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Rory recognised the laugh before she recognised the woman. It came from the far end of the bar, a short, surprised burst followed by silence, as though someone had put a hand over it. For a moment she was nineteen again, sitting on a kitchen floor in Cardiff while rain ticked against a leaking window and Nia tried to open a bottle of wine with a screw and a pair of pliers. She set down the crate of clean glasses. The woman at the bar wore a charcoal suit and had a canvas bag folded on her lap. Her hair, once a dense confusion of red curls, was cut close to her head. There were fine silver hoops in her ears. She was listening to a man in a blue overcoat, who leaned across her to collect his change from Silas. Rory waited for him to move. “Nia?” The woman turned. Her expression remained politely blank for just long enough to hurt. Then she said, “Christ. Rory Carter.” They embraced because there was no graceful alternative. Nia came off the stool and her canvas bag fell between them, striking Rory’s knee. Rory smelled cold air, wool, something faintly medicinal. They drew apart with their hands still on each other’s arms. “What are you doing here?” Nia asked. “I live upstairs.” “Of course you do.” It was the sort of thing Nia would once have said with delighted approval. Now Rory couldn’t tell what she meant. “And you?” “Meeting someone. Well, I met someone. He’s gone.” The man in the overcoat was already at the door. Green light from the sign above the entrance slid over his forehead as he looked back and lifted two fingers. Nia returned the gesture without smiling. “Work,” she said. Silas was polishing a glass. He glanced at Rory, then at the crate she had abandoned beside the till. “You’re finished,” he told her. “I haven’t done the—” “You’re finished.” His silver signet ring clicked against the stem of the glass. He moved away towards a couple arguing quietly over the wine list, favouring his left leg. Nia watched him. “Good boss.” “He isn’t my boss.” “You were carrying things.” “I do that for people. It confuses them.” There. A small smile. Rory felt an absurd desire to earn another. She pulled out the stool beside Nia’s. It was early enough that the Nest still belonged to its lamps and shadows. Later, bodies would fill the spaces between the tables and the old maps on the walls would disappear behind people standing with their drinks. Now a black-and-white photograph of a snowy street hung clear above Nia’s shoulder. Rory had dusted its frame that morning. “How long has it been?” Nia asked. “Six years?” “Seven.” “Seven, then.” Nia looked down at her drink. There was a crescent of red wine at the bottom. Rory remembered her in enormous boots, arguing with a lecturer outside a seminar room. Nia had been studying politics and had regarded Rory’s reluctant pursuit of law as a personal offence. You’re allowed to disappoint your father, she used to say. It’s practically a duty. Now there was a visitor’s pass clipped to her lapel. Nia detached it, folded the lanyard around it and put it in her bag. “You look different,” Rory said. “So do you.” “Do I?” “Your hair. You used to keep pulling it back.” Rory touched the straight black ends where they rested against her shoulder. Evan had liked it out of her face. The memory arrived without invitation, small and dreary. “I got tired of buying elastic bands.” Nia nodded as if this were an adequate account of seven years. Silas returned. “Another?” Rory looked at Nia. “Have you got time?” “My train’s at ten.” It was not yet seven. “Then you’ve got time.” Nia hesitated, and Rory wondered whether there was a person elsewhere who needed to be told where she was, whether her evenings still belonged to her. “All right.” “Same?” Silas asked. “Yes, please.” “And yours, Rory?” “Half a lager.” After he had gone, Nia said, “You drink lager now.” “Sometimes.” “You used to say it tasted like coins.” “It still does.” Nia laughed properly this time. It changed her whole face, bringing back something Rory hadn’t realised she was searching for. She wanted to tell her about the wine bottle, the pliers, the cork that had gone down intact and displaced enough cheap red to stain the ceiling. But remembering it aloud seemed a kind of demand: be that person again, for my benefit. “What’s the work?” she asked instead. “Property.” “Selling