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Rory was trying to scrape a price label from the bottom of a glass when she heard someone say her name in the way it had been said at school: first syllable high, second dropped, a small accusation. She looked up. The woman at the end of the bar wore a camel coat with the belt tied behind her back. Rain shone on its shoulders. Her hair, once a black tangle she had cut herself over a bathroom sink, lay against her jaw in a smooth brown bob. She held her bag in both hands. “Nia?” The woman smiled, and for a moment the intervening years seemed like a trick of the light. There was the chipped front tooth. There was the slight upward pull on the left side of her mouth. “God,” Nia said. “It is you.” Rory put down the glass. The label clung to her thumbnail. She had imagined meeting Nia occasionally, though never here. Usually it happened on a Cardiff pavement, outside a shop neither of them had any reason to enter. In those versions Rory was well dressed and carrying something that suggested a purposeful life. She had not imagined herself in a faded Golden Empress T-shirt, smelling faintly of fried garlic, scraping adhesive from somebody else’s glassware. “What are you doing here?” “Drinking, hopefully.” “No. I mean London.” “Same answer, some weeks.” Nia looked around the bar. Behind her, rain tapped the window beneath the green wash of the sign. The Raven’s Nest was almost empty: two men beneath a framed map of the Baltic, a woman reading beside an untouched beer. Silas stood at the far end of the counter, making a neat stack of receipts. Rory came out from behind the bar. They hugged with the awkwardness of people who remembered a former ease. Nia’s coat was cold and damp. There was a hard rectangle beneath it, tucked under her arm or into an inside pocket. A phone, probably. Rory had a sudden, useless memory of Nia carrying a stolen road sign beneath her school blazer. When they separated, Nia kept one hand on Rory’s elbow. “You look exactly the same.” “No, I don’t.” “No,” Nia said. “Sorry. People say that.” Rory laughed. It came out more sharply than she intended. Silas approached, his left leg making its familiar slight concession to the floor. “Friend of yours?” “This is Nia. We went to school together.” “Then I’ll leave the interrogation to you.” He offered Nia a small smile. “What can I get you?” “White wine. Whatever’s dry.” “Large?” Nia hesitated. “Small, please.” Rory remembered her drinking warm cider from a two-litre bottle, wiping the mouth with her sleeve and offering it round with the solemnity of communion. “I’ll have a soda,” Rory said. Silas’s silver ring clicked against the glass as he set it down. He glanced at her, not inquisitively, just long enough to make clear that she could sit and he would manage. She had been helping because a delivery shift had ended early and she disliked going upstairs to an empty flat while the evening was still finding its shape. They took the table beneath an old photograph of Soho in snow. Nia laid her phone facedown beside her wine. Her nails were short and pale pink. There was a narrow gold ring on her left hand. “You got married.” “Yes.” “When?” “Three years ago.” “Oh.” “To a man called Peter. You don’t know him.” “I assumed.” Nia turned the stem of her glass. Rory could feel the missed invitation between them. Ridiculous, really. They had not spoken in years. Still, there had been a time when Nia had declared Rory would be her bridesmaid even if she married a woman, even if she married nobody and held the party purely for the dress. “What does Peter do?” “Cost consultancy.” “I don’t know what that is.” “He tells people their buildings will cost more than they think.” “Useful.” “He’d say so.” “And you?” “I work for a property company.” Rory glanced at the coat, then wished she hadn’t. “What sort of work?” “Community engagement.” The phrase sat on the table like something neither of them had ordered. “You used to say landlords should be put in the sea.” “I still say it about some of them.” “Just not yours.” Nia lifted the wine but did not drink. “Not while they’re paying me, no.” At sixteen, Nia had organised a walkout over the removal of the school’s art courses. At seventeen, she had made Rory stand outside the council offices holding a homemade placard that sagged in the rain. She