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The rain had followed Rory all the way from Pimlico, riding in through the van's cracked window and settling into her collar, and by the time she climbed the steps to The Raven's Nest she smelled like cardboard and wet asphalt. She'd delivered her last order of the night to a man in a dressing gown who tipped her in loose change and gratitude, and now she wanted only two things: the stairs up to her flat, and something warm on the way to it. Silas was behind the bar, as he always was, polishing glasses with a towel that had seen better decades. He didn't look up when she came in, but he reached for a bottle anyway — that was the whole of their arrangement, the ritual of it. He poured two fingers of whisky, added a splash of hot water from the kettle he kept for such purposes, and slid the glass down the bar to her without a word. The lamplight caught his silver signet ring as it came to a stop against her palm. "You're dripping on my floor," he said. "I'm watering it. Everything in here's dead anyway." She nodded at the walls, the old maps gone brown at their folds, the black-and-white photographs of strangers in foreign cities. She loved those walls, actually. She'd never told him so. She'd taken one sip, her coat half off one shoulder, when the door opened behind her and let in a gust of cold and the sound of a woman saying, "—no, tell them I'll call back, I'm just getting out of the rain—" The voice stopped. Rory felt the silence of it like a hand on the back of her neck. She turned. Carys Wyn Rees stood in the doorway with her phone lowered in one hand and an umbrella furled but dripping in the other, and she looked exactly as she had at twenty-two — the same blunt fringe, the same lawyer's coat, only better now, tailored, expensive in the quiet way that meant she'd actually made it. She was staring at Rory the way people stared at a photograph they'd been told was lost. "Rory," Carys said. Not Aurora. Rory. The name she hadn't heard in that accent in four years. "Carys." Rory heard how flat her own voice came out, and hated it, and couldn't fix it. "What in God's name—" Carys laughed, a short startled bark, and then crossed the room and hugged her, umbrella and all, and Rory stood stiff inside it with her whisky held out at arm's length like a woman protecting a candle from wind. "Three years. Four. I looked for you. I went by your flat and the landlord said you'd gone, no forwarding, nothing. Your dad asked half of Cardiff if anyone had heard from you." "Hi," Rory said. "It's good to see you." Carys pulled back and looked at her — a proper look, the kind Rory had spent four years training people out of giving her — and something in her face rearranged itself, grief being quietly filed away under professionalism. "You too. God, you too. Sit down. You're sitting down. We're sitting down." Silas materialized with a second glass and a bottle of something amber, set them down, and withdrew to the far end of the bar with the practiced tact of a man who had spent decades learning which conversations not to hear. His limp was worse in cold weather; she'd noticed that about him, the way she noticed everything now. They took the corner booth under the map of Bohemia. Carys poured for both of them, hands steady, and Rory watched them and thought: those are a barrister's hands. She's done it. She's actually gone and done it. "I'm at Lincoln's Inn," Carys said, as if reading the thought. "Well — pupillage's done, I'm a tenant now. Chambers in Cardiff, but I'm up for a conference. Three days of people saying 'paradigm' to each other." She turned the glass on the table. "I ducked out early. I hate those things. Everyone asks what you're working on and everyone's lying." "What are you working on?" "Family law, mostly." A pause, deliberate, weightless. "Domestic work, some of it." The words sat between them on the table like a card turned face up. "Carys," Rory said. "Your dad still tells people you're up in London," Carys went on, too fast, the way she'd always talked when she was nervous, all those years ago in tutorials when she hadn't done the reading. "Present tense. 'My daughter's up in London.' Like he's keeping a seat for you." Rory looked at her glass. In the mirror behind the bar she could see the whole room, the door, the window, the street beyond the green of the sign — she'd stopped noticing that she did this years ago, the way she'd stopped noticing she always sat facing the entrance. "He wanted me at the bar since I was nine," she said. "He's keeping a seat because taking it away would mean admitting it was empty." "That's not fair." "It's not unfair." They drank. Somewhere in the kitchen a radio was playing low, and the rain had thickened against the window, and the neon sign outside made a small ticking sound in its glass, the sound of the whole street reduced to green. "I saw him once," Carys said. "Evan. After you went. He came round to my chambers — this was when I was still at the