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Rain had turned the green neon above the Raven’s Nest into a second, wavering sign on the pavement. Rory stepped over its reflection and into the warm, beery dark. She smelled of sesame oil and wet wool. Her last delivery for the Golden Empress had taken her halfway to Bloomsbury, and Yu-Fei had sent her back with a carton of rice, strict instructions to eat it, and no sympathy for the weather. Rory’s shoulder-length black hair was damp at the ends. She wanted her flat, dry socks, and twenty minutes in which no one required anything of her. Silas stood behind the bar drying a glass, his silver signet ring catching the light whenever he turned his wrist. Old maps and black-and-white photographs watched over the usual scattering of early drinkers. He glanced at Rory, then past her, and something in his face altered by less than a degree. The woman beneath the map of Europe had her back to the room. Rory knew her by the way she pressed her thumb against the side of her forefinger. Eva had done it while thinking through examinations, while lying to her mother, while deciding whether to jump from the wall behind Mr Bevan’s garage. Once, the gesture had left a smear of blue ink on the side of her hand. Now her nails were short and immaculate, and there was a charcoal coat folded over the chair beside her. Six years since they had last occupied the same room. Three since Rory had heard her voice. Her first thought was not joy. It was that the bookshelf at the rear of the bar was only a few steps away, and Silas would open the room behind it without asking why. Her second was shame for the first. She set down the delivery bag. As if the small sound had summoned her, Eva turned. “Carter?” No one else had ever made Rory’s surname sound so much like a dare. “Hello, Eva.” Eva half rose, then sat again when Rory did not come forward to embrace her. The indecision was new. At nineteen, Eva would have crossed the room already, talking before she arrived. “You cut your hair,” she said. “Years ago.” “Of course. Sorry.” Eva gave a short, disbelieving laugh. “I don’t know why I said that.” Rory took off her wet jacket and hung it over the back of the chair. She could feel Silas’s attention without having to look for it. When she did glance over, he lifted one eyebrow. She gave him the smallest nod. He returned to his glass. Eva watched the exchange. “Do you work here?” “I live upstairs.” “Here?” “Above it. Slightly less atmosphere, slightly more damp.” Eva smiled, then stopped, uncertain whether she had been invited to. That uncertainty hurt more than the question. She nodded towards Rory’s delivery bag. “And that?” “Golden Empress. I deliver for Yu-Fei part-time.” Rory sat. “What about you? Still making the world safe for contractual obligations?” “Still trying.” Eva’s hand settled around her whisky. “Senior associate now.” “Congratulations.” “It sounds more impressive without the hours.” There followed a silence in which Eva looked at her properly. Rory knew what she was searching for: the old forward tilt of her shoulders, the restless hands, the habit of rushing into every pause before it could become uncomfortable. At nineteen, Rory had treated silence as something broken that she was obliged to fix. Now she waited. “You’ve changed,” Eva said. “I should hope so.” “It isn’t a criticism.” “I didn’t take it as one.” Eva looked down at her drink. “No. I suppose you wouldn’t tell me if you had.” Around them, the bar continued with admirable indifference. Someone laughed near the fruit machine. Rain needled the windows. Silas moved along the counter with his slight left-sided drag, setting down a bowl of peanuts for two men studying a racing page. “I came in because my client dinner was cancelled,” Eva said. “I had an hour, and it was pouring. I saw the sign.” “The raven has that effect.” “I didn’t know you were in London.” Rory picked up the cardboard coaster and aligned it with the edge of the table. “I’ve been here a while.” “How long?” “Almost since I left Cardiff.” Eva became very still. Rory had imagined variations of this moment. In most of them, Eva shouted. In others, Rory was articulate and cold, producing explanations in the correct order until the whole business resembled a case that could be won. She had never imagined Eva simply looking at her, one thumb worrying the side of her finger. “You were here,” Eva said. “Yes.” “All this time?” “Nearly three years.” Eva took a careful sip of whisky, though care seemed beside the point by then. “I looked for you.” “I know.” “No, you don’t.” Her voice remained low. “Your number stopped working. Your email came back. I wrote to your mother, and she told me you were safe, which was apparently meant to satisfy me. I thought perhaps you’d gone to Ireland. I thought you might be with someone from university. Once I spent an entire evening ringing hospitals because a girl on my course said she’d seen you at Euston and you looked ill.” Rory said nothing. “And then I thought you were dead.” The words did not break. That made them worse. “I sent you a message,” Rory said. “One message.” “I know.” “Stop saying that as if knowing is the same thing.” A flush had risen along Eva’s throat, above the severe line of her shirt. Rory remembered her crying without embarrassment at school concerts and films with sad dogs in them. Somewhere in the intervening years, Eva had learned to keep her face composed while the rest of her body objected. “I kept the spare room ready for four months,” she said. “Then I let it to a woman from Leeds who microwaved fish. I behaved as if she’d done it deliberately.” Despite herself, Rory felt the beginnings of a smile. Eva saw it and looked away. “I’m sorry,” Rory said. Eva’s eyes returned to hers. “Why didn’t you come?” There it was: not why did you vanish, not why did you make me suffer, but the question beneath all the others. Rory could still remember the stairwell in Cardiff, the cold concrete against her back, Evan’s footsteps moving through