had drawn constantly: teachers as birds, friends asleep on buses, a startlingly tender portrait of her father’s hands. Rory had kept one of the drawings for years. A sketch of herself bent over a textbook, black hair falling forward. She could not remember now whether she had left it in Cardiff or thrown it away. “Do you still draw?” Nia looked towards the window. “Not much.” “That’s a shame.” “Yes.” There was something in the flatness of the answer that stopped Rory asking why. A bus passed outside, its windows lit and crowded. For a second the light carried faces across the walls, over the maps and photographs, then left them in the bar’s amber dimness again. “So you work here?” Nia asked. “Not really. I live upstairs.” “With him?” “Above him.” “Sorry.” “I deliver food. Chinese restaurant. The owner’s good to me.” “And law?” Rory pressed her thumb against the wet side of her glass. “No.” “No as in you didn’t finish, or no as in I should mind my business?” “I didn’t finish.” “All right.” She had been prepared for surprise, concern, the careful rearrangement of Nia’s face. The simple answer unsettled her more. “You can say it,” Rory said. “What?” “That I was supposed to be a barrister.” “Were you?” “My dad thought so.” “That isn’t what I asked.” From the other end of the room came the brief tearing sound of Silas opening an envelope. Rory looked at Nia’s ring again. “Are you happy?” Nia gave a small breath through her nose. “We’ve been sitting down for four minutes.” “Five.” “You always did like a direct question.” “And you always answered a different one.” For the first time, Nia drank. “I have a daughter,” she said. “Megan. She’s two.” Rory sat back. “Oh.” “That one was an actual surprise, then.” “Yes.” Nia picked up her phone, tapped it, and passed it across the table. On the screen, a child in yellow boots stood inside a cardboard box. She had one hand raised, her face stern with some private instruction. “She looks like you.” “She looks like Peter’s mother. Everyone says so. I’ve started saying it first to save time.” But she smiled as she took the phone back. Rory recognised the expression without having seen it on Nia before: amusement softened by a fierce, unguarded affection. “What was she doing?” “Being a bus driver.” “In a box?” “The route had budget problems.” Rory laughed properly this time. Nia put the phone down. “She’s with my mum tonight. Peter’s away. I had a dinner thing round the corner, and I left before pudding.” “Why?” “I didn’t want pudding.” It was plainly not the answer, but Rory let it stand. Nia looked towards the bar. “How long have you been here?” “A little while.” “Eva said you’d moved.” Rory’s hand stopped on the glass. “You spoke to Eva?” “Last Christmas. I saw her at the station.” “What did she say?” “That you were in London. That you were all right.” “She wasn’t supposed to—” “She didn’t give me an address.” Nia’s voice stayed quiet. “I didn’t ask for one.” Rory looked down. Along the inside of her left wrist, the small crescent scar caught the light. Nia had been there when she got it, both of them nine, climbing through the broken pane of an abandoned greenhouse. Nia had wrapped the cut in her own T-shirt and led Rory home bare-bellied and furious, as though the glass had betrayed them. “I wasn’t hiding from you,” Rory said. “I didn’t say you were.” There it was: the conversation beneath the conversation, stirring at last. One of the men beneath the map laughed too loudly. Rory waited for the sound to die. “How’s your dad?” “He died.” The words were so quick and plain that Rory did not understand them at first. “When?” “Four years ago.” “Nia.” “November.” “I didn’t know.” “I know.” “What happened?” “Stroke. Then another one in hospital.” Rory remembered his slippers by the kitchen door, his habit of calling both girls trouble without looking up from the paper. He had once driven twenty miles to retrieve them after they missed the last bus, saying nothing all the way home. At Nia’s house he had made toast. “I’m so sorry.” Nia nodded. “Why didn’t you tell me?” For a moment Nia’s face changed. Not much. Her mouth tightened around the chipped tooth. “I did.” Rory felt the cold glass beneath her fingers. “You rang?” “I sent messages. Then I rang.” “I never—” “I came to your flat.” The room seemed to withdraw a little. “In Cardiff?” “Yes.” “When?” “The