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The rain had been at it since four, a fine grey thread stitching Soho to its pavements, and the green neon above the door of the Raven's Nest buzzed against the dark like something alive. Rory sat at the end of the bar with her jacket still damp on her shoulders and the smell of sesame oil and wet streets coming off her delivery bag, and she watched Silas pour a pint the way he did everything — unhurried, exact, as though the glass had told him a secret and he intended to keep it. "You're staring again," he said, not looking up. "I'm practising." "Practising is what you call it." He set the pint in front of the man three stools down, came back wiping his hands on a cloth, favouring his left leg the way he always did when it rained. "What did you see tonight, then?" "Woman in the corner booth. Married, ring off, ring in her coat pocket — she keeps touching the pocket. The two men by the door aren't together, they just want to be. And your friend with the pint is about to ask for another and pretend it's his first." Silas's mouth moved under the grey-streaked beard, not quite a smile. He turned the silver signet ring on his right hand with his thumb, a habit older than she was, probably. "You'll do," he said, which from him was a certificate framed on a wall. Then the door opened and the rain came in with five people wearing the same kind of coat, laughing the way people laugh when someone else is paying, and Rory registered them the way Silas had taught her — hands, faces, exits — and then stopped, because one of the faces had come out of a life she'd boarded up. She knew the exact second she was seen. The woman faltered mid-laugh, one hand still on a colleague's sleeve, and her head tipped the way it used to in the back row of lectures, when she was checking that Rory had heard the same absurd thing she'd heard. "Aurora?" The name crossed the bar like something thrown. "Aurora Carter. Oh my God." For a moment — one clean, cowardly moment — Rory considered the back room, the bookshelf, the door that wasn't a door. Instead she set down her glass and turned on the stool and became, briefly, a person she no longer was. "Nia." Nia Bevan crossed the room with her arms already open, and Rory stood into the hug and felt the unfamiliar press of a life she'd left — Nia's perfume, Nia's wool coat, Nia saying her old name into her hair. Over Nia's shoulder she caught Silas watching, mild as weather, and then he turned away to give them the gift of his back. "What are you—" Nia held her at arm's length, the way you'd hold a photograph. "God, look at you. Your hair's shorter. You look—" A recalibration, quickly smoothed. "You look great. We're up from Cardiff — well, I'm at a firm in Blackfriars now, trainee, second year — it's Gareth's birthday, one of the associates, we were going to that place on Brewer Street but the queue—" She laughed. "I'm babbling. I'm sorry. It's just. Aurora. It's been — what, four years?" "Something like that," Rory said. "And it's Rory now. Mostly." "Rory." Nia tried it and visibly found it too small. "Right. Rory. Sit, sit — can I—" She gestured at the bar, and Silas materialised with the quiet timing of a man who'd spent decades appearing where he was needed. "Gin and tonic, please. Whatever's — yes. Thanks." She slid onto the stool beside Rory's and looked at her again, frankly, the way she used to look at problem questions. "So you're in London. You're—" Her eyes dropped to the delivery bag by the stool, the reflective strip, the logo of the Golden Empress in faded gold. "I deliver," Rory said. "For the Golden Empress. Part-time." "Wait. The Golden Empress? We order from there at the office. Like, constantly." "Then I've probably been in your lobby." Nia laughed, and then heard herself, and stopped. "I didn't mean—" "It's all right," Rory said, and meant it, mostly. "It pays the rent. I live upstairs." "Above the bar." Nia said it without unkindness, which was somehow worse; Rory watched her rebuild the picture in real time. Aurora Carter, first in torts, Brendan Carter's daughter, the one who argued circles round the seminar tutors and once made a visiting QC laugh and concede a point in the same breath — that girl lived above a Soho bar with a delivery bag. "Your dad," Nia said carefully. "Does he—" "He knows I'm alive." Rory turned her glass. "We leave it there." Silas set down the gin and tonic and withdrew. The colleagues at the table by the maps had got loud about a round of shots; somebody's birthday was happening to somebody. The rain worked at the windows. Nia drank, and Rory watched her decide which of the hundred questions she was allowed. "He's married," Nia said at last, quietly, not looking at her. "Evan. Last summer. To Celyn Price — you remember Celyn, hockey, the—" "I remember Celyn." "I didn't know if I should tell you. I didn't know if you—" Nia's thumb made a circle on the bar. "He asked about you. A while back. At Rhodri's wedding. He said you just left. No note, no — that you just went. And I said I didn't know where you were, which was true, and then he—" She stopped. "I didn't know if saying nothing was right. Was it right?" "It was right," Rory said. Her voice came out level, and she noted that with something like pride, the way Silas had taught her to note things — from a distance, as evidence. "You couldn't have