firm, before the bar — and he was so polite. He wanted to know if you'd been in touch. He seemed worried. He seemed—" She hunted for it. "Devastated. That was the word he used. I nearly gave him your mother's number, and then I thought, why would he need it, he'd have it already." Rory kept her face still. It was a skill she had not been born with. "You flinched," Carys said quietly. "At Lowri's engagement. Do you remember? He called your name across the room and you flinched before you'd even turned around, before you'd even heard which name it was. I saw it. I saw it and I told myself it was nothing, that you'd had a shock, that Rory Carter who argued with lecturers and did the crossword in pen would tell me if something was wrong. I told myself that for two years." Her voice didn't break, but it bent. "Then you were gone, and I understood what I'd been looking at, and I have thought about that flinch every month of my life since." Rory had prepared, over the years, for versions of this conversation — with her mother, with her father, with the mirror. The speeches had all been defensive. None of them fit now, in this booth, under this light. "There wasn't anything you could have said that I'd have heard," she said. "I wasn't ready to listen. I thought it was love. I thought the flinching was my fault. You can't hand somebody a way out of a room they don't believe has walls." She turned her glass a quarter turn. "I'm not going to tell you it was fine that you said nothing. But I'd have lied to you if you'd asked. I lied to everyone who asked. You weren't special in that, Carys. You were just one more person I was better than." "That's a horrible way to put it." "I've had time to work on my phrasing." Carys laughed — wet-eyed, unguarded — and for a moment they were twenty again in the back of a lecture hall, and then the moment passed and they were two women in a Soho booth who had grown in different directions like trees planted too close, one of them bent hard sideways for the light. "You still have it," Carys said suddenly, and nodded at Rory's wrist, where the little crescent scar sat white against her skin. "Roath Park. The fence by the bowling greens. You went over first because I dared you, and I've felt bad about it for eighteen years." "You bought me chips after. With your own money." Rory ran her thumb over the scar, an old habit, older than everything else. "I remember thinking it was the most honorable thing anyone had ever done for me. Chips as reparations." "I'll buy you chips now if it fixes anything." "Nothing needs fixing." It came out sharper than she meant. She softened it, barely. "I'm not sorry I left, Carys. I need you to hear that, because everyone hears 'left' and adds 'sorry.' I'm not. I got out. I got out and I got lucky — a friend up here, a job, a landlord who—" She glanced down the bar, where Silas was reading a newspaper he was too far-sighted to actually be reading. "A landlord who asks no questions and notices everything. I'm not sorry I left. I'm sorry about what the leaving cost. Those aren't the same thing, and I've never worked out how to hold both at once." Carys looked at her for a long moment. "You used to fill a room," she said. "You'd talk with your hands. Now you sit like you're waiting for the bill." "I am waiting for the bill. He never brings it. It's a form of control." That got the laugh again, and they let the conversation drift then — safer water, Lowri's kids, Cardiff rain versus London rain, the crossword — and when the glasses were empty Carys took a pen from her lawyer's coat and wrote her number on a beermat, because of course she did, and slid it across. "No pressure," she said. "No grand gesture. But I'm up for three days, and I'm not doing the conference dinner, and I would genuinely rather have chips with you than listen to one more person say 'paradigm.'" Rory took the beermat and turned it over in her fingers, the way she'd turned the glass, and put it in her coat pocket next to her keys, which was an answer, and not a promise, and Carys seemed to understand the difference, because she hugged her again at the door — quicker this time, learned — and went out into the rain under the green light and was folded into Soho and gone. Rory stood at the window a while. Her thumb found the crescent scar and stayed there. "Old friend?" Silas asked from the bar, not looking up from his newspaper. "Something like that." She carried the glasses back. "She's a barrister now. Family law." "Mm." He refilled her glass without being asked, the way he did everything, and turned a page he couldn't possibly read. "The usual, then. Chips on Thursday." It took her a moment to realize he'd made a joke, and by then he'd already limped to the other end of the bar, and the rain went on, and the green sign ticked its small light against the glass.Aurora Carter pushed through the door of The Raven's Nest at half past ten, shrugging off rain that had followed her from Pimlico to Soho like a debt collector. Her