week before the funeral.” Rory could see the flat’s hallway with painful clarity: the shoes lined against the wall because Evan disliked anything in his way, the dead bulb above the door they had never replaced. “Did you see me?” “No.” “Was he there?” “Yes.” Nia moved her phone half an inch, aligning it with the table’s edge. “He said you didn’t want to speak to me.” Rory stared at her. “And you believed him?” “I didn’t know what to believe.” “You knew him.” “I knew you hadn’t answered me in months.” Rory opened her mouth, then closed it. Nia’s eyes shone, but her voice did not rise. “The last time we spoke, you told me to stop making everything difficult. You said I couldn’t stand you having somebody.” “I remember.” “You said some other things.” “I remember those too.” She remembered Evan beside her on the sofa while she spoke into the phone. His hand resting on her knee, approving the words she found. Afterwards he had been gentle. They had ordered food. She had mistaken the easing of his anger for peace. “Nia, I—” “You don’t have to explain it all.” “But I didn’t know about your dad.” “All right.” “I would have come.” Nia rubbed a thumb over the base of her glass. “I needed you to.” Rory looked towards Silas. He was talking softly to the woman with the book, giving them the courtesy of his attention elsewhere. She wanted, briefly and shamefully, an interruption. A dropped tray. Someone calling her name. Anything that would require her to stand and do something she knew how to do. “I’m sorry,” she said. Nia nodded again, but it was not forgiveness, or not only that. Rory could not read it. “I thought you’d come back eventually,” Nia said. “Not to Cardiff. To me. Then things happened, and I got tired of having conversations with you in my head.” “What did I say in them?” “Mostly what I wanted you to.” They sat without speaking. Outside, someone stopped beneath the neon to fold an umbrella. Water streamed from its spokes onto the pavement. Rory could smell the garlic in her own shirt, and the wine, and the faint furniture-polish scent of the table. “Peter sounds nice,” she said at last, then winced. “I don’t know why I said that.” “He is nice.” “Good.” “He puts my phone on charge if I fall asleep. He knows where Megan’s socks are. He isn’t especially interesting at parties.” “Neither am I.” “You used to be.” “I used to be drunk.” Nia smiled, faintly. “Are you happy?” Rory asked again. This time Nia considered it. “Sometimes. More often than I notice.” Rory nodded. “And you?” “I’m getting better at being on my own.” Nia looked at her for a long moment. “That sounds like something.” “It is.” Her phone lit up. A message from Mum, Rory saw upside down. Nia read it and smiled, then typed with both thumbs. “I should go. Early train tomorrow.” “Right.” Neither moved. Rory picked at the label still stuck to her thumbnail. It came off in a small, grey curl. “Will you give me your number?” Nia’s gaze lowered to the scrap of paper. “Will you use it?” Rory could have promised too much. She felt the old urge to make the moment bearable by saying exactly what it needed. “Yes,” she said. “Not every day. But yes.” Nia held out her phone. They exchanged numbers. Rory sent her a message while they were still sitting together: It’s Rory. Nia’s screen lit. She glanced at it, then at Rory. “I know.” At the door they embraced again. This time Nia set her bag down first. Rory held her a moment longer than was comfortable. Beneath the damp wool, her friend was warm and solid. When she let go, Nia touched her left wrist with two fingers. “Greenhouse,” she said. “Yes.” “Your mum was so angry.” “She thought it was my idea.” “It was your idea.” “I know.” Nia laughed, and stepped out into the rain. Rory watched her turn up her collar and join the people moving along the pavement. The camel coat remained visible for a while. Then someone passed between them, and when the way cleared Nia was gone. Silas came to collect the glasses. “Another soda?” “Please.” He took them away without asking anything else. Rory sat back down. Her phone lay on the table, silent. She opened Nia’s contact and looked at the name, then wrote, Send me a picture next time she’s driving the bus. She read it twice before sending it. At the bar, Silas ran water into the sink. Rory waited, listening to the glasses knock softly against one another.