. “Do you know him?” Eva asked. “I live upstairs.” “Of course you do.” Eva glanced toward the ceiling. “I came in to get out of the rain. I’ve been sitting here an hour.” “You didn’t know?” “I knew you were in London.” Rory pulled out the stool opposite and sat down. Rainwater slid from the end of her hair onto her collar. She could think of half a dozen things to say and none of them would fit between the stools. How long has it been felt absurd; she knew. She had counted the years each time Eva’s birthday came up on her phone. “Were you waiting for someone?” she asked. “My train. There was a course in Holborn.” Eva turned her glass by the rim. “I’ve an hour before I need to go.” “Are you still in Cardiff?” “Newport now.” Rory waited for an explanation. Eva used to offer one before anyone asked, complete with impressions of everyone involved. Instead she took a sip of ginger beer. “What sort of course?” “Safeguarding. I work at a housing association.” She paused. “I help people with applications, mostly.” “That sounds like you.” Eva’s mouth pulled sideways. “Does it?” Rory wasn’t sure. She had meant the woman who once knew every bus route out of Cardiff and had lent bus fare to people she barely liked. But Eva had never been patient with forms. She’d once torn up a university application because she couldn’t bear writing about herself as someone with a plan. “You cut your hair,” Rory said. “You noticed.” “I didn’t mean it like that.” “I know.” From the end of the bar came the low roar of the coffee machine. Silas preferred to do things himself even when the evening staff were on. A couple by the door leaned close over the same phone. Outside, a bus passed, briefly washing the window red. Eva put her glass down. “You look well.” “I am.” “I wondered.” Rory felt the old impulse to give an account: work, rent, the Golden Empress, the flat above the bar. Proof that she had done something useful with the advice Eva had given her. It was Eva who’d said, over the telephone, Leave Cardiff. Go to London. Not as a grand speech. She’d said it sharply, while Rory stood in the kitchen listening for Evan’s key in the lock. “You could have asked,” Rory said. “I know.” There was no defence in it. That annoyed Rory more than an excuse might have. Eva looked down at the tabletop. “I did write to you once.” “When?” “About three years ago. It’s still in a drawer.” Rory let out a small breath. “That’s not quite the same.” “No.” Silas set a fresh glass of water beside Rory. He didn’t interrupt. She waited until he’d moved away. “I thought you’d be there,” she said. Eva raised her eyes. “When I got to London. I thought that was what you meant.” Rory traced the edge of the glass with one finger. “I got off the coach and called you.” “I remember.” “It rang out.” “I know.” Rory looked at her. “You remember that?” Eva nodded. Her hand, lying flat on the table, had a small white mark across one knuckle. Rory didn’t recognise it. There were probably marks on her own body Eva had never seen. “I was in Swansea,” Eva said. “At somebody’s flat. I’d been there since the night before. I saw the call.” Rory had imagined a dozen explanations over the years. Eva had lost her phone; Eva had been busy; Eva had changed her number and forgotten to tell her. She had not wanted to imagine Eva watching it ring. “I’m sorry,” Eva said. Rory looked toward the map on the wall. Somebody had drawn the old railway lines in red ink. “I found somewhere to stay.” “I know you did.” “Silas let me take the flat. I was working evenings here then.” “That’s good.” “It was. Is.” Eva nodded, accepting the correction. She did not ask about Evan. Rory was grateful until she realised she wanted her to. “You told me to go,” Rory said. “I did.” “And then you disappeared.” Eva ran a thumb over the condensation on her glass. “I was drinking a lot. I didn’t have anywhere for you to sleep, and I’d made it sound like I did. I thought if I answered, you’d ask me where to come.” She glanced up. “I’m not telling you so you’ll feel sorry for me.” “I don’t.” “Good.” The word came out too fast. They both heard it. Rory remembered Eva at seventeen, standing on a wall above the river in a pair of cheap white trainers, shouting that they should jump in before they had time to think. Rory had stayed on the bank with their shoes. Eva had come out shivering, triumphantly holding up a shopping trolley token she’d found in the mud. For years Rory had thought of that as courage: the shout, the jump, the willingness to look ridiculous. She had not considered what it cost Eva to come home wet. “How long?” Rory asked, looking at the ginger beer. “Nearly two years.” Rory nodded. She wanted to say congratulations but feared it would sound like praise from a stranger. Eva saved her the trouble. “My mother still orders wine when we go out. She says she forgets. Then she makes a great performance of apologising.” “That sounds like your mother.” “It does.” Eva smiled properly, and for a second Rory saw the girl she knew. Then Eva looked at her watch. Not yet time to leave. She took her hand away from it. “Does she still have the red grout?” Rory asked. “Under the sink? She replaced the tiles last year.” Rory felt an unexpected pang. “All of them?” “Only the ones she could reach. She says the others are hidden by the washing machine.” They laughed. It lasted a moment and left them both quieter. A man came in from the rain and paused just inside the door, shaking his umbrella over the mat. Silas called out to him by name. Rory watched Eva turn her glass slowly until the wedge of lime faced her. “I was angry with you,” Rory said. “For a long time.” “You should have been.” “I didn’t ask you to decide that.” Eva stopped turning the glass. “No. Sorry.” Rory rubbed at the small crescent scar on her left wrist, a habit she’d thought she’d lost. What she wanted, she realised, was not Eva’s permission to be angry. She wanted that first night back: the coach station’s harsh lights, her phone warm against her ear, a different voice when the call connected. There was no way to ask for it without sounding as if the life she had now counted for less. “I missed you too,” she said. Eva’s face changed. She had prepared herself for the other sentence, not that one. “I missed you,” she said. “I kept thinking I’d call when I’d sorted myself out. Then it had been so long.” Rory looked at her cropped hair, the careful way she held herself at a bar table with a drink she could leave unfinished. Eva had sorted out some things. Others still sat between them, not yet ready to be moved. Silas appeared beside them with a clean cloth. “You two want food? Rory brought enough for an army.” “I’ve got a train,” Eva said. “An hour,” Rory told him. Silas lifted his eyebrows. “Plenty of time for noodles, then.” He went to fetch bowls before either of them could object. Eva watched him go. “He’s kind.” “He can be.” “You sound like you know him.” “I do.” Rory took off her wet jacket and hung it over the back of her stool. “He’ll ask you three questions about the train and somehow know your whole life by the second.” “I’d better be careful.” “He already knows we know each other.” “That much I can cope with.” Silas returned with two bowls and a pair of chopsticks for each of them. The noodles were still hot. Eva pushed her sleeves above her wrists, and Rory did the same. For a while they ate and talked about the train, the rain, and Eva’s mother’s new tiles. When Eva asked about Rory’s work, Rory told her about carrying deliveries through Soho and knowing which office receptions would let her use the lift. It was easier to speak while Eva was occupied with her noodles. She found herself telling a story about a customer who ordered the same dinner every Thursday and always claimed it wasn’t his, then asking Eva how she liked Newport. Beyond the window, people hurried past the green light with their heads bent against the weather. Eva’s train would leave whether they had finished talking or not. Rory knew there would be another silence after this, when Eva went home and Rory climbed the stairs above the bar. She reached across the table for a napkin and put one beside Eva’s bowl. Eva glanced up and smiled at her, then carried on eating.