delivery shift was over. Her shoulders ached from hauling insulated bags up walk-up flats, and she smelled like cold noodles and wet asphalt. She wanted a shower, her bed, and silence, in that order. The green neon sign buzzed overhead as the door swung shut behind her, cutting off the sound of a busker butchering "Wonderwall" on the corner. Inside, the bar was doing its usual Tuesday business: a handful of regulars hunched over pints, the jukebox murmuring something with a lot of brushed drums, and Silas Blackwood behind the counter, polishing a glass with a towel that had outlived three governments. He glanced up as she crossed toward the stairs at the back, and something in his hazel eyes must have caught on the state of her, because he tipped his chin toward the stool nearest the taps. "Sit down, Rory. You look like a drowned solicitor." "I look like a delivery driver," she said, but she sat. Her mother would have said she sat like her father at the end of a long trial, spine straight even in exhaustion, as if slouching were an admission of weakness. Silas set a glass of ginger beer in front of her — he never poured her anything stronger when she was this tired, a rule he'd never spoken aloud and she'd never thanked him for. The silver signet ring on his right hand clicked against the glass. "Slow night," he said. "Quiet." Quiet. She should have known. Quiet in The Raven's Nest was like flat water in a river — it meant something big had just passed through, or something big was about to. The door opened. Cold air, a gust of rain, and a woman laughing — a bright, ringing laugh that Rory would have known in a stadium, in a fire alarm, in her sleep. She didn't turn around. Her body turned for her, the stool swiveling as if the floor had shifted, and there, shaking rain off a designer umbrella and apologizing to a man she'd bumped into, stood Carys Vaughan. They'd been inseparable once. Cardiff Comprehensive to Cardiff University, two girls from Canton who'd sworn they'd take London by storm together. Carys had done it. Carys was standing in the doorway in a camel coat that probably cost Rory's monthly rent, laughing the same laugh, pushing the same dark bob out of the same dark eyes. Then Carys looked up, and the laugh died in her throat like a bird hitting a window. "Rory?" The word came out half-swallowed. "Aurora Carter?" "Hello, Carys." Rory heard her own voice, cool and level, and hated it a little. Four years of being careful had made careful into her native language. Carys crossed the room in six strides, and then stopped, as if she'd hit glass. Her eyes were doing a frantic inventory — the delivery jacket slung over the stool, the flat above a bar, the tired eyes in a face that had once been all sharp edges and brighter plans. Rory watched her friend arrive at the arithmetic and go pale with it. "You're — God, sit down, no, you're sitting, I'll sit." Carys waved at the stool beside her like she was hailing a taxi, then perched on it, coat still buttoned, umbrella still dripping onto the floor. "I'm in London for a conference. Commercial property law. I didn't — I had no idea you were —" She gestured vaguely at the bar, the maps, the whole of Rory's current life. "Nobody did. That was rather the point." The silence that followed had weight to it. Silas, who could read a room the way other men read newspapers, set down a gin and tonic without being asked — Carys's drink, always, since they were nineteen — and withdrew to the far end of the bar with his towel and his limp and his talent for being elsewhere. "You look well," Carys tried. "I look tired. You look expensive." Carys laughed, but it was a smaller laugh now, careful around the edges. "It's a work coat. The firm's paying." She wrapped both hands around her glass. "Rory, I looked for you. After you left. I called your flat, I called your mum — Jennifer wouldn't tell me anything, just that you were safe and not to worry. I emailed. I—" She stopped. Started again, quieter. "I even asked your father, once. At the Cathedral Road Christmas party. He said you were 'finding your footing.'" Her mouth twisted. "He said it like he was reading someone else's eulogy." Rory's thumb found the small crescent scar on her left wrist, an old habit, older than memory. Roath Park, the fence by the bowling greens, a dare at nine years old and a bottle's worth of broken glass. Carys had been there. Carys had cried harder than she had. "I heard you finished your pupillage," Rory said. "I keep an eye on the law reports. Force of habit. There was a piece about you in Counsel. 'Rising star of the commercial bar.'" She smiled, and felt how thin it was. "You did it, Caz. Everything we said we'd do, on the wall by the Taff, with the chips. You actually did it." "And you didn't." It came out blunt, almost accusatory, and Carys flinched at her own words. "I'm sorry. That was — I didn't mean—" "You did mean it." Rory turned her glass a quarter rotation on the bar, watching the condensation leave a ring. "It's all right. It's true." "But why?" And there it was, the question four years old and still wet behind the ears. "You were the one who was going to make it. Not me — you. You had the brain, the nerve, the mouth for it. Brendan Carter's daughter, the great hope. And then you were just — gone. Dropped out mid-term, no word, nothing. Eva wouldn't tell me anything either. I thought—" Carys's voice dropped. "I thought maybe you were ill. Or that something had happened. And then I stopped thinking, because the not-knowing was making me ill instead." Rory looked down the length of the bar. Silas was studying a map of Prague with the fixed attention of a man giving two women all the privacy his small establishment allowed. The hidden room behind the bookshelf at the back — she knew what happened in there, knew the kinds of conversations Silas's other life required — but tonight it stayed shut, and the Nest was only a bar, and she was only a woman on a stool being asked, at last, the only question that mattered. "Evan," she said. Carys went still. The name sat on the bar between them like something spilled. "He wasn't — you know how it started. Everyone knows how it starts." Rory kept her voice even, kept her eyes on the bottles ranked against the mirror. "Charming. Attentive. He'd drive me to lectures, wait outside, carry my bag. My dad loved him. God, my dad loved him." A breath. "It was eighteen months before I understood what I was inside of. And another six before I got out. And the getting out — I couldn't do it in Cardiff, Caz. He knew everyone I knew. He was at every dinner, every chambers event, every family thing. He'd have followed me into the Inns of Court if I'd gone. So I didn't go. I ran to Eva, and she found me this, and I've been —" she gestured at the bar, at the ceiling, at the flat above it — "here." "Rory." Carys's eyes were bright and wet. "Why didn't you tell me?" And there it was. Not the question she'd expected, but the one underneath it, the one Carys had been carrying for four years like a stone in her coat pocket. "Because you'd have fixed it," Rory said. "You'd have charged in, you'd have called the police, you'd have told my father, and it would have been a war in the middle of my family, and I'd have lost. He was very good, Caz. He never left marks where anyone could see them. Except once." She touched her wrist, not the scar, just the wrist, an old ghost of a place. "And I told everyone I'd fallen. And everyone let themselves believe me. Because it was easier. For all of us." "I'd have believed you," Carys said fiercely. "If you'd told me the truth, I'd have believed you." "Maybe. But I couldn't risk the maybe." Rory finally looked at her, full on, and let her see everything — the four years, the flats and the vans and the nights she'd spent learning to sleep with one ear open, all the intelligence that had once been aimed at tort law now aimed at staying alive and then at staying hidden. "That's the part I regret. Not leaving. Leaving was the first smart thing I did. I regret the years of silence that came after. I regret every email I didn't answer. I regret that Eva got the whole of me and you got nothing, because Eva asked at the right time and you asked at the wrong time, and that's not fair, and I've never been able to make it fair." Carys was crying now, silently, the way barristers learn to — no heaving, just a shine and a tremble, grief conducted with professional dignity. "I sat your old desk chair," she said. "At chambers. They gave me your — no, that's not right, you never had a desk, you never came. I sat in a room you'd have been in, if. That's what I do, sometimes. I sit in the if." The jukebox changed. Something slower, older. Silas, at the end of the bar, turned a page of a newspaper he wasn't reading. "Do you ever think about going back?" Carys asked. "To the law. It's not — Rory, it's not gone. People restart. There are mature routes, there's—" "Every day," Rory said, and the truth of it surprised her with its weight. "Every day I think about it. And every day I think about how close I came to my life being small and quiet and owned. And I think — the law will still be there. It waited for you. It can wait for me." She picked up her glass, and her hand was steady, and she noticed it was steady, and that was a kind of answer too. "I'm not who you remember. I'm harder, and quieter, and I flinch at doors, and I notice exits. But I'm also still here, which is more than I expected to be able to say four years ago. So." She raised the ginger beer a half inch. "To the if." Carys wiped her eyes with a napkin, laughed wetly, and raised the gin. "To the if. And to chips on the wall by the Taff, someday, when you're ready." "Someday," Rory agreed. They drank. Outside, the green neon hummed against the rain, patient as a promise, and the two old friends sat in the low light of The Raven's Nest, not the people they'd been, not yet the people they'd be, but for one quiet hour, together again, which was — for now — enough.