it?” “Law.” “Oh.” “Yes. Oh.” Nia took the fresh glass from Silas. Her nails were short, unpainted. “You’re a solicitor?” “Commercial leases, mostly. Occasionally a dispute about whose extractor fan is making whose flat uninhabitable. The great questions of our time.” “You said you’d rather work in an abattoir.” “I said a lot of things.” Rory looked at her own beer, settling beneath its thin collar of foam. “Well,” she said, “someone has to keep the extractor fans in line.” “Exactly.” Nia drank. A door banged in the street outside and neither of them looked towards it. Rory had imagined meeting her before. On a train, perhaps, or in the queue of a supermarket. In those imaginings she had been able to explain herself with a few careful sentences. Nia had understood; the awkwardness had passed. She had never imagined having to begin with extractor fans. “Are you still in Cardiff?” “Penarth.” “Oh, posh.” “It’s a rented flat above a betting shop.” “Still. Sea air.” “The windows don’t open.” Rory smiled, then stopped. Nia was turning the glass slowly on its paper coaster. “Are you married?” Rory asked. “No.” “Children?” “A boy. Ellis. He’s four.” The information produced a strange, physical loss. There was a child who knew Nia’s face better than Rory did, who knew how she sounded when tired, what she ate standing up in the kitchen. Four years of him, and Rory hadn’t known he existed. “I didn’t realise.” “No reason you would.” “Are you—his dad?” “We’re not together.” “Right.” “He has him this weekend. That’s why I could come down.” “Have you got a picture?” Nia’s hand went to her phone at once. The boy stood on a beach in a yellow raincoat, holding a stick almost twice his height. His expression was stern, proprietorial. Behind him the sea lay grey beneath a low sky. “He looks like you,” Rory said. “He looks like a bailiff.” “He does a bit.” “He was telling me where I could stand.” Rory enlarged the photograph with two fingers. The child’s boots were on the wrong feet. She loved that detail with a suddenness that embarrassed her. “He’s lovely.” “Yes,” Nia said. “He is.” She took the phone back but left it on the bar, the screen darkening between them. “How’s your mum?” Rory asked. Nia’s hand stopped on the stem of the glass. Rory knew before she answered. “She died. Three years ago.” “Oh, Nia.” “It’s all right.” “No. I didn’t—” “You wouldn’t have.” “What happened?” “Ovarian cancer. By the time they found it, there wasn’t much they could do.” Rory saw Nia’s mother at the kitchen table in Cardiff, shelling peas into a saucepan, listening to an argument about whether voting changed anything. She had worn reading glasses on a chain and said, without looking up, that neither of them would change much until they learned to wash a plate. “I’m so sorry.” “Thank you.” “Your mum was—” She stopped. Kind. Funny. Always so good to me. Every available phrase seemed to require Nia to nod and let Rory feel better. “She kept that drawing you did,” Nia said. “What drawing?” “The kitchen. For some reason you drew the kitchen.” Rory remembered a cheap sketchbook, an afternoon when she was meant to be reading contract law. She had drawn the kettle too large and omitted most of the chairs. “She put it on the fridge.” “It was awful.” “It stayed there until we cleared the house.” Rory pressed her thumb against the damp coaster. It split beneath her nail. “I would have come,” she said. Nia looked at her then. For several seconds the bar seemed too quiet, though somebody was laughing near the window and Silas was opening a bottle. “I texted you,” Nia said. Rory let go of the coaster. “When?” “When she was ill. A couple of times.” “I changed my number.” “I know that now.” “I didn’t know you’d tried.” “No.” There was no accusation in her voice. Rory found that worse. “Evan used to check my phone,” she said. She had not intended to say it so plainly. Even now she felt the old impulse to qualify it. Not all the time. Not at first. As though frequency were the part that mattered. Nia’s eyes moved over her face. “Are you still with him?” “No. No, I left. Eva got me to London.” “Good.” Rory nodded. Her throat had tightened. “When I changed the number, I only told a few people. I was trying to make it difficult for him to find me.” “You don’t have to explain that.” “I should have told you.” “Maybe.” Nia reached for her wine and didn’t drink. “I knew he was