known. Nobody could. Everyone liked him. I liked him. That was the problem, at the start." "But the night you—" Nia turned on the stool. "You rang me. The night you left. Two in the morning. I was asleep, and I heard the message the next day, and by then you'd gone, and I've still got it, Aurora. Rory. I've never deleted it. Four years and I can't delete a forty-second voicemail." Her voice had gone thin. "You sounded so calm. That was the frightening part. You sounded like you were reading a list." Rory remembered the voicemail the way you remember a room in a house you moved out of — the shape of it, not the words. A night bus window. Her own face in the dark glass. Eva's voice in her other ear, saying come, just come. "I should have picked up," Nia said. "I've thought about it every — I should have picked up, or I should have believed you sooner, about — there were things I saw, and I told myself it wasn't my—" She stopped again, because the sentence had nowhere decent to go. "Nia." "I told you to give him another chance. Once. Do you remember? His birthday, the thing at the—that restaurant, and you were quiet all night, and afterwards I said he loves you, that's all, give him another chance." She was looking at her own hands now. "I think about that sentence more than I think about most things." The bar hummed. Somebody at the birthday table was telling a story with both hands. On the wall behind them, black-and-white strangers stood in their fixed decades, mid-life, mid-laugh, and the old maps held their obsolete borders. Rory turned her left wrist over without meaning to, and the crescent scar caught the low light — pale, small, older than all of it. Nia saw it. "You still—" She reached out and didn't quite touch it. "Penarth. The sea wall. You were eight and I dared you to walk the whole thing and you fell off on purpose rather than admit you were scared." "I didn't fall on purpose." "You absolutely did. You came up off the rocks with your wrist open and you didn't cry, you were just furious. At the wall. You stood there bleeding, shouting at a wall." Nia's eyes had gone wet and she was laughing at the same time. "You were afraid of nothing. That's what I keep— you were afraid of nothing, Aurora, and then some man with good teeth taught you to be afraid of everything, and I was standing right there and I called it love." "Don't," Rory said, gently, because the girl who'd shouted at the sea wall and the woman who now counted exits in every room were both listening, and both of them wanted to be kind. "You were nineteen. We all called it love. I called it love for longer than you did." Nia wiped under her eyes with the heel of her hand, careful of her mascara, and drank, and for a while they sat in it — the four years, the two names, the voicemail kept like a relic in a phone. Then Nia said, "You could finish. The degree. London's full of universities, you could transfer credits, you could—" and stopped, because Rory was smiling, and it wasn't a bitter smile, which was the confusing part. "Maybe," Rory said, which was the word she used for doors she hadn't decided about. "You're different," Nia said. "I keep trying to say how. You're—quieter. But not smaller. That's the strange thing. I expected—" She shook her head. "You seem like someone who's been somewhere." "I have," Rory said. "Mostly W1. The noodles go cold if you take the long way." Nia laughed, properly this time, and Gareth the birthday associate loomed up to reclaim her for shots, and she stood and hugged Rory again, harder, and pressed a napkin into her hand with a number written in eyeliner pencil because neither of them could find a pen. "I'm in Blackfriars," she said. "I'm fifteen minutes away. I've been fifteen minutes away for two years and I didn't even know. Don't be four years again. Please. Rory." She said the new name like a promise she was practising. Then she was gone into the loud bright centre of the birthday, and the door opened and closed, and the rain took them all, and the bar settled back into its low brown quiet. Silas came down the length of the bar unhurriedly, limping a little, and took Nia's glass, and set down a fresh one in front of Rory that she hadn't asked for — something amber, two fingers, no ice, exactly what she wanted and hadn't said. "Friend of yours," he said. Not a question. "Someone I used to be," Rory said, and then, because he deserved better than a line: "Someone who knew me before. There's a difference." "Mmm." He polished a glass that was already clean. "Keep the napkin, lose the napkin, either way — she knows where you live now." He nodded once at the room, the maps, the photographs, the green light buzzing at the window. "That's not nothing. Most people go their whole lives without anyone knowing where they live." He moved off down the bar. Rory sat with the glass warm in her hand and the napkin dampening under her palm, and she turned her wrist over and looked at the small crescent scar, the wall, the sea, the girl who'd jumped rather than be afraid, and she thought that Silas was right, and that Nia was right, and that you don't get to keep every version of yourself — but sometimes, on a wet night in Soho, one of them walks in out of the rain and says your old name like a bell, and you find out which parts of you were load-bearing after all. She smoothed the napkin flat and put it in her pocket.