the flat above. She had called Eva because Eva was the only person whose instructions she trusted enough to disobey her own fear. Go now, Eva had said. Don’t pack. Get to the station. Come to London. My flat is yours. Rory had taken the advice and not the offered room. “Because you knew me before,” she said. Eva frowned. “Before what?” The question was genuine. Rory had to look down before she could answer. When she did, her voice was steady. “You would have been kind.” “Of course I would.” “I know. I couldn’t have stood it.” Eva’s mouth parted, but nothing came out. “I didn’t want you to see the flat I’d left things in, or hear what I’d put up with, or watch me decide every morning whether I was going to get out of bed. I didn’t want to be brave in front of you. I certainly didn’t want to fail at it.” Rory turned the coaster over. Its underside was dark with moisture. “Then enough time passed that ringing you seemed to require an explanation. After that, every week made the explanation longer.” “It wasn’t about me,” Eva said. “No.” “It was to me.” Rory absorbed that. Once, she would have apologised again simply to make the pain stop moving between them. Now she made herself remain inside it. Eva rotated her glass. “I brought him to that party.” Rory had known they would arrive here eventually. “Yes.” “You asked me what he was like. I said he was clever.” “He was.” “I said he was charming.” “To you.” Eva winced. “That isn’t the defence you think it is.” “It wasn’t meant as a defence.” “The first time you tried to end it, you rang me. You said he’d gone through your phone and then locked you out of the bedroom. I told you he was terrified of losing you.” Eva’s composure thinned. “I used those exact words. As if terror were an explanation. As if it were love with worse manners.” Rory remembered standing in the kitchen with one shoe on, holding the phone and looking at the other shoe beneath the table. She had wanted so badly for Evan’s behaviour to become something ordinary that she had accepted any word that made it smaller. “I said it too,” she told Eva. “That doesn’t make it better.” “No.” “You don’t get to make him something I did.” “And you don’t get to decide what I carry.” Silas passed behind Rory on his way to the till. He did not slow, but the glass in his hand clicked once against his signet ring. Rory drew a breath. “You were wrong.” Eva met her eyes. “Yes.” “And when I called you from the stairwell, you answered. You stayed on the phone until I was on the train. Both things happened.” Eva pressed her lips together and nodded. The old Rory would have reached across the table then. She would have found a joke, or taken the blame, or made Eva tea until neither of them could remember what had required forgiving. This Rory let the truth sit where it was. Not to punish Eva. Simply because it was true. At last Eva’s gaze dropped to Rory’s left wrist. The small crescent scar had gone white against her rain-reddened skin. “Mr Bevan’s wall,” she said. Rory looked at the scar. “A door, according to you.” “A door with broken glass cemented along the top of it.” “You were never an accomplished liar.” “I got four stitches’ worth of blood on my school cardigan and had to tell my mother we’d been fighting a vampire.” “You said I’d been fighting a vampire. I was the one with the scarf wrapped round my arm.” “You were entirely unsympathetic.” “I was twelve. And you’d fainted.” “I had not fainted. I sat down very quickly.” The laugh escaped Rory before she could decide whether she wanted it. For an instant Eva looked so startled that Rory nearly laughed again. Then Eva did, covering her mouth with one hand as if laughter, too, required permission now. Silas chose that moment to arrive with a plate of buttered toast. He set it between them and looked only at Rory. “Eat,” he said. “I have rice.” “You have rice in a bag. This is toast on a plate. Civilisation advances.” He limped back towards the bar before she could answer. Eva watched him go. “Is he always like that?” “Only when he’s worried.” “He seems very worried about toast.” “It’s a manageable concern.” Eva took a piece when Rory pushed the plate towards her. They ate without speaking. The bar had filled while they talked, bodies gathering two deep near the counter, wet coats steaming gently beneath the old photographs. Rory wondered how long her rice had been going cold. She thought of her flat overhead: the narrow bed, the books stacked beside it, the window that rattled whenever buses turned into the street. None of it was the life she and Eva had once described to each other, lying on the grass in Roath Park with the absolute authority of girls who had never paid rent. Still, she had made it without an audience. She was reluctant, even now, to surrender that fact. Eva checked her watch. “My dinner’s in twenty minutes.” “All right.” “I could cancel.” “You don’t have to.” “I know.” Eva put the watch face back against her wrist. “Can I see you again?” Rory’s first answer assembled itself out of caution: busy schedule, uncertain shifts, no need to force anything. It was a good answer. It would have spared them both the possibility of disappointment. She looked at Eva’s untouched second piece of toast. “Thursday,” she said. “I finish at nine.” “Here?” Rory hesitated, then gave her the thing she had asked for rather than the safer version. “I’ll be here.” Eva nodded. She did not ask her to promise. At the door, she struggled briefly with her umbrella before stepping into the rain. Rory watched her go beneath the green neon, a composed woman in a charcoal coat who had once fainted at the sight of blood and once kept a spare room empty for four months. When Silas came over for Eva’s glass, Rory said, “She’s coming back on Thursday.” He did not ask what that had cost her. He moved the toast closer and returned to the bar. Rory took another piece. It had gone cold, but she ate it slowly, listening to the rain. The years remained exactly where they were. Thursday stayed small and ordinary, and she let it.