a prick,” she said. “Yes.” “I didn’t know about the phone.” “Neither did I, for a while.” She could still remember the ingenuity with which she had explained things away. A message marked read because she had opened it by accident. A friend’s silence because everyone was busy. It had taken her a long time to understand how much effort had gone into leaving her alone. But Nia had been alone too. Rory could not make one cancel out the other. “Afterwards,” she said, “I could have found you.” “Yes.” “I kept thinking I would.” Nia watched her, not helping. “And then it got longer. And I didn’t know what to say.” “You could have said hello.” Rory nodded. At the other end of the bar Silas set down a tray of glasses. She was grateful that he did not look at her. “I wanted to,” she said. “I believe you.” That ought to have comforted her. Instead it made clear how little wanting had accomplished. Nia drew a finger through the water left by her glass. “When Mum was ill, I thought about you in our kitchen. All those nights. I thought you’d make her laugh.” “I wish I’d been there.” “I know.” “She used to make me eat before she’d let me go home.” “She did that with everyone.” “I know. I liked pretending it was just me.” Nia’s mouth shifted. “So did everyone.” They sat for a while without speaking. Rory drank her beer. It had gone nearly flat. “What happened to the music?” she asked at last. Nia had played piano in a pub near the university on Thursday nights. She had known songs Rory had never heard of, and when she forgot the words she invented better ones. “I sold the piano.” “Oh.” “Mum’s, I mean. When we sold the house. There wasn’t room.” “Do you still play?” “Sometimes. There’s a keyboard at Ellis’s nursery. I’m very good at ‘The Wheels on the Bus.’” “You were very good at other things.” “I might be again.” It was said without confidence, but without dismissal either. Rory looked at her. “I’d like to hear you.” “You might have to sit on a very small chair.” “I’m prepared.” Nia smiled into her glass. “And you?” she asked. “Did you finish the degree?” “Yes.” “But you’re not practising.” “No.” “What do you do?” “Deliver food. Golden Empress, mostly. Help Silas when he needs it.” “Do you like it?” People usually asked what she intended to do next. Rory had a number of plausible answers ready for them. “Some of it,” she said. “I like being outside. I like knowing when I’ve finished.” “That sounds quite nice.” “It can be.” “And upstairs?” “A little flat. The pipes complain. On Fridays I can hear everything down here.” “Even us?” “Especially you. Always had a carrying voice.” Nia tilted her head, considering her. “You seem quieter.” “I might be.” “Not in a bad way.” Rory glanced towards the stairs behind the bar. There was washing drying over two chairs in her flat, a book open beside the bed, half a packet of ginger biscuits. She had left without switching off the kitchen light. All of it waited for her, unremarkable and undisturbed. “I’m all right,” she said. Nia nodded slowly. “Good.” Outside, a bus passed, briefly filling the windows with lit faces. Someone came in carrying the cold on his coat, and Silas greeted him by name. The bar was beginning to fill. Nia checked the time on her phone. “You don’t have to go yet,” Rory said. “No.” But she unlocked the screen and opened her contacts. “Give me your number.” Rory recited it. Nia typed carefully, reading it back, then called. Rory’s phone vibrated in her pocket. “There,” Nia said. Rory saved the number. Under Nia’s name the phone offered a blank space for a photograph. She left it blank. “I won’t promise I’m good at this,” she said. “At what?” “Keeping in touch.” “Neither am I. I have a four-year-old and an extractor-fan practice.” “I could text you on Sunday.” “All right.” “How does Sunday afternoon look?” “Sticky. Usually.” Rory laughed. Nia slipped the phone into her bag. “Text anyway.” They ordered another drink, this time only a half for Nia, and something to eat. Silas brought a bowl of crisps and a plate of cheese on toast, cut diagonally. Nia took a piece, dropped it because it was hot, and swore in the exact voice Rory remembered. For a moment Rory nearly said so. Instead she pushed a napkin across the bar. “Careful,” she said. “Well, it’s a bit late for that.” Nia picked up the toast again. Rory took the other half, and they ate